last nights random MXE experiene was weird but amazing, felt like i had become a messiah or something and reached some level of enlightenment, upped the dose further than usual, didn't hole and lose myself but became at one, at peace everything melted together, all thoughts silenced into one perfect moment of "being". it seemed to lack the usual euphoria but it was awesome. woke up today feeling a bit groggy and realized i was slightly dehydrated, drank litres of water and it sorted it out, feeling ontop of the world, productive but not overly manic, feel on the spot, motivated, sharp. awesome stuff. excellent
Mine was also incredible.
I was in this blissed out wonderland of soft fuzz. Not even close to an m-hole, but I think that's how I like it best.
Was just at home by myself and it sure beats drinking by yourself, smoking weed by yourself etc.
Water is definitely something you have to remind yourself to drink on MXE. I setup a reminder on my phone.
Music was amazing.
Apparat - The Devil's Walk is an album everyone on MXE should listen to at least once. It's got a very slow and warm vibe, with evolving textures and melodies. If anyone has seen the latest breaking bad episode they use one of his tracks in Gus's final moments. Don't let 'the devils walk' put you off, if it's anything but devil/hell vibe, genre is mostly chillout. 'Synths swell up and retreat, drums skitter in and out frame-- there's a lot of motion but it's got grace and purpose.' Not such a good album awhile sober mind you.
Ended up reading Edgar Alan Poe on the tail-end until 5am.
Had a small amount of benzo (like equivalent to 5-10mg of diazepam, any-more and kills the warmness) Also had a cup of coffee around 11pm.
Can't really compare it to how good MDMA is, but it was approaching that kind of experience...minus the social aspects (although I still felt pretty damn social) Very profound.
Feeling great today

...a drug this good with no horrible come down? I'm glad I don't have much of it, and have managed to control myself from taking it much during the week.
For someone who has shyed away from psychedelics like LSD, mushrooms and the like in the last few years, it's the perfect 'trip'. Fear/paranoia never creeps in, and for me it kind of wraps me in a warm blanket where 'everything is going to be fine' - can't say it's the same for everyone though, I've yet to do large doses.