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Meth uses. Your usage.

garygroundwork

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Meth uses chime in.

I'm interested in how often you use.?

Everyday use?
Every morning?
Under control only on weekends?
Monthly or maybe special occasions?

Do you have your usage under control or has it got you?
 
Started as a once in a while thing with my girlfriend(now meth-fueled fiancé. Just kidding), but for a few reasons but mainly in my attempt to kick suboxone ended up using more and more and now it’s a daily thing. My girl can’t be sober(and neither can I, not fully anyway) and subs didn’t hold her like they did me, so meth it was. I didn’t quit the subs to switch to meth, I’d been trying to get off those demons in a strip for a while now lol. Her late boyfriend got her hooked bad on fent and as much as I loved that man, his death was by far the hardest hitting out of everybody I know, it was fucking upsetting to see where he’d gotten her. Anyway different story. I’ve been trying to quit subs and they just made my girl want opiates that actually do something, so in an attempt to not fully reverse helping her kick fent and spiral back down in general meth consumption went up. And up. Doesn’t help now the stuff I’ve been getting has been absolute garbage and over priced, leading to more use and more money spent.

At first I’d thought the shit we were getting was good, but soon after started getting stuff that actually was good and barely had to use any all day, even smoking. It lasted like that for a long time, obviously tolerance went up but it never caused a dramatic increase in use. The last few weeks everything we’ve gotten has been trash - tastes bad, vapes bad, barely does a thing to me no matter how much I smoke. Although last night I found out it does in fact have some sort of stimulating activity because in an attempt to actually get it to do something I smoked too much and while I still wasn’t high my heart went off the rails. I don’t even dare sniff it even though they’re usually really nice looking crystals. It’s always the same shit no matter what person or city I get it from, I don’t think it’s the cartel shit either as whatever this shit is definitely isn’t pure, at least I don’t think. It always ends up as a black puddle at the end of the bowl, which though my experience is limited to the last year I’ve never seen before.

I almost think it’s a different substance entirely, because it has about zero of meths characteristics other than the appearance. The last shit I got either has my entire upstairs(or maybe it’s me?) lingering an odor that I almost want to say smells like chlorine but it’s definitely not chlorine. I know tweakers are known for the cat piss smell at times, but I’ve never smelled this one before. And I’d hardly say I’m tweaking - I’ve been about sober as a fucking bird lol
 
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