Hobbies&Habits
Greenlighter
Hello all,
Up until about a year ago I was going to school for a degree in film. During this time, I was extremely passionate about making films and I was probably working on a new project almost every weekend. I eventually had to leave school due to financial problems, but I continue to make short films in my spare time.
3 months ago, I was introduced to Methylphenidate. I felt an immediate difference in my work ethic while on it, so I began to take it while working on new projects (generally I'll choose a night once a week and take 36mg). I figured that a low dosage spaced out so far wouldn't cause much damage.
However, lately I've noticed that I'm barely motivated to work on my projects unless I'm on a high and I'm worried that my drive will completely disappear.
(Last month I was contracted to be a camera operator for a week and I ended up taking some every day)
I still function fine on a day to day basis (keeping a steady job, taking care of myself, etc.), however I can't bring myself to even look at footage while sober.
Is my lack of motivation stemming from the methylphenidate? If so, what steps should I take to motivate myself while sober?
Has anyone had similar experiences where methylphenidate or other amphetamines have sapped initiative from a specific area in their life?
Up until about a year ago I was going to school for a degree in film. During this time, I was extremely passionate about making films and I was probably working on a new project almost every weekend. I eventually had to leave school due to financial problems, but I continue to make short films in my spare time.
3 months ago, I was introduced to Methylphenidate. I felt an immediate difference in my work ethic while on it, so I began to take it while working on new projects (generally I'll choose a night once a week and take 36mg). I figured that a low dosage spaced out so far wouldn't cause much damage.
However, lately I've noticed that I'm barely motivated to work on my projects unless I'm on a high and I'm worried that my drive will completely disappear.
(Last month I was contracted to be a camera operator for a week and I ended up taking some every day)
I still function fine on a day to day basis (keeping a steady job, taking care of myself, etc.), however I can't bring myself to even look at footage while sober.
Is my lack of motivation stemming from the methylphenidate? If so, what steps should I take to motivate myself while sober?
Has anyone had similar experiences where methylphenidate or other amphetamines have sapped initiative from a specific area in their life?
