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Opioids Methadone is outdated, an idea to treat fentanyl addiction with fentanyl

tibberous

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For anyone who has gone to a methadone clinic, you know it sucks. You got to be there at a certain time, wait in line, and if you get sick before 24 hours is up (which can happen because of methadones half-life), you're screwed. And there are other issues, like 35mg being far to low for people used to fentanyl, not to mention the cost of a building and full time staff to basically do the job of a vending machine.

So why not make a vending machine that gives out, not methadone, but already-FDA-approved fentanyl (non for OUD)? It could be kind of like an ATM machine that gets installed in someone's house. It could have a screen and camera, to make sure the patient was the one getting the dose, and could even do teleheath with the doctor. It could connect to wifi, and have a cell phone inside, to make sure it wasn't tampered with or stolen. And since the machine would only be for 1 patient (or maybe 2 in the case of couples), there really wouldn't be that much incentive to steal the machine, no more than an oxycodone script, and far less than stealing an actual ATM machine.

Once a month (or maybe once every 3 months after the first year), a tech could bring out a month's supply of fentanyl, plus maybe 50% extra, which would allow for remote dosage increase, and a reserve in case the tech missed the refill. Instead of methadone that only could be dosed once a day, this could dispense multiple times a day. The tech could also allow for some fancy possibilities, like dispensing a snortable powder that had to be snorted in front of the camera, so it couldn't be diverted, or letting the machine do a drug test to make sure the person wasn't using more than prescribed. While some of these things could create "nanny state" issues, like making someone relapse on fentanyl because they tested positive for weed, if implemented correctly it could save lives.

I've tried multiple antidepressants and "psychiatry", and the only drugs that work for my depression are fentanyl and heroin. Currently psychiatrists just call this "treatment resistant depression", but there is clearly a treatment, which is largely why 100,000 people die every year from street opiates while probably millions more safely use them. Pretending that millions of people risk their freedom, lives, and a huge chunk of their income, for "no reason", or pure hedonism, or because they are "addicted" and just can't "get clean", is so stupid. People don't risk their life to get high unless they don't care very much about it, which is almost the definition of depression. People take pain killers to "kill pain", and the brain doesn't really differentiate between physical pain and emotional pain. That's because historically being poor and old an alone EQUATED to death - it's both a miracle AND paradoxically horrible that we've made it that someone can have no money or family or hope for a better life BUT can still survive for 40 or 50 more years. No wonder people kill themselves - nature can't, people don't starve anymore (Trump might have just changed this, but locking poor people up for stealing food will cost more than feeding them, so I think taking away food stamps was mostly a hollow promise. Billionaires tax cuts will likely just get added to the national debt).

For one thing, if I wanted to get high, I could get much higher smoking crack. I don't want to "get high", I want to get high AND not be miserable. The truth is a lot of people just have miserable lives, they are old and poor and alone and maybe sick and maybe actually dying. I hate to say it, but I think the 60,000 who kill themselves, and 100,000 who OD, aren't a "problem", they are a solution, for the ruling class. After all, it's not the millionaires and billionaires killing themselves, it's mostly poor old men. But if giving them a box of drugs that cost less than cable TV was the solution, and kept them working, (and it was cheaper than the money currently spent on psychiatrists and Prozac), maybe it would be worth doing? After all, America is facing population decline, and the 20 and 30 year olds OD'ing and sitting in prison for drug crimes could be working. Plus, this would crush the demand for illicit fentanyl - something methadone clinics don't do. Because people don't want methadone, they want fentanyl. But you can't give someone a 30 day script for yummy yummy fentanyl, it'll be gone in 2 weeks and they'll be buying more. But a machine that dispensed fentanyl 3 times a day? Or whatever someone's schedule was? (You could even try to make sure they didn't use within 1-2 hours of driving, something the Methadone clinic literally forces. Though there seems to be no evidence that it even causes problems - I wrecked once because of the Methadone clinic, and it was trying to get there before it closed, not after dosing).

If any blue lighters want to support my Kickstarter, I'll need an ATM machine, an ounce of fentanyl, $20,000, another ounce of fentanyl to put in the machine :) , and a meeting with Pfizer. Honestly though, this could be a billion dollar industry - it would create a ton of jobs, while giving people something they want, and providing a solution to a problem that government will pay for. It's not like the technology isn't there. But I know when I went to the methadone clinic, everyone said methadone was so addicting I'd be there forever. I got up to 75mg and quit, they wouldn't even raise me up enough to get off sick, and it caused such bad heartburn I felt like it was putting a hole through my chest. I think if people want to fight addiction, giving people drugs in the form they are used to them might be an important step. An orange film that absorbs through your mouth and makes your teeth fall out probably isn't as good as a powder that tastes like "fentanyl" which tastes "cut" which tastes like the same cut the cartels used to cut heroin with. Addicts brains have built that association for maybe 10 or 15 or 20 years - why try to reinvent the wheel? Even people who inject probably started snorting, so market it as a "snortable powder" or even a "drinkable powder", but if it gets sorted (or injected), at least it won't be full of Xylazine. Plus the ATM idea could technically let people "taper off" opiates using just opiates. But each person could discuss their goals with their doctor, so most people would probably stay on for life, which appears to be the only effective way not to relapse (obviously, since the whole opiate crisis was started by doctors thinking they could force people who didn't want to off painkillers).

