search for my old posts i went off 80mg cold turkey bro, fill the clonidine and get some benzo's i was clean off methadone for 2 months and lost my family, my job, my girlfriend the only thing i didnt loose was my semesters worth of college work, i finished the semester. and now im doing heroin everyday.... so good luck man i got so sick of the world without being on methadone im back on h for life. at 21
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methadone withdrawl.. it hurts
- Thread starter silverfucked
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your in for months of emotional hell, at one point i even purchased a gun to shoot my self only to have my friend wrestle the gun out of my hands holding his gun as im telling him to fucking pull the trigger
after you make it through it though, you get so tough you will say fuck i can do h the withdawal aint shit compared to what ive been througn ect...
after you make it through it though, you get so tough you will say fuck i can do h the withdawal aint shit compared to what ive been througn ect...
silverfucked
Bluelighter
i refuse to play the role of the 'tortured artist' who needs junk to deal with a cold, harsh world anymore.. it simply isnt the reality, and junk will always be the utmost source of misery, regardless how well it gets me off for the moment..
honestly, just cuz i stop doing drugs doesnt mean anyone should trust me.. in seven years of fucking them over, i expect instant trust once i really change? fuck no... people are nice if you give them a chance, and a reason, and ive got seven years of reasons why they shouldnt..
any person who feels me or sympathises with me in this condition, excluding all the junkies that are believing the same lie they put in their veins everyday, is a true act of God, whatever/whoever the fuck that is..
honestly, just cuz i stop doing drugs doesnt mean anyone should trust me.. in seven years of fucking them over, i expect instant trust once i really change? fuck no... people are nice if you give them a chance, and a reason, and ive got seven years of reasons why they shouldnt..
any person who feels me or sympathises with me in this condition, excluding all the junkies that are believing the same lie they put in their veins everyday, is a true act of God, whatever/whoever the fuck that is..
zzITCHY420zz
Bluelighter
someone give an opinion PLEASE . i w/d'd from a 70-80ish mg hydro a day (at the end) habit...i have been off hydrocodone for over 17 days. the next two weeks after cold turkey from hydro, i started my PERsonally controlled methadone taper. in the end, i wasnt even using 2mgs daily, and i was in much pain mentally/physically . i experienced alot of shit, even till today. but today is SOOO fucking much better then the past few days have been. how safe is it, to take 5mgs of methadone just for a nice ltitle high? is it gona make me w/d hardcore?? im guessing it wont, if the last dose of methadone (which was serisouly like 1mg) was over 75 hours behind me. opinions please.
zzITCHY420zz
Bluelighter
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itchy you honestly have to take a lot more methadone than you were taking. I mean you did the taper all wrong. I dunno why you think its so bad for you. Its only bad if your on it for months/years. After a 80mg hydro habit i woiuldve taken like 15 mgs and then taper 2.5mgs every 3 days
zzITCHY420zz
Bluelighter
cool..what kinda w/ds do u think this 7mg dose i FUCKING relapsed on today would bring me..should i taper off this too? not really right..so yea. opiinons = appreciated..
zzITCHY420zz
Bluelighter
wsb, got any opinions for me? if u need more info, i got enough on this thread, but i got more info in my journal.
Beans
Ex-Bluelighter
theres a new myth going around that if you take about 400mg of cimetide and snort 6mg of loperamide, it will starve off all withdrawals. this is interesting to say the least. a buddy of mine was apparently able to starve them off for 2 weeks and as soon as he stopped taking the cimetide and loperamide combo he was on the shitter and sweating bullets for the next week. very odd, but quite interesting IMO. who wants to try it?
silverfucked
Bluelighter
day 6...
so i went to pick up my clonidine and they had accidentally gave me clonzepam instead.. needless to say i paid for it and got the fuck out.
i took 2mg last night.. it didnt help, at first at least. as i was try to sleep, my left arm kept cramping up, forcing me to move it... also i would lay in one position for about, 20 seconds the benzo woud make it feel real comfy, but the detox would have its way and it would start to feel as though my bones were ready to jump out of my skin... change positions, the cycle would repeat itsself.
its weird because in the past two mg would put me out, even after a speed binge.. but the almighty dope sick managed to overpower it for a few hours.. sleep came eventually.
i woke up to the sound of hammering(my neighbor) and instantly, i had felt as though someone had been beating me while i slept. none of the benzo,"its so hard to wake up" bullshit... straight awake and in pain.
so here i sit. though, i have to say that it feels as though today isnt as bad as yesterday. i've learned one thing though... 100 degree weather is not good for detoxing. lifting heavy stuff at work is not good for detoxing. trying to engage happily with customers, ad even friends is damn close to impossible.
and yet I strive on. my mu receptors are gonna be back. someday.
so i went to pick up my clonidine and they had accidentally gave me clonzepam instead.. needless to say i paid for it and got the fuck out.
i took 2mg last night.. it didnt help, at first at least. as i was try to sleep, my left arm kept cramping up, forcing me to move it... also i would lay in one position for about, 20 seconds the benzo woud make it feel real comfy, but the detox would have its way and it would start to feel as though my bones were ready to jump out of my skin... change positions, the cycle would repeat itsself.
