leojay
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i was prescribed 130mg of methadone every morning for 6 weeks.
one week ago, methadone use ended. withdrawals started to get serious after about 3 days,
so i eventually used heroin. (never with so much regret and lack of joy) anyway, here it is,
one week since methadone, one night since heroin, i take the suboxone... and feel tremendous, god awful precipitated withdrawal. fml... so, i try my hardest to be a big boy, and i take MORE suboxone, why not? i figured that the methadone is getting ripped out and i'm going to get sick, but im going to get re-saturated with bupe if i take enough right?
so after 24mg of subs, i bang ~100mg heroin, rush, full effect, most importantly end of leg pains...
i did it only to calm my nerves, but it ACTUALLY worked...
can this be chaulked up to "everyones body is different"? i'm not so sure, because i used to limit myself to 2mg of bupe a day so i could feel my after-work bag... yea i was a great subutex patient, but it would be only like 33% euphoria/longevity...
so right now, its been 4 hours since the shot, and as little as 5 hours ago i dosed suboxone, once i could tell my brain made the descision to score, i sabotoged it's plan with another 8mg strip... yes, i fight myself, its disgusting....
but im high, there was a rush, it did not fade away instantly like it usually would on bupe... perhaps it was just a perfect dance of chemistry? i know bupe works, but getting off meth and going on subs is... i mean, c'mon! f'getaboutit!!!
anyway, im all woundup... sorry
so, holes in my brain? thoughts? merge to mega thread?
one week ago, methadone use ended. withdrawals started to get serious after about 3 days,
so i eventually used heroin. (never with so much regret and lack of joy) anyway, here it is,
one week since methadone, one night since heroin, i take the suboxone... and feel tremendous, god awful precipitated withdrawal. fml... so, i try my hardest to be a big boy, and i take MORE suboxone, why not? i figured that the methadone is getting ripped out and i'm going to get sick, but im going to get re-saturated with bupe if i take enough right?
so after 24mg of subs, i bang ~100mg heroin, rush, full effect, most importantly end of leg pains...
i did it only to calm my nerves, but it ACTUALLY worked...
can this be chaulked up to "everyones body is different"? i'm not so sure, because i used to limit myself to 2mg of bupe a day so i could feel my after-work bag... yea i was a great subutex patient, but it would be only like 33% euphoria/longevity...
so right now, its been 4 hours since the shot, and as little as 5 hours ago i dosed suboxone, once i could tell my brain made the descision to score, i sabotoged it's plan with another 8mg strip... yes, i fight myself, its disgusting....
but im high, there was a rush, it did not fade away instantly like it usually would on bupe... perhaps it was just a perfect dance of chemistry? i know bupe works, but getting off meth and going on subs is... i mean, c'mon! f'getaboutit!!!
anyway, im all woundup... sorry
so, holes in my brain? thoughts? merge to mega thread?
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