I don't have the money to make this happen, but it seems like it could make a fortune while both improving the quality of life for addicts AND preventing the next generation of addicts. Because America will never stop buying opioids as long as there is billions of dollars in demand and literally million-person strong distribution networks. What makes the drug market so robust isn't even the cartel, it's that probably every junkie knows about 5 others who know 5 others. And since drugs are expensive everyone is always desperate for money, so even if every DEALER I knew got arrested tomorrow, even if they got arrested because I personally testified against them, I could still go buy go drugs as long as I had money. I can go buy fentanyl off 5 people right now. But know what I can't buy? Weed. If I want weed, I have to go to a store. But if I want weed from Mexico, I'd probably have to go there. That's what this machine could do for fentanyl - eliminate illicit demand. Who would pay $3,000/mo if they could get better shit from their health insurance for free? And thats all money that could stay in the US, instead of ruining lives in Mexico.

I actually first thought this up as just a time-relessed safe that would let people with no will power dispense heroin to themselves. I had 2 gs I wanted to last me 5 days before I went to rehab, and I did them all in 3 days. I don't know if it's possible to "taper" off opiates or not. I think it might be, but the timeframe is probably a lot longer than people think, and in the case of depression it's maybe never possible (or possible only if someones life improves). But now we have a situation where someones life sucks, they take opiates, then it sucks worse because of the expense, stigma, legal consequences of taking opiates. And then they are stuck in a spiral that ends in death (overdose or suicide, which are basically one in the same). Idiots blame the drugs, we blame the war on drugs, but this would solve that. Now, your life goes to shit, you try a couple antidepressants, those don't work, and boom, you got fentanyl on tap for as long as you need. I didn't do opiates until i was 28 - a breakup turned into addiction into bankruptcy and prison, then relapse because of both abuse in prison + still being poor. America is like winner take all. I was *almost* rich enough that I would have been rich forever, short of like a gambling addiction or getting into options trading. Now I'm at 0 and probably going to die, either from overdose or suicide (with a note probably being about the only difference). It sucks, some people don't have anything because they don't work for anything - because they have fun teenage years and fun 20's ; i didn't even get those. I worked like hell, just to blow 100k in a year on drugs. Now i can still work but I make a quarter of what I used to, and it just isn't worth it. I'm miserable without fentanyl, and even if i worked 24/7 i couldn't pay for my habit. I was going to use an SBA loan to buy a business, and would have made over 20k a month; now i can't make 20k a year, and am in pain almost every day. It's hell. Everyone says "go to a psychiatrist", but they literally don't care if you get better. It's the modern day equivalent of doctors "balancing the 4 humors", they prescribe like 4 things, and if those don't work, they tell you to "see a therapist" until you get bored or kill yourself. The whole profession is like something for kids that were good in school or had rich parents to do to make a lot of money. Gemini could probably replace every psychiatrist right now, but it's not a job, it's a license to print money. The government lets veterans go homeless, then buys them "psychiatrists", to prescribe them drugs that are 2% more effective than a placebo. While it has pain killers so good that dying cancer patients don't care they are dying. And why do people take these miracle drugs? Because they are addicted and can't quit and need treatment. Yeah, okay. And I'm also addicted to pussy, and wish big brother would cut my dick off so I could spend more time working. I don't even think the people who say this shit believe it, i think they just get paid a lot to say it.
 
My point was just that crack is a lot higher higher than opiates. I just can't even get motivated to get out of bed without them.
 
Actually a pretty cool idea tbh. I was talking to a dude from Canada the other day and he said they are a lot more addict friendly over there. This dude in Canada I know gets prescribed oxy and morphine by his personal doc because his doc doesn’t want his buying fent anymore for the street. Also said you can get dilaudeds and pharm grade beroin if you are an addict for harm reductions. He just said overall Canada is way better at helping addicts than the USA. And sorta like you mentioned I def think it would be a better harm reduction tool in the us for people to be able to be prescribed their doc in proper dosages. Enough to get the high and feel good but not enough to od of course. Get monthly bloodwork, urine screens etc to make sure they are actually taking the medicine (nothing else) and also not selling what they are getting prescribed. Like you said for a lot of people suboxone and methadone aren’t going to be enough. Some people are always going to want that opiate “itch” scratched. After saying all that I do think in the proper settings that methadone and subutex/ suboxone can be extremely helpful, but not for everyone. There definitely needs to be more options.
 