its weird because in the past two mg would put me out, even after a speed binge.. but the almighty dope sick managed to overpower it for a few hours.. sleep came eventually.
i woke up to the sound of hammering(my neighbor) and instantly, i had felt as though someone had been beating me while i slept. none of the benzo,"its so hard to wake up" bullshit... straight awake and in pain.
so here i sit. though, i have to say that it feels as though today isnt as bad as yesterday. i've learned one thing though... 100 degree weather is not good for detoxing. lifting heavy stuff at work is not good for detoxing. trying to engage happily with customers, ad even friends is damn close to impossible.
and yet I strive on. my mu receptors are gonna be back. someday.
uumpaloompa
Bluelighter
silverfucked said:
4 months ago I came off 95mg cold turkey. I dont know if you've done the same or stepped your dose down, but I started feeling almost completely better by the 2nd week. after the first week all the physical stuff was almost completely gone.
it can be done!! hopefully you'll pull through, and feel the pain bad enough not to touch the stuff again. i've been clean now for 4 months, and its much much better than the ups and downs of opiate addiction.
all the best!
MikecMikec
Bluelighter
wow Opiates make meth coke and amp look so clean(addiction wise)... Im definately stering lear of Opiates
Onthenod
Bluelighter
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My own personal w/d symptom is feeling like the flesh is being torn from the top of my legs. I laid in the floor with a heating pad on the top of my legs for two days it seems. I don't know how you are working. The restless leg is awful plus stuff coming from every orifice. Then the insomnia seems to be the most lingering sypmtom for me. I feel you but sadly as mentioned earlier only an opiod will ease the pain. I wish you the best of luck.
silverfucked
Bluelighter
So after an extra day I went back to shooting tar after a year of not touching the stuff. I began having convulsions in which my legs, arms, and even head began moving on their own.
I shat and shat and shat till there was nothing left. I'd drink water and literally shit it out within ten minutes. There was no more white in my eyes, just glossy red. I slept in 30 minute intervals only to awake to the electric sting in my arms and legs, or to dry heave into a trash can.
Anything I got past my stomach I shit out instantly. Most wouldn't go past my throat.
This dealer was an asshole who gets off on watching other people get sick. I sat outside of his house, my head hanging out my window, vomit streaming down my door.
Harm reduction my ass when your this sick. He gave me a used rig, and it was in my arm no questions asked. I did bleach it, but still... Once that warm liquor/metal taste hit the back of my throat when I pushed off, the sickness everaporated.. Only to come back worse 4 hours later.
Within three days I had spent all my money. Within 5, pawned everything. By the sixth I was stealing again, something I havent done in a year.
I say all this to say that this shit aint no joke. Kicking H is like playing candyland compared to methadone.
Every boundry Ive ever set, I have broke for opiates. I freaked out two nights ago and deleted all the dealer's numbers, and have no communication with them. I scored 40mg of methadone yesterday and 32 hours later im still well.
but i know its coming again, and this time there is no way for me to score H. no way. short of suckin dick, and theres no way i can get in touch with these people. im gonna try and get 100mg methadone tommorrow and have someone dole me 10mg a day.. however, the chances of getting anyhting are at like 20% and the sicker I get, the harder it is to get shit.
wish me luck.
I shat and shat and shat till there was nothing left. I'd drink water and literally shit it out within ten minutes. There was no more white in my eyes, just glossy red. I slept in 30 minute intervals only to awake to the electric sting in my arms and legs, or to dry heave into a trash can.
Anything I got past my stomach I shit out instantly. Most wouldn't go past my throat.
This dealer was an asshole who gets off on watching other people get sick. I sat outside of his house, my head hanging out my window, vomit streaming down my door.
Harm reduction my ass when your this sick. He gave me a used rig, and it was in my arm no questions asked. I did bleach it, but still... Once that warm liquor/metal taste hit the back of my throat when I pushed off, the sickness everaporated.. Only to come back worse 4 hours later.
Within three days I had spent all my money. Within 5, pawned everything. By the sixth I was stealing again, something I havent done in a year.
I say all this to say that this shit aint no joke. Kicking H is like playing candyland compared to methadone.
Every boundry Ive ever set, I have broke for opiates. I freaked out two nights ago and deleted all the dealer's numbers, and have no communication with them. I scored 40mg of methadone yesterday and 32 hours later im still well.
but i know its coming again, and this time there is no way for me to score H. no way. short of suckin dick, and theres no way i can get in touch with these people. im gonna try and get 100mg methadone tommorrow and have someone dole me 10mg a day.. however, the chances of getting anyhting are at like 20% and the sicker I get, the harder it is to get shit.
wish me luck.
What was the reason that you had to come off so quick? Did you keep coming up dirty for coke, benzos , or opiates? You can just go to another methadone clinic and have them detox you or just go back on maintanence. I feel really bad for you dude. If i can help at all just PM me.
Prelude2TragedyII
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He came off so quick cause he didnt have the money.