Third time’s the charm. My DOC is cocaine, but I also love taking amphetamines and other uppers. I’ve been doing coke every day for the last week — maybe around 5 grams total — and wanted a new high because my nose has been bleeding. My dealer offered me meth, so I said yes. He came over with a glass pipe, a torch, and the stuff (0.25g). He lit it up for me and told me how to inhale.
But I never felt that euphoria or the amazing feeling people describe. When I got home, I took a few more hits — still nothing. The only thing I noticed was that my urge to do more coke went away and I wasn’t sleepy. The next day, I tried again and still nothing. Then I realized I had no gas in the torch lighter. I did manage about eight more hits, but still nothing — just felt confused and tired.
Later, my dealer came by to deliver more coke since the meth wasn’t working, and he filled up my torch. I decided to give it one last try. I took a few hits in the car with him, came home, did two small lines of coke — and voilà! I was completely euphoric, to the point where I had to calm myself down.
I always binge on stimulants, and it usually gets to a point where they stop working, but in this case, meth never worked until I added the coke. I guess my body needed those two lines to “lift” my brain. Now I have to take a two-hour ride to my parents’ house completely wired, and the woman driving me is very polite and religious. I’m trying to figure out how to act normal because I like the high but don’t like being around people who aren’t friends when I’m like this.
Oh — I forgot to mention that I take Bupropion and Sulpiride in the morning, and Quetiapine, Trazodone, and Zolpidem at night (otherwise I can’t sleep). I’m wondering if maybe the meth didn’t work at first because of those meds.
And yes, I do know it’s extremely dangerous to mix cocaine and meth — I’m aware of the risks, but I’m trying to understand why the reaction was so different this time and what’s happening in my body.
But I never felt that euphoria or the amazing feeling people describe. When I got home, I took a few more hits — still nothing. The only thing I noticed was that my urge to do more coke went away and I wasn’t sleepy. The next day, I tried again and still nothing. Then I realized I had no gas in the torch lighter. I did manage about eight more hits, but still nothing — just felt confused and tired.
Later, my dealer came by to deliver more coke since the meth wasn’t working, and he filled up my torch. I decided to give it one last try. I took a few hits in the car with him, came home, did two small lines of coke — and voilà! I was completely euphoric, to the point where I had to calm myself down.
I always binge on stimulants, and it usually gets to a point where they stop working, but in this case, meth never worked until I added the coke. I guess my body needed those two lines to “lift” my brain. Now I have to take a two-hour ride to my parents’ house completely wired, and the woman driving me is very polite and religious. I’m trying to figure out how to act normal because I like the high but don’t like being around people who aren’t friends when I’m like this.
Oh — I forgot to mention that I take Bupropion and Sulpiride in the morning, and Quetiapine, Trazodone, and Zolpidem at night (otherwise I can’t sleep). I’m wondering if maybe the meth didn’t work at first because of those meds.
And yes, I do know it’s extremely dangerous to mix cocaine and meth — I’m aware of the risks, but I’m trying to understand why the reaction was so different this time and what’s happening in my body.
