(Methoxetamine) (60mg)/Xanax (1.5mg)/Soma (1050mg)/Hash/Nitrous - Experienced - Woah!

[Project Will]

This was all written yesterday while very lost:

Let me start by saying that I am not in any danger. I am a 25 year old nocturnal primate. This is just me being fucked up and in a strange headspace, which I would like to have on record. Excuse any typos or incoherentcies and what have you. This is the forum equivalent to drunk dialing. Regret will ensue tomorrow and I should not be writing this for public consumption.

I have been smoking hash throughout the night and decided to take 1.5mg xanax and 3 350mg soma about two hours ago (1:00am). I have no tolerance with these substances, so needless to say this all put me in a sloppy state of mind. My brain is functioning quite different from normal. I then decided to take some MXE (like 60mg or so, also zero tolerance) under my tongue. It was delicious.

The past hour or so I have felt similar to when on dumbly high doses of ambien. I have been talking to my lamp, my dogs and whatever else I deem worthy of my words. I am speaking out loud as I write this like some kind of crazy lunatic at 3:15am. I forgot why I started writing but it seemed like a good idea at the time. Now as I look over it, I feel that anyone who reads this will look at me as some kind of nutty bastard. Fuck it. This is a trip report (or probably more of a blog, although I hate the idea of blogging) so I will report my trip.

I strongly feel the physical aspects of the xanax and soma - arms and hands are wobbly, legs not doing as I command, drooling like a moron, basically I'm all fucky. I have that benzo feeling in my mouth and throat. The confusion that typically accompanies MXE might be present but I can't tell yet since it's only been like 20 minutes since I took it. The TV is talking about blood sausage. Whats the fuck? I am unable to follow what is going on. Whippets feel as they usually do - intensely auditory feedback, visual distortion and weird vibes.

As the MXE starts hitting me stronger, I am in an entirely different mindset. Almost like a mild panic numbed by the benzos. My heart is racing and I feel very awkward and self conscious. I look at my life and see all the negative and none of the positive. I try to tell myself that it is the drugs talking, but the feelings of self-worthlessness are still present. This must be the hash talking. I will flight through it.

What am I doing to myself? This is an internal battle that is far too personal to share with everyone. I am writing this for me, so please do not tear me apart if you read it. I am a strong willed person who is often described as "grounded" or having a "solid head on his shoulders." Not right now though. I am weak. A piece of worthless shit. I am experiencing some intensely negative thought loops and need a break.

Smoke break...

I just smoked a cigarette and it sent my pulse sky high. I am feeling no panic though, likely due to the xanax. My mind is in a good place right now, quite content with how I feel and enjoying myself. The previous paragraph was written 15 minutes ago, and since then I have made a 180. All is well. My mental state has been enveloped by the MXE - confused but content. Physically numb and so beautifully euphoric. I am falling in love with MXE.

Somehow this weird combination of drugs has not ruined my writing skills. I have stopped talking to lamps and dogs as I feel less connected to them than I did earlier. I contribute this to the MXE, not sobering up. Somehow it is 4:08am and I am not sure where the last two hours went.

This experience was really good and kind of odd. I enjoyed myself from what I remember. The xanax was consistently part of this experience. Once the MXE kicked in, it fought with the xanax over what kind of high I am experiencing. Xanax was the bull fighter, MXE was the bull, hash was the rodeo clown and nitrous was the guy in the crowd blasting the air horn.

Was this safe? I hope so, because I would like to do it again.

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I lay here sinking into my bed 140mg MXE at 7:45am my girl next to me. Thoughts are changing rapidly up and down. Machines are outside grabbing trash and it fills me with dread. All is falling backwards and I lost the last 2 hours. I am comfortable and numbly laying in bed right now. The windows have light in them but everything is so upside down right now. I love this.

 

[pofacedhoe]

i recently had 4mg of diazepam to come down after beer wine, hash/skunk spliffs and lines of MXE throughout the evening, bumps of 20mg snorted seem to be amazing when spaced out over an evening, the opiate effect of MXE builds upon itself over an evening and in this fashion the dissociation is super lush against a strong euphoria and limited confusion. the valiums made me wanna sleep but as we had one line after them before bed there was a point where the mix of diazepam and MXE was peaking and i didn't enjoy it- it was uncomfortable mentally unlike the mxe bozze combo. it took a fat slug of wine to finally knock me out. benzo's (30mg valium) and MXE in my friend lead to severe retardation, falling into things and being commatose for hours (he also drank two bottles of red wine, but he has a benzo tolerance thats through the roof)

in my experience, people who can handle opiates find MXE easy to handle

it was described by a friend as stimulating unlike ket, little bumps of MXE lift people while large bumps confuse them and they get lost inside their own head. probably has strong DARI properties

 

[MyDoorsAreOpen]

Very nicely done trip report, OP. Looks like MXE has the same verbal ability boosting property that K has.

I don't think I'd do this combo -- not so much a benzo kind of guy, and that much sedation just isn't safe. I'm surprised you remember as much as you do from it, to be honest.

Xanax was the bull fighter, MXE was the bull, hash was the rodeo clown and nitrous was the guy in the crowd blasting the air horn.

 

[Project Will]

^ Thanks

I don't understand how this report was the least bit coherent. I was utterly demolished while writing it, and hardly remember much of it. I kept laying down and would fall for hours, then get stuck in these weird mental loops.

All of this was not the least bit terrifying looking back on it. Almost like another plane of existence where normal though processes and actions are unneeded. Like a game taking place in my head, of sorts. At one point I was convinced that I was stuck in an infinite loop of sleeping and waking up - I believed beyond a doubt that I was going to fall asleep and wake up and fall back asleep for the rest of eternity.

I am not sure of my exact dose as I acted foolishly and took key bumps the last few redoses. I would imagine that I took anywhere from 120-160mg, but can't be certain. It was a ton of fun and a very unique experience for me which I plan on repeating soon.

 

[psychoblast]

I have found mxe to have some "smart-drug-ish" qualities, under whose influence I've been brilliantly wasted.

~!psychoblast~

 

[RandomGuy123]

I think it was the Xanax that kept you from freaking out, sounded like you had a great time though.
Good vibes my friend, and remember, you aren't a piece of shit .

 

[Project Will]

^ There isn't a lot of fear from MXE, with xanax or without. I wish I could remember the experience more. It almost feels like a dream - after it happened the memory slowly faded like it wasn't real.