A dream…

Street fentanyl is only dangerous due to irresponsible and unknown dosing. When in a medical setting, fentanyl is actually an opioid with one of the highest (if not the highest) therapeutic value in regard to respiratory depression. It treats pain with minimal effects on the CNS+PNS when dosed properly. That’s literally why it’s used in every hospital and ambulance.

If the medical field ever starts treating fentanyl dependence with fentanyl itself, they should use an analogue with a longer duration if you ask me. That would require years of research and testing though.

In today’s opiate environment, I’d die to see all the old fentalogues become readily available again. Nitazenes are the devil’s doing. And I say that as a knowingly daily user of them.
 
How about only providing Sublocade? The withdrawals are gone and that is why addicts typically cannot stop is they do not want to go through withdrawals or they cannot afford the dope. The whole ideal of I am going to go on the street and use because the government or a doctor won't give me as much dope as I want, is addict thinking. When the pain of remaining the same is more than the pain of change then they will get clean. Who am I to get in the way of someone getting all the pain someone needs in order to change? Get it all, get on Methadone, don't work on recovery like how I chased drugs, score dope after the drug test at the clinic, commit felonies daily, drive your car on benzos & dope and run into a minivan full of kids and get 4 manslaughter charges.

Methadone is not played out. The clinic is the same routine of going out to score dope and the Methadone is cheaper & never has someone waiting in a parking lot for 2 hrs saying I am 15 mins away.

It is crazy being in pain management and seeing people in extreme pain from debilitating health conditions they can barely walk, sleep, eat, and never feel good. Yet most MAT patients are being prescribed 3-4 times more narcotic, they are not in extreme pain, not even mild pain, do not have debilitating health conditions to live with, after their dose it is skip to the lou, sleep great, eating fat style, and do not have to worry about nothing except work a program of recovery. That is where the "urge to use stops", not increasing "reward-seeking chemicals."

Sorry but not sorry. I am not mad at anyone. I happy for addicts having an option out. But MAT is a big racket playing with people's life's. The recovery happens in the meetings, having a sponsor, working steps, doing something different, downloading ll the bad information in my brain from chasing misprinted lies & make space to upload new information.

Using is a mental thing yeah withdrawals or PAWS is not fun but it gets better. Prognosis "poor" health conditions do not get better and there is no option to make it up financially and Mentally... "I could cut off my pride and buy some time. But a head full of lies awaits tied to my waist.." Without legit support groups and getting involved, that is all someone is left with.. the Methadone clinic and a head full of lies. Facts are 95% of an addicts thinking is messed up and other 5% needs to be run by a sponsor.

Pain management doctors should be running MAT. Oh boy that would "flip the script" literally... They know exactly how much MME to keep dependence symptoms to stop and forget about increasing the dosage after the initial cross-over phase is complete. Well that is not a good trade off because I can't get as much Methadone that I want.

And see people on MAT get mad at me for talking like this & that is fine. It is their disease mad at me for removing the ego and denial and I am speaking to the core, speaking to that voice that cried out right before getting on MAT begging one's self to seek help.
 
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Way back when they used to treat heroin addiction with heroin. Was common practice in the UK once upon a time until cost and politics got in the way. There are still a few people kicking about with legacy diamorphine prescriptions.
 
I've never been sure why Fentanyl patches have never been used for opioid addiction. Especially since a patch lasts 3 days, rather than having to take methadone or buprenorphine daily.
 
Drug abuse these days is worse than the heroin days. Sugarcoating and co-signing other people BS is not going to stop their funeral from taking place prematurely.

Here is an example, if someone is in MAT at 150-200mg of Methadone for a long period of time then they get a diagnosis of a condition that normally requires a substantial opioid treatment need, multiple surgeries OR they get cancer. The doctor's are not going to say "well since they couldn't stop shoving needles in their arm, now in the groin, we will Rx them 1000-1500mme daily out-patient for pain management."... Nope. Chances are they will order a $10,000 rapid detox to bring the physical dependence down, yet it will do nothing for mental tolerance. Bringing the daily mme down dramatically is first priority and pain management will suck ass.

If someone with chronic pain syndrome gets in the same situation and is on a lot narcotics, they will just increase the narcotics dramatically and if the patient asks for more because of breakthrough pain they will get that too. Ex-addict will have to jump through hoops.

If a patient needs a PICC line to infuse medications, if they are an addict or with extensive abuse history. The doctors typically will not install the PICC line and make the patient come to the hospital 4 times day or pay for a home nurse to come 4 times a day, only being able to stick IV each time. That gets expensive real quick.

I am far from okay. Chances are I will never be off Rx drugs due to multiple declining health conditions, I carry a high-risk patient document in my pocket, and I too in my early 20's sought help at the Methadone clinic. I started taking Rx opiates/opioids legally at age 7 until my early 20's and made the choice to start heroin being miserable in pain and my tolerance to Morphine, Hydrocodone, and Demerol got too high. I got involved in NA and had to go ham in recovery or I would have been long gone. The Methadone clinic let me go up to 180mg lol...

