the_ketaman
Bluelighter
Its part anticipation and part of the physiological effects of the drug but I often need to poop right after a shot but because I'm on methadone its not as bad.
Ive really come to understand my relationship with meth & anxiety. I've been using a bit of clonazepam lately and and I've noticed if I have a smaller dose(2mg) of clonazepam before the shot I have a beautiful and completely nausea free rush(I almost always spew from a shot due to the butterflies/anxiety in my belly and the rush)
Now though, meth is affecting me how it did in the beginning before the anxiety affected me more than the meth. I've had the rushes people speak of, the plateau isn't so jittery because my head isn't waiting for something to go wrong and I die. I can just enjoy. Even smoke pot! Which is usually a big no-no!
I don't have consistent access to strong enough benzos to keep this up but I'm not touching meth without benzos anymore. I've been through the whole codependency thing so I know the risks. But I can enjoy it properly now.
Before I run out of benzos I'm going to do a 0.2g blast(something my anxiety prevented me from doing) and stop for bit. Even for me I've been hitting it hard!
Time for some cones of primo bud and off to see my partner and give him one of my trademark meth bonks lol love what I'm capable of doing to that man in the bedroom lol
Ive really come to understand my relationship with meth & anxiety. I've been using a bit of clonazepam lately and and I've noticed if I have a smaller dose(2mg) of clonazepam before the shot I have a beautiful and completely nausea free rush(I almost always spew from a shot due to the butterflies/anxiety in my belly and the rush)
Now though, meth is affecting me how it did in the beginning before the anxiety affected me more than the meth. I've had the rushes people speak of, the plateau isn't so jittery because my head isn't waiting for something to go wrong and I die. I can just enjoy. Even smoke pot! Which is usually a big no-no!
I don't have consistent access to strong enough benzos to keep this up but I'm not touching meth without benzos anymore. I've been through the whole codependency thing so I know the risks. But I can enjoy it properly now.
Before I run out of benzos I'm going to do a 0.2g blast(something my anxiety prevented me from doing) and stop for bit. Even for me I've been hitting it hard!
Time for some cones of primo bud and off to see my partner and give him one of my trademark meth bonks lol love what I'm capable of doing to that man in the bedroom lol