Totally agree , lower my dose the better more euphoria I feel tbh . And I'm on 30 mg now from 180 if I take an extra 30 in HIGH AF for 2 days , not literally but for a long while and it's a nice warm nodding high which sounds bad but it was so worth going down
I went from 120mg to 10mg in roughly a year. It wasn’t the most pleasant experience I’ve ever had but I don’t remember it being awful either. This was also the first and only time I had ever been on methadone. Not sure if that had anything to do with why it felt relatively ‘easy’ to me.
I know everyone reacts differently.
I did exactly what
@Keif' Richards said people tend to do. I went above and beyond what I knew I needed.
Methadone gave me the appetite of a pack of velociraptors.
It made me feel like complete dog shit. I was tired, fat, hungry, and had zero motivation 100% of the time.
I vividly remember getting up in the middle of the night and scooping mashed potatoes and gravy into my mouth with my hands. Then opened up a can of condensed milk and basically drank it. I was a fucking disgrace.
I had become a completely different type of unhealthy and that wasn’t sustainable either.
I can’t remember my exact timeline but it was something like this.
I started dropping by 20mg a month, which wasn’t nearly as uncomfortable as I thought it would be, until I got to around 60mg.
Then I dropped by 10mg a month until I got to 30mg. From there I dropped by 2-5mg until I was down to 8mg.
Then I fucked up. Inhaled steel wool and burnt the shit out of my throat. Didn’t tell the doctor I was on methadone (he didn’t bother checking) and was given a shot of dilaudid, and a couple refills. Then a bunch of other bullshit happened and I ended up on suboxone.
Methadone was an amazing stepping stone for me… and as much as I want off the suboxone (i’m down from 24mg to 8mg), I had no idea how
fuzzy methadone made me until I went on subs. Subs feel much cleaner and clearer… but I personally find them far more difficult to withdrawal from even when done properly.
I think I started to feel somewhat normal once I dropped to about 20-30mg of methadone.
Sorry for the rant but hope it helps in some way!