Two years after getting off Methadone, degenerative bone disease reared it's head and took over. My bones south of the knees crumbled requiring both ankles to be fused (5 total fusions from natural wear & tear), 2 exoskeleton removals, and 1 hardware removal. I now need to have my heels shaved down or have "pie-cuts" taken out of the heels, I need 3 perennial tendon repairs, and both achilles are close to even at 35% torn (around 50% they repair them). The degenerative bone disease started 15-16 years ago. My hips are so bad I cannot lay in a bed on my side, my knees are getting bad, and stairs are my mortal enemy now. Knowing I have multiple surgeries coming up, I started reducing my MME and knocked it down 105MME. If I could not be disabled and handicapped and off narcotics, I would be all over it. The drugs do not treat the brain well even if taken responsible. The natural order of things do not return.

I took the time to type all this stuff today because I can feel your pain and frustration and lack of self-control. If I didn't have my daughter, I would have already checked out if I could not find a poppy field to work & live there. Chronic pain syndrome can really wear a human down. On top of that, I have Hypertension II and (TBS) Tachycardia-Bradycardia Syndrome sometimes referred to (SSS) Sick Sinus Syndrome. My doctor also diagnosed me with hyperarousal or sympathetic overload :
-- (TBS) is when the pulse goes low then rapidly increases taking a long time to drop normal. Ex, 45bpm to 170bpm from sitting to standing/being active, happens 10-15 times per day
-- Sympathetic Overload is the "flight or flight response" is easily triggered by lower stress levels than normal, quick to rage, not healthy.

Your not alone brother. People on this forum understand, next best thing to NA.
 
Way back when they used to treat heroin addiction with heroin. Was common practice in the UK once upon a time until cost and politics got in the way. There are still a few people kicking about with legacy diamorphine prescriptions.
A guy I talked to in Canada said Some people do get pharma grade heroine scripts
 
I've never been sure why Fentanyl patches have never been used for opioid addiction. Especially since a patch lasts 3 days, rather than having to take methadone or buprenorphine daily.
The issue is whoever is prescribed them only get 10 per month making it hard to divert. Folding them in half on the active side and let them soak into the cheek.

I worked with a guy that cleaned out his Mom's after cancer took her. He found boxes of 100mcg patches. He put on 4 100 patches and took a hot shower unknowingly. EMS brought him back.
 
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The issue is whoever is prescribed them on get 10 per month making it hard to divert. Folding them in half on the active side and let them soak into the cheek.

I worked with a guy that cleaned out his Mom's after cancer took her. He found boxes of 100mcg patches. He put on 4 100 patches and took a hot shower unknowingly. EMS brought him back.

I forgot about the heat thing! Got a painful burn on my arm once from holding a (freshly boiled) kettle against it (through my hoody sleeve, at least) trying to exploit that
 
How about only providing Sublocade? The withdrawals are gone and that is why addicts typically cannot stop is they do not want to go through withdrawals or they cannot afford the dope. The whole ideal of I am going to go on the street and use because the government or a doctor won't give me as much dope as I want, is addict thinking. When the pain of remaining the same is more than the pain of change then they will get clean. Who am I to get in the way of someone getting all the pain someone needs in order to change? Get it all, get on Methadone, don't work on recovery like how I chased drugs, score dope after the drug test at the clinic, commit felonies daily, drive your car on benzos & dope and run into a minivan full of kids and get 4 manslaughter charges.

Methadone is not played out. The clinic is the same routine of going out to score dope and the Methadone is cheaper & never has someone waiting in a parking lot for 2 hrs saying I am 15 mins away.

It is crazy being in pain management and seeing people in extreme pain from debilitating health conditions they can barely walk, sleep, eat, and never feel good. Yet most MAT patients are being prescribed 3-4 times more narcotic, they are not in extreme pain, not even mild pain, do not have debilitating health conditions to live with, after their dose it is skip to the lou, sleep great, eating fat style, and do not have to worry about nothing except work a program of recovery. That is where the "urge to use stops", not increasing "reward-seeking chemicals."

Sorry but not sorry. I am not mad at anyone. I happy for addicts having an option out. But MAT is a big racket playing with people's life's. The recovery happens in the meetings, having a sponsor, working steps, doing something different, downloading ll the bad information in my brain from chasing misprinted lies & make space to upload new information.

Using is a mental thing yeah withdrawals or PAWS is not fun but it gets better. Prognosis "poor" health conditions do not get better and there is no option to make it up financially and Mentally... "I could cut off my pride and buy some time. But a head full of lies awaits tied to my waist.." Without legit support groups and getting involved, that is all someone is left with.. the Methadone clinic and a head full of lies. Facts are 95% of an addicts thinking is messed up and other 5% needs to be run by a sponsor.

