This is Swims trip report from a few days ago. Its hazy in parts but he feels he NEEDs to talk about it as he have never felt anything like this in my life before.
Swim has always been into psychedelics from a young age. But a few years ago he had several bad trips with shrooms which changed his life for the worst. Swim was in love and in a good job.
Swim turned into a wreck and could never recover, feeling shame he didnt do more or get revenge. Swim was also troubled in the fact that he never found out if this had happened or if it was all a bad trip and his imagination.
Trip Report:
Swim aquired 1g of methoxetamine and 10 Etizolam. Friday night he partook in a large dose of MXE and 5 Etizolam combined with half a bottle of whiskey. Lay in bed listening to music. Feelings of numbness and disassociation were the only feelings noted. Half of the Mxe was consumed via insufflation. No visuals besides distortion. No CEV's.
Saturday was pretty much the same. All the MXE was consumed and 3 Etizolam followed by a quarter of whiskey. Less is remembered about this night as SWIM suspect he blacked out. Fragments come back to him but nothing worth note.
Sunday. Swim felt rather confused and manic. Took 2 Etizolam and lay in bed. Lit 3 incense sticks and opened the windows. Turned the music up loud without headphones in ( SWIM is usually very quiet and this is very unlike him )
He lay in bed with his eyes closed just relaxing.. not expecting to trip or feel anything. He was WRONG.
Half way through the ablum Swim sat up in bed.. each song was MAGICAL and kept getting better. He stared at his Cd player in disbelief as songs kept playing which were NOT on that cd.
Feelings of euphoria were building witch each song and Swim grabbed his bottle of whiskey, in fits of manic laughter he swigged and stared at the cd player in disbelief.
He could only relate this feeling to having a large family who dont see eachother very often but are very close. The CD should have finished by now.
This is the part he cant get over. He was FILLED with a feeling of pure love and ecstacy, a feeling he has never felt even on MDMA. I can only describe it as a religious experience, being hugged by god. Suddenly something in his brain clicked and he felt " Things would never be the same anymore ".
Panic started as he had no idea what was happening combined with the feeling he had to do something. He tried to compose himself and think of logical reasons to these feelings. There was none. Swim slept.
Its Tuesday now. Swim still feels strangely content and happy. Not like his usual self.
Feels like two years of misery and depression, missing out on life and love and happiness. Were reversed and given to him in the matter of a few minutes.
Swim doing this trip report no justice and i cant fathom the words to describe what it felt like. Nirvana ?
Words fail Swim.
Swim has always been into psychedelics from a young age. But a few years ago he had several bad trips with shrooms which changed his life for the worst. Swim was in love and in a good job.
Swim turned into a wreck and could never recover, feeling shame he didnt do more or get revenge. Swim was also troubled in the fact that he never found out if this had happened or if it was all a bad trip and his imagination.
Trip Report:
Swim aquired 1g of methoxetamine and 10 Etizolam. Friday night he partook in a large dose of MXE and 5 Etizolam combined with half a bottle of whiskey. Lay in bed listening to music. Feelings of numbness and disassociation were the only feelings noted. Half of the Mxe was consumed via insufflation. No visuals besides distortion. No CEV's.
Saturday was pretty much the same. All the MXE was consumed and 3 Etizolam followed by a quarter of whiskey. Less is remembered about this night as SWIM suspect he blacked out. Fragments come back to him but nothing worth note.
Sunday. Swim felt rather confused and manic. Took 2 Etizolam and lay in bed. Lit 3 incense sticks and opened the windows. Turned the music up loud without headphones in ( SWIM is usually very quiet and this is very unlike him )
He lay in bed with his eyes closed just relaxing.. not expecting to trip or feel anything. He was WRONG.
Half way through the ablum Swim sat up in bed.. each song was MAGICAL and kept getting better. He stared at his Cd player in disbelief as songs kept playing which were NOT on that cd.
Feelings of euphoria were building witch each song and Swim grabbed his bottle of whiskey, in fits of manic laughter he swigged and stared at the cd player in disbelief.
He could only relate this feeling to having a large family who dont see eachother very often but are very close. The CD should have finished by now.
This is the part he cant get over. He was FILLED with a feeling of pure love and ecstacy, a feeling he has never felt even on MDMA. I can only describe it as a religious experience, being hugged by god. Suddenly something in his brain clicked and he felt " Things would never be the same anymore ".
Panic started as he had no idea what was happening combined with the feeling he had to do something. He tried to compose himself and think of logical reasons to these feelings. There was none. Swim slept.
Its Tuesday now. Swim still feels strangely content and happy. Not like his usual self.
Feels like two years of misery and depression, missing out on life and love and happiness. Were reversed and given to him in the matter of a few minutes.
Swim doing this trip report no justice and i cant fathom the words to describe what it felt like. Nirvana ?
Words fail Swim.
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