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Meth - Very Experienced - Bor-ing!

It's whatever in the sense that I'm not getting off on it much lately.

And yeah, I do think that I'm stronger than meth, because meth has no strength of its own. It only has the strength someone gives it. I don't give any drug power over me. I have seen people give substances complete power over them, and that's a bad situation.

But any drug has only the power you give it. That's my position and I'm sticking to it.

PS. I'm female.
 
That stuff is so boring and lacking to me. It's a constant buzz... sure there is euphoria but it can't match what im used to (some nice, quality MDMA crystals down the hatch), and it doesn't even help me get stuff done.. like Cocaine does. Which is the only reason I use that.

But anyway, maybe its a good thing that your recent experiences have been mediocre. That'd be a positive change to rid of it.
 
hmmm... well I've been smoking meth for only two years but i keep a daily journal of this crazy drug experience. Reading back, I noticed the dope was lower quality around this very same time last year. Perhaps it's a seasonal thing?
 
nikki is right, It only has as much power as you give it. Some of you people make meth sound like alcohol in an AA meeting. No one is powerless too it. I love meth, been doing it on and off for 2 years now. Almost 2½. I've never bought some when I needed other things, I've never put it ahead of friends *I invite them over to smoke with me* we never get greedy. When one of us buys we share. and when It's gone It's back to normal life. We dont prowl the streets in search for more. We've never purchased meth more than once In a 2 week stretch. When the shits gone It's gone

out of site, out of mind.

Now If I could only do what I do with meth with cigarettes I'd be fine.


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We don't always know ourselves well enough to make judgements about our own drug use. In fact, we are often in an unpriveledged position to make objective claims about our own drug use.
 
samadhi_smiles said:
We don't always know ourselves well enough to make judgements about our own drug use. In fact, we are often in an unpriveledged position to make objective claims about our own drug use.
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I judge myself by results.

Am I in good health? Yes. (Meaning, I get regular checkups and my doctor says I'm fine.)

Do I maintain a job that suits my goals in life and provides me with the income I need? Yes.

Do I have loving, long-term relationships with the people around me? Yes.

Do I, in general, feel happy and satisfied with who am and the life I've created for myself? Yes.

Am I getting any information whatsoever from people around me - most of whom do not use drugs at all - that my drug use is negatively impacting my life as a whole? No.

That's what I know...
 
When you develop a tolerance for meth it simply isn't worth it anymore. It's a costly habit. I've been off the shit for a year and decided to do a good gram for old times' sake. Maybe it was the stuff, but it certainly didn't feel like anything I was used to. The thrill is gone, and I certainly hold the drug in a different light now. It was exciting and dangerous then, but boring and predictable now. Scoring in the slums for friends still gives me a great rush, though. Gone are the days of 72h binges though; it simply isn't as fun anymore and I don't think I'd be interested. The only enjoyment I get nowadays is introducing meth to friends who are curious and inexperienced. I feel great validation, and I'm glad to be their guide into the land of the lost. I must admit, the ritual of scoring in the ghetto brought back many memories of my former lifestyle. Meth is an ugly drug that takes lots of money, and lots of following up. I haven't lost my steady foil hand, but I've lost all interest in serving slides almost altogether now. I have a gram left in the bathroom and I'm selling it as soon as I can. Just you wait though, I'm probably going to just say "fuck it" and smoke the shit instead of getting bank. I know myself like that. I'm bored and feel like being up and about. Such is the euphoric, monotonous and dull high.
 
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Wel, it's not expensive for me because it's extremely hard for me to find any to buy. But the thrill does seem to be ebbing away...
 
The only stims I've smoked are crack (hated it) and desoxypipradrol. Now THAT rush I enjoyed a LOT, but then I was awake for 3 days. :\
 
NikkiNumberNine said:
But any drug has only the power you give it. That's my position and I'm sticking to it.
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I agree in a way, although IMO it's oversimplifying a bit. No drug has the power to force itself into your hands, make your hand move to your mouth, make you swallow, etc. But drugs can unquestionably influence the decision making process to some degree.

Humans are supposed to be rational creatures, i.e. the rational part of our brain can override any desire, craving or urge whatsoever and... act rationally. Sometimes I despair of this being the case in actual practice though.
 
I have also noticed that a lot of what is going around as meth does not quite have the kick that good meth is characterized by, probably a result of tight pseudo suppplies. Thank you Uncle Sam for making our drugs more expensive, more dangerous, and more available to more kids.
 
^Based on the bag I banged last weekend I can definately say there's still straight shit in MN. It's getting harder to find; but there's still flame ice out there...I have a mild tolerance atm and my heart-rate was still 135BPM and I had only been able to sleep for 3hrs approx. 46hrs after 0.5g IVed.
 
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