Pain management doctors should be running MAT. Oh boy that would "flip the script" literally... They know exactly how much MME to keep dependence symptoms to stop and forget about increasing the dosage after the initial cross-over phase is complete. Well that is not a good trade off because I get as much Methadone that I want...

And see people on MAT get mad at me for talking like this & that is fine. It is their disease mad at me for removing the ego and denial and I am speaking to the core, speaking to that voice that cried out right before getting on MAT begging one's self to seek help.
Yeah this is well said I actually fully agree with this honestly

You still have to work a MAT program. It’s dangerous treating it as just some lazy stop gap
 
Yeah this is well said I actually fully agree with this honestly

You still have to work a MAT program. It’s dangerous treating it as just some lazy stop gap
That's right there is a MAT program that requires work. We only had one meeting per week there and that wasn't enough.
 

It's DONE - it was done almost 50 years ago. Compound 1C is some x106 morphine in potency and as the tail-withdrawl test shows, it's duration of action is over twice that of methadone.

The problem is that someone would have to go through all of the trouble to get a patent to prove it substitutes for fentanyl (if that is possible) and it strikes me that the cost of introducing a medication purely for the purposes of detoxification is still quite small. Don't forget that both methadone and buprenorphine are both also used in the treatment of long-term severe pain. Something this potent could not be used in those circumstances.

It's ALWAYS about the money.

I might add that we have no way of knowing if it's active or safe in man so when I see someone attempting to pedal R-4066 which has a much shorter duration of action than compound 1C but is and is twice as potent, they are just setting people up with truly herculean habits... then they can up the price. In essence, if something looks too good to be real... it isn't real.

I know because I've read the syntheses of R-4066 and 1 gram of the key precursor costs something like $4500 so selling at $45/g means either they misrepresent anotother drug or, as I noted, they are prepared to take the financial hit knowing that it's a one-way street so when the price increases a thousand-fold, addicts will have no option but to keep on buying.
 
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It's DONE - it was done almos 50 years ago. Compound 1C is some x106 morphine in potency and as the tail-withdrawl test shows, it's duration of action is over twice that of methadone.

The problem is that someone would have to go through all of the trouble to get a patent to prove it substitutes for fentanyl (if that is possible) and it strikes me that the cost of introducing a medication purely for the purposes of detoxification is still quite small. Don't forget that both methadone and buprenorphine are both also used in the treatment of long-term severe pain. Something this potent could not be used in those circumstances.

It's ALWAYS about the money.

I might add that we have no way of knowing if it's active or safe in man so when I see someone attempting to pedal R-4066 which has a much shorter duration of action than compound 1C but is and is twice as potent, they are just setting people up with truly herculean habits... then they can up the price. In essence, if something looks too good to be real... it isn't real.

I know because I've read the syntheses of R-4066 and 1 gram of the key precursor costs something like $4500 so selling at $45/g means either they misrepresent anotother drug or, as I noted, they are prepared to take the financial hit knowing that it's a one-way street so when the price increases a thousand-fold, addicts will have no option but to keep on buying.
Man you got some knowledge between the ears and have a profound way with words.
 
Personally i hate fent for anything other then pain. I have never had methadone but its got to be more euphoric then fucking fentanyl. Personally id rather codeine then fent for getting high. In BC they sometimes use dilaudid for addiction. Now that sounds like a recipe for one fuck of a tolerance. I got so bad with dilaudid years ago that i was shooting like 318mg hydromorph contins every 3 or 4 hours sometimes.

Personally i think morphine would make a good matienance drug
 
In BC they sometimes use dilaudid for addiction. Now that sounds like a recipe for one fuck of a tolerance. I got so bad with dilaudid years ago that i was shooting like 318mg hydromorph contins every 3 or 4 hours sometimes.

Personally i think morphine would make a good matienance drug

Yes - dilauded was chosen because it's like the budgie - cheep!

But is it true they were handing out pill knowing full well almost 100% of users would choose parentheral administration? It doesn't take a rocket scientist to work out that even just crushing and snorting a pill will increase it's activity fourfold.

I figure compound 1c would be the best for everyone assuming it is active and safe in man. Yeah it's costly to make but not 100x more costly than methadone. Someone could potentially make a profit from simply patenting it's use having fabricated all of the data. After all, patent zombies always buy on the contingency that a patent WILL be breeched so they can sue.

Imagine that as a business model? Stopping people from releasing possibly life-saving drugs until they get their cut. Nice people, I'm sure.
 
