i hope this forum is suitable for this thread, i really need some feedback on this issue so anyway, here it goes:
I've been on methadone maintenance for 3 1/2 years and i'm absolutely miserable with being a slave to this drug for reasons i won't divulge here but are probably familiar to many of you here. So basically i'm at the point where i want off by any means necessary, the clinic i'm at is the apt foundation in new haven ct, like many it's primary interest is money, so they have refused to lower my dose many times so i've had to manipulate protocol and skip days where they have to drop you to 30 and build you back up and you can stop the nurse at a certain dose, sorry - off track, basically my history there is that i've been on 120 until about 3 months ago where i dropped down to 45 but was too sick because i was in a program and going through benzo and alcohol withdrawal at the same time- it was too much i was sent to the hospital cuz of seizures and benzo wthdrwl symptms bp was like 178/132 bad convulsions so anyway i went back up to 90, so i was on 120 for 3 years then 45
now i'm on 90 so my main question is what are my options for detox? has anyone here been on mmt for an extended period of time and detoxed without the typical slow taper? I've talked to two detoxes called sunrise house and summer house one of which says it's like 21 days and they give you a blind detox while giving you a cocktail every 4 hrs of some combo of liquid hydrocodone(wtf weak) liquid morphine and dilaudid. is this even possible without the suicides I've also talked to some people called treatmentsolutionsnetwork who i'm kind of skeptical of who say they can detox me first. I'm sorry if this is coming across jumbled mainly i'd just like to get some feedback, i'm desperate the clinic won't taper me i want off mmt more than anything in the world right now and don't know what the fuck to do can someone give me some advice please i'd really really appreciate it. once again i apologize for the scattered jumbled way this comes across my heads spinning right now after being on the phone with these places and inurance. any feedback would be greatly appreciated.
I've been on methadone maintenance for 3 1/2 years and i'm absolutely miserable with being a slave to this drug for reasons i won't divulge here but are probably familiar to many of you here. So basically i'm at the point where i want off by any means necessary, the clinic i'm at is the apt foundation in new haven ct, like many it's primary interest is money, so they have refused to lower my dose many times so i've had to manipulate protocol and skip days where they have to drop you to 30 and build you back up and you can stop the nurse at a certain dose, sorry - off track, basically my history there is that i've been on 120 until about 3 months ago where i dropped down to 45 but was too sick because i was in a program and going through benzo and alcohol withdrawal at the same time- it was too much i was sent to the hospital cuz of seizures and benzo wthdrwl symptms bp was like 178/132 bad convulsions so anyway i went back up to 90, so i was on 120 for 3 years then 45
now i'm on 90 so my main question is what are my options for detox? has anyone here been on mmt for an extended period of time and detoxed without the typical slow taper? I've talked to two detoxes called sunrise house and summer house one of which says it's like 21 days and they give you a blind detox while giving you a cocktail every 4 hrs of some combo of liquid hydrocodone(wtf weak) liquid morphine and dilaudid. is this even possible without the suicides I've also talked to some people called treatmentsolutionsnetwork who i'm kind of skeptical of who say they can detox me first. I'm sorry if this is coming across jumbled mainly i'd just like to get some feedback, i'm desperate the clinic won't taper me i want off mmt more than anything in the world right now and don't know what the fuck to do can someone give me some advice please i'd really really appreciate it. once again i apologize for the scattered jumbled way this comes across my heads spinning right now after being on the phone with these places and inurance. any feedback would be greatly appreciated.
