I don't know what to tell you. Different strokes for different blokes I guess. I tried herion once. Only snorted it. I snorted $15 worth my very first time. Puked my guts out for about an hour straight and after I was done puking I just laid awake in my bed for about 12 hours feeling extreme euphoria. It was all good but not something I could ever see myself getting hooked on. Downers are fun but they'll never really have a hold on me. Meth on the other hand has me for life. I haven't had any meth in almost a year but still there are many nights where I don't sleep at all because I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop thinking about the next time I'm gonna binge. It excites me that much even though I won't be able to have any again for almost another year. You're now on day 28? What do you mean? You've gone 28 days without using heroin? If that's the case and your naturally a downer kind of guy and you can't see yourself getting addicted to an upper then I'd say there's no reason for you not to try it out of mere curiosity. Unless of course trying meth will somehow lead you to get back on heroin. If it were me, as a life long "meth lover", I could never see myself getting addicted to any other drug. Especially not a downer.
I said the exact same thing for years, that I loved uppers, that I wanted drugs I could do stuff on and party, that I didn't see the appeal of downers (leaving out booze, as people seem to do), that there was no fun in drugs you just sat around doing nothing on, that I'd never do opiates, etc etc. So did most of the people around me. But I burnt out on that party/upper lifestyle, and I bumped into codeine by way of upper back pain (although I think it would have happened anyway via natural curiosity, especially with bluelight), and things just kinda went from there. Now I'm addicted to opioids and benzos, although both supplied by my doctor for maintenance/medical purposes these days.
Sure, there are some people who stay into the pills and/or meth kinda thing for life, but my experience over the last 8 or 9 years has been that there's usually a cycle of sorts, which most of the heavy drug users around me have gone through. Weed and booze as a teenager, then you hit 17/18 and suddenly it's pills and maybe hallucinogens, then you can't keep up with the partying with those alone, so you pick up meth, go hard for a few years, then burn out on the drug and the scene surrounding it (if you're lucky), by which point you've usually started using downers to cope with the side effects and the comedown, and you find yourself spending less time running around on uppers and more time chilling out on the downers (which I'll grant are a bit of an acquired taste), until one day you realize you'd rather spend a weekend in than out. Then it goes from weekends to every few days, to daily, etc etc. If you're lucky you're one of those types who finds weed sufficient as a comedown aid and you come full circle and end up a stoner again, if not it's benzos/opiates/booze/sometimes GHB.
My point is, these things go in cycles. I'm sure most meth users said they'd never use "ice" at one point back when they were a teenager first trying weed and pills, I'm sure most IV users said they'd never shoot up, I'm sure most opiate addicts said they'd never become addicted, or use opiates in the first place. Likewise for benzo addicts. It's easy to say you won't do something when you're at one stage in your life and your drug use, only to enter a different stage and have different need. Never say never, especially since it's easy to go from "never" to "just this once," and we all know where that leads.
Yeah, I have a similar story in some ways I used to use speed/base a fair bit at raves, like once a month, maybe fortnight, maybe weekly sometimes for over a decade, we'd sometimes get 1/4, 1/2 or full ounces of it and divide it amongst a few mates so we had a fair bit and could flog some to make our money back and maybe a little profit, anyway I always bombed it or racked it, i do recall people having snow cones but I never did it and we didnt ever see crystal so smoking it wasnt common and injecting wasnt something i wanted to try but some of my old mates did. I never formed a massive addiction, like said above I could keep relatively small amounts at home and not use it for weeks until the next rave or house party or club.
Around the yr 2000 I had pretty much stopped going to raves and clubs and also pretty much stopped using speed and E's and I noticed the powder speed was becoming rare and my mates were getting shards which they were smoking, and smoking alot, i kept being offered it but kept refusing, a few yrs later I left and moved away but kept hearing some pretty bad stories about some of them doing some horrible shit that they had never done whilst we used pills and speed, things like robbing people and scamming friends and friends of friends for large amounts and not repaying them, losing jobs and gf's and places they lived in etc etc.
I mentioned in one of these threads a while back that I thought the smoking and injecting part was a big part of the the addictiveness to ice but someone went nuts and said it's all the same, its the same drug and you can become an addict using it any type of way. I just look back at my back ground and my friends and how we didnt really become full on addicts and be bad people but some of the ones who moved on and couldnt stop puffing the pipe and injecting it really did some damage to their relationships and personal integrity imo.
Yeah it's a common story. The stuff completely tore up the rave scene here during the MDMA drought, K dried up just before the MDMA did, half the ''acid'' over here is DO* and GHB has never had a big presence in Adelaide (though that's probably a good thing, looking at what it did to the Melbourne scene), so once the MDMA was gone, and the summer of mephedrone was over, it was a choice between booze, dodgy piperazine pills or getting on the gear. I thought the anti-smoking laws were bad because they put 1/3 the crowd outside the venue, but the MDMA drought and subsequent inflow of shard into the scene put another 1/3 in the parking lot, smoking all night instead of actually going in to see the acts they'd paid for. A lot of people stopped going out (either because only 1/4 of the crowd was in the venue or because they figured it was just cheaper and easier to set up some decks or a playlist, invite a few people over and smoke at home), which meant less ticket sales, which meant less gigs, which kind of spiraled down. Not to mention all previous pill/K dealers who started dealing shard and ended up with their own habit, smoking all their profits. Luckily MDMA made a comeback last year, and from what I've heard and seen on FB, the scene has picked up considerably. Shame I don't have the energy for it anymore, and it feels strange going out at 25 and being surrounded by 17 - 19 year old gurners.