Ah yes the old "treat opiate addiction with more opiates" I was the worst victim of that mentality because despite how ilogical it is your brain makes you think that whatever you decide to do or are doing is fine as long as your fitting in getting more and more opiates and getting high as/more often as possible I think its the same for just about all drug addictions though I dont know if you are at that stage yet op where you can class yourself as an addict or just a habit but ofcourse the line between those two things is very thin indeed when it comes to opiates.

btw if anyone is interested I did the same thing only much much more stupid.. remember that word ilogical well I had that in spades bro because in my infinite late teenage or early twenties (cant remember exactly as time has flown by so fast) I decided after getting kicked off codeine and getting' banned from half the pharmmacies that instead of just rattling cold turkey I would score some smack and the rest as they say is history.

now let me tell you i know so many young "road man"(dealers) in england that sell dark (smack) see what it does to people and then drink lean thinking that because they "only take it to relax" that somehow they wont get addicted and end up on the smack one day like i did usually you cant tell them all they will say is "im not like them nittys them lot take it to get high i only take it to relax I wont end up like that are you mad bro" I remember one kid in particular who I used to work with and he always and i mean always had a bottle of lean with him but not the cough medicine one it was usually in a big water bottle so I assume it was home made cwe anyway that last quote is directly from him and this kid was actually a pain in the arse you know the type he starts fights over the stupidist things and loses sales because no one wants to deal with him because hes always running his mouth and talking to people like idiots in the end he started doing it with me and thought because i let him in once or twice because the boss told me to he thought he could just turn up as he please but one day i told him in front of bossman not to come back again as i had found out he had been verbally abusing and intimidating my neighnours so what does he do the next day.. he turns up like he never heard me and the boss was helpless because he couldnt control him but after that last time he came i rang the boss and said if he comes back again i will shank him mums life and i guess he must of said something cus he never came round again but despite all this i still told him that he will end up with a habit like me if he continues the lean and he was like "nah nah nah im not like you i dont take it to get high" so i asked him "ok x if you had no lean for a day would you be able to cope" and he hesitated, went to say something and then decided not to say anything.. tells you all you need to know.

you know when i was a kid we used to get up to no good and all that but the kids today have literally ZERO respect for their elders or anyone i am literally always saying that and when i say kids or youtes and i would call them irl I am talking about between the ages of 15/16 to 21/22 and if you think about it all these little baby pablo escabar wannabes one day they will have kids and they will probs be ten times worse and then THEY will have kids and carry on the proud traditions of talking loud and acting like degenerate scum me personally whatever i do or say on the road stays on the road when I am talking to my elders which to me is just people in their mid to late 30s or above I always show respect and use manners because it was just how I was raised. its funny because literally everyones parents and older siblings get on with me and like me because I guess they can tell im an honest/real person.

ps sorry to go off venting their at the end i just aint had the chance to talk about anything to anyone like this i used to have a diary that i would write anything in and let me tell you as a free tip for you guys using a diary to express yourself and record your daily routines/addiction might sound very cheesy or cliche but it is honestly so theruputic its just one of those things that most people (people like me lol) will not bother to use but those that do or just decide to give it a try because why not you have nothing to lose? well those people will discover its like your communicating and talking to yourself and giving your own subconcious therapy and visa versa I strongly reccomend anyone who has not tried using a diary, to do so after all as I said what have you got to lose right?

and one more 2 cents for you op, fent has sort of taken over the east midlands(and the rest of the uk by storm however that being said just as many people who now exclusively seek out fent also dont seek it out and just want normal gear this includes dealers to I do understand why some of them sell the nitizine tho you can make a lot off it but generally the people you deal with are gonna be a lot more sketchy and in bad shape(homeless) compared to the people who dont use fet or nitizine(sorry I meant to say nitizine took the uk smack scene by storm not fet fet is old news (in the uk that is) anyway the reason im saying this op is because that shit will fuck you up differently the addiction and the wd are much much more intense people are a lot more desperate when they are sick off a nitizine or fet habit now I dont know how long you have been using fet but im gonna tell you the best thing you can do mate to treat the addiction and that is to stop the fet right now and stick to h and if that fails or is not your cup of tea then you can maybe apply for a methadone or sub program if you are not ready to quit yet tho I strongly reccomend you stay away from the methadone I got off it 2 months ago (the last major wd symptoms stopped 2 months ago if that confuses you thats because methadone to put it into perspective is so fucking addictive that once your methadone tolerance reaches a certain point it is almost impossible for smack to get you well again if you aint had any methadone to yet you heard me right you can be smoking grams of decent dark and it will stop the worst wd symptoms but you will not feel 100 percent and still have those prior wd symptoms(anxiety, restlessness in short none of your favourites lad) that is what methadone does and I think taking methadone was one of the biggest mistakes i made I had no idea what I was getting into,

In short heroin/smack is bad but smack proper smack is the lesser of 2 evils and I strongly reccomend you replace your habit with smack or if that is not possible then get some oxy or hydro or something now the first few days you might not feel 100 percent but within 3 days your body will have mostly readjusted and you should start feeling good and then after another 3-7 days wou wont be waking up sick as a pig and generally will feel better oh man let me tell you I may have a habit myself but since I got off the methadone i feel like a million bucks that shit was killing me i would just lay dowm all day like a sloth rotting away cus it took all my energy and motivation away and at first this was great but after a few years i realised i aint getting any younger I have seen first hand what will happen to me in the future if i didnt make a change i wont go into detail because i aint feeling on getting on a deppressing grey cloud but personally I dont think it should be called liquid handcuffs and think it should be called liquid deathcuffs.

