psytaco
Bluelighter
I'm actually thinking of biting the bullet and calling one of those 24 hour drug counselling lines - drugs have been issue for a while and I probably need to admit a problem and get advice on ways to cut back.
holy shit balls- i think I've just scored some of the best meth I've ever smoked. this stuff is like almost clear chunky solid shards. I think this `as close to pure product as u can get.
on a positive note I've been using a straight pipe, heating it up on my gas stove then dropping like a half point or so in and just twirling like a mofuck, goddamn i get high so quick its like an ice bong but with the fun of twirling.
Yah! i know exactly what your talking about! not only does the shit i get look nice and big fat chunky crystal fukin clear, but i snort small amount and fly for hours..... i havent seen different stuff so i wouldnt know if its all like that, or is some foggy?/not so big large fat clear crystally goodness!
Many of you talk about will power and such, being able to quit whenever! i dont doubt it, but like confidence in will power can cause you to find yourself against bigger obstacle of addiction/withdrawals than you anticipated, and TRULY put your "will Power" to the test!
I will honestly say that "i can stop whenever!" haha, i choose not to tho! AND i most likely am too blind to realize i actually cant!
I am half brain dead from sleep deprivation right now, i mean to say almost three months of binge-style use i have been doing. just about almost literally every day! but yah i can get some FAT shards to say the least!
So maybe I am sensitive, or have unique brain chemistry? i did notice on week one my tolerance climbing rapidly, into week two and closer to week three was like i just was numb to it! got bodily effects but that was it! no mental effects! so started doing research, managed to bring my tolerance WAY back down. do things like take amphetamine potentiators, and supplements to increase dopamine production. while apparently taking lots of Magnesium Citrate has my brain set at "low" for tolerance lol. i was surprised to read how fixed that was, but i just went down from big tolerance to almost none. and have been maintaining that ever since.
MORE IMPORTANTLY I am worried about the path i am on. past mistakes since then, and where i will end up. Time is like nothing! just constantly collapsing before my eyes (memory). as i look back and think, "its been that long already?" lol i mean i feel like i just must have it, and past/dormant psychological issues are coming up. i also find now i have a split personality disorder!!!! and without any shards (which feels like forever and i find some later in the day anyways) i find myself Angry, Irritable, and other stuff that puts me in BIG Fog of self control! Hense my split personality disorder, along with other problems. its definitly effecting the "mind" part of my brain as well. this mental instability without is insane. and i feel so nice and high and "dormant" on this stuff. all sped up for hours!... MOST the time i feel normal like everyone else. but like ive psychologically developed my own dependency/addiction while coupled with a unstable brain possibly? i dont know but since i've started, i refuse to stop, but still feel in complete control! like water and food and sleep are essential, if one is going to be a problem, we tend to think about how soon the issue can be resolved. so i do the same now with meth! i've got a new stash before i run out, because "what am i going to do!" haha, but seriously....
MY ADVICE: Be Extra careful if you used to take anti-psychotic meds prior to meth use! it can trigger bizarre reactions!
I dont even notice when i switch personalities! im always me! haha however, one night i go outside to my car and there is random person sleeping in back seat! i woke him up and he said he was supposed to be dropped off at McDonalds??? like what da'fuk! im dropping off a sleeping person to McDonalds?! this was at 3am i find him there!
this non-stop meth use is blurring time together! its day/night forwards to backwards, and somehow upside down. yet doesnt move, just one weird flat constant. lol
Any QLD'ers contact me about the purity of it (50%+) apart from the Mexicans' shit (95%)...holy shittttttttttttttttt! i couldn't handle it and become another statistic!
Thank Fuck, we live in Australia!
Meth's affects are that you think your ok and better then normal, gives you motivation for almost anything and a incredible aphrodisiac, If you don't sleep you begin to live in a lucid dream which makes some people incredible paranoid..
You dance with the devil when you take meth. Some people will only dance with him others will just get a fleeting glance at him. The people who sell their soul to him will never recover.
I would love to quit but it's fucking everywhere, yeah I should change my group of friends but it's not that easy. Since Friday night I would have been given at least 2 grams. I have a huge tolerance which has just recently got to a point where I have to smoke or inject 3-5 p before I feel stimulated. Just say NO you say? try saying NO to a drug which from the very 1st time I tried made me feel normal and able to think clearly for the 1st time in my life.
This morning I had 6 minutes to make it to a train, I almost got there until I had to stop otherwise my heart was going to BLOW.
Meth's affects are that you think your ok and better then normal, gives you motivation for almost anything and a incredible aphrodisiac, If you don't sleep you begin to live in a lucid dream which makes some people incredible paranoid..
I dance with the devil regulary. I'm tired of this same dance and need to get away from it. My problem is I am diagnosed ADD and are prescribed 10 dexamphetamine a day. They have only been lasting 2 days now then I sleep and recover and repeat I have to get away from this