Please note that I was not using the methadone as intended as I was using it to top up the smack or help me get through the days when I had nothing but that was when my addiction was A LOT worst which is the undersatement of the century but people who see me now days always tell me they can tell that i have cut right back as I now have some healthy weight, colour etc but I still had that horrible fatigue that was keeping me inactive and when you are that inactive it does more and more damage the longer the inactivity goes on so thats why despite how hard it was (and it was very fucking hard even when I was smoking nearly 5g of decent smack a day) I never gave up or gave in to the methadone running to get a scripe and then gulping the whole bottle in one like a nigerian baby who had no water for days but this time i stayed strong and i got off it and let me tell you all my energy has come back like fucking clockwork and whats more I no longer have the methadone fighting the smack for space in my receptors so basically I am enjoying smack again like i used to before I got on methaone its a bit weird tho using in the morning and then starting to (or atleast in my head starting to) need another fix halfway through the day which i would never have to worry about on methaone for obvious reason but it still didnt stop me from smoking on top of it though oh and one more thing that im very happy about is the tolerance! methaone increases your tolerance more than anything else I swear down and when I got off it im pretty sure my tolerance and what i call 'base' tolerance has gone down significantly.

ONCE AGAIN for anyone reading this if you are serious about quitting then going on methadone is highly reccomended and proven beyond doubt to work under a doctors supervision and guarunteed to have minimal discomfort but only if you follow the doctors instructions/direction (and the gp knows what he or she is doing) but if you are not ABSOLUTELY 100 PERCENT SURE that you will be able to resist tempatation to use smack on top of the methadone or take more methadone than your supposed to (because yout still chasing that high) then stay the fuck away bro cus it will (literlly) eat your bones spit them out and twist then like a chinese forearm twist before I got off methadone I had always wondered if it was as bad as people said.

It is.

Peace.
 
Ah yes the old "treat opiate addiction with more opiates" I was the worst victim of that mentality because despite how ilogical it is your brain makes you think that whatever you decide to do or are doing is fine as long as your fitting in getting more and more opiates and getting high as/more often as possible I think its the same for just about all drug addictions though I dont know if you are at that stage yet op where you can class yourself as an addict or just a habit but ofcourse the line between those two things is very thin indeed when it comes to opiates.

btw if anyone is interested I did the same thing only much much more stupid.. remember that word ilogical well I had that in spades bro because in my infinite late teenage or early twenties (cant remember exactly as time has flown by so fast) I decided after getting kicked off codeine and getting' banned from half the pharmmacies that instead of just rattling cold turkey I would score some smack and the rest as they say is history.

now let me tell you i know so many young "road man"(dealers) in england that sell dark (smack) see what it does to people and then drink lean thinking that because they "only take it to relax" that somehow they wont get addicted and end up on the smack one day like i did usually you cant tell them all they will say is "im not like them nittys them lot take it to get high i only take it to relax I wont end up like that are you mad bro" I remember one kid in particular who I used to work with and he always and i mean always had a bottle of lean with him but not the cough medicine one it was usually in a big water bottle so I assume it was home made cwe anyway that last quote is directly from him and this kid was actually a pain in the arse you know the type he starts fights over the stupidist things and loses sales because no one wants to deal with him because hes always running his mouth and talking to people like idiots in the end he started doing it with me and thought because i let him in once or twice because the boss told me to he thought he could just turn up as he please but one day i told him in front of bossman not to come back again as i had found out he had been verbally abusing and intimidating my neighnours so what does he do the next day.. he turns up like he never heard me and the boss was helpless because he couldnt control him but after that last time he came i rang the boss and said if he comes back again i will shank him mums life and i guess he must of said something cus he never came round again but despite all this i still told him that he will end up with a habit like me if he continues the lean and he was like "nah nah nah im not like you i dont take it to get high" so i asked him "ok x if you had no lean for a day would you be able to cope" and he hesitated, went to say something and then decided not to say anything.. tells you all you need to know.

you know when i was a kid we used to get up to no good and all that but the kids today have literally ZERO respect for their elders or anyone i am literally always saying that and when i say kids or youtes and i would call them irl I am talking about between the ages of 15/16 to 21/22 and if you think about it all these little baby pablo escabar wannabes one day they will have kids and they will probs be ten times worse and then THEY will have kids and carry on the proud traditions of talking loud and acting like degenerate scum me personally whatever i do or say on the road stays on the road when I am talking to my elders which to me is just people in their mid to late 30s or above I always show respect and use manners because it was just how I was raised. its funny because literally everyones parents and older siblings get on with me and like me because I guess they can tell im an honest/real person.

ps sorry to go off venting their at the end i just aint had the chance to talk about anything to anyone like this i used to have a diary that i would write anything in and let me tell you as a free tip for you guys using a diary to express yourself and record your daily routines/addiction might sound very cheesy or cliche but it is honestly so theruputic its just one of those things that most people (people like me lol) will not bother to use but those that do or just decide to give it a try because why not you have nothing to lose? well those people will discover its like your communicating and talking to yourself and giving your own subconcious therapy and visa versa I strongly reccomend anyone who has not tried using a diary, to do so after all as I said what have you got to lose right?

and one more 2 cents for you op, fent has sort of taken over the east midlands(and the rest of the uk by storm however that being said just as many people who now exclusively seek out fent also dont seek it out and just want normal gear this includes dealers to I do understand why some of them sell the nitizine tho you can make a lot off it but generally the people you deal with are gonna be a lot more sketchy and in bad shape(homeless) compared to the people who dont use fet or nitizine(sorry I meant to say nitizine took the uk smack scene by storm not fet fet is old news (in the uk that is) anyway the reason im saying this op is because that shit will fuck you up differently the addiction and the wd are much much more intense people are a lot more desperate when they are sick off a nitizine or fet habit now I dont know how long you have been using fet but im gonna tell you the best thing you can do mate to treat the addiction and that is to stop the fet right now and stick to h and if that fails or is not your cup of tea then you can maybe apply for a methadone or sub program if you are not ready to quit yet tho I strongly reccomend you stay away from the methadone I got off it 2 months ago (the last major wd symptoms stopped 2 months ago if that confuses you thats because methadone to put it into perspective is so fucking addictive that once your methadone tolerance reaches a certain point it is almost impossible for smack to get you well again if you aint had any methadone to yet you heard me right you can be smoking grams of decent dark and it will stop the worst wd symptoms but you will not feel 100 percent and still have those prior wd symptoms(anxiety, restlessness in short none of your favourites lad) that is what methadone does and I think taking methadone was one of the biggest mistakes i made I had no idea what I was getting into,

In short heroin/smack is bad but smack proper smack is the lesser of 2 evils and I strongly reccomend you replace your habit with smack or if that is not possible then get some oxy or hydro or something now the first few days you might not feel 100 percent but within 3 days your body will have mostly readjusted and you should start feeling good and then after another 3-7 days wou wont be waking up sick as a pig and generally will feel better oh man let me tell you I may have a habit myself but since I got off the methadone i feel like a million bucks that shit was killing me i would just lay dowm all day like a sloth rotting away cus it took all my energy and motivation away and at first this was great but after a few years i realised i aint getting any younger I have seen first hand what will happen to me in the future if i didnt make a change i wont go into detail because i aint feeling on getting on a deppressing grey cloud but personally I dont think it should be called liquid handcuffs and think it should be called liquid deathcuffs.

Please note that I was not using the methadone as intended as I was using it to top up the smack or help me get through the days when I had nothing but that was when my addiction was A LOT worst which is the undersatement of the century but people who see me now days always tell me they can tell that i have cut right back as I now have some healthy weight, colour etc but I still had that horrible fatigue that was keeping me inactive and when you are that inactive it does more and more damage the longer the inactivity goes on so thats why despite how hard it was (and it was very fucking hard even when I was smoking nearly 5g of decent smack a day) I never gave up or gave in to the methadone running to get a scripe and then gulping the whole bottle in one like a nigerian baby who had no water for days but this time i stayed strong and i got off it and let me tell you all my energy has come back like fucking clockwork and whats more I no longer have the methadone fighting the smack for space in my receptors so basically I am enjoying smack again like i used to before I got on methaone its a bit weird tho using in the morning and then starting to (or atleast in my head starting to) need another fix halfway through the day which i would never have to worry about on methaone for obvious reason but it still didnt stop me from smoking on top of it though oh and one more thing that im very happy about is the tolerance! methaone increases your tolerance more than anything else I swear down and when I got off it im pretty sure my tolerance and what i call 'base' tolerance has gone down significantly.

ONCE AGAIN for anyone reading this if you are serious about quitting then going on methadone is highly reccomended and proven beyond doubt to work under a doctors supervision and guarunteed to have minimal discomfort but only if you follow the doctors instructions/direction (and the gp knows what he or she is doing) but if you are not ABSOLUTELY 100 PERCENT SURE that you will be able to resist tempatation to use smack on top of the methadone or take more methadone than your supposed to (because yout still chasing that high) then stay the fuck away bro cus it will (literlly) eat your bones spit them out and twist then like a chinese forearm twist before I got off methadone I had always wondered if it was as bad as people said.

It is.

Peace.
 
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