Meth - Experienced - Meth, hillbillies, syringes and Me.

[flashthechamber]

I knew these people for awhile now. Hell i grew up with one of them. She use to scare me as a kid, and i think she might have been the one to first ever turn me on to meth years ago, but my memory of that time is kinda fuzzy. I do remember how ironic i thought it was that such a bright idea as smoking speed came with a light bulb, just like on the cartoons. But for the last few months i had been going over to there place in the middle of hillbilly nowwhere texas to turn them on to the stuff i had been purchasing. Not that i was a dealer, i just had a great connect, and i was passing on the saving. Of course i taxed a bit for the penatentiary chance i took when i hit the road to get to there little slice of heaven.
I had been smoking it for years, but after watching them bang it a few times, and seeing the look of bliss in there faces as the rush hit, i became quite curious, and i must admit jealous too. so after a few days, spent dwelling on it. trying to figure out how i felt, or would fell about myself after i did. remebering how needles and coke had torn my family apart when i was a kid, and working past that stigma in my mind, i relented. I asked them for a clean rig and help. Thats when i learned the dance i would repeat so many time after. poke, pull, flash, push, and then the rush. i hit the floor. The world around me and all my worries, regrets, hate, and saddness were gone, or atleast i was numb to them. I felt so much bless and euphoria that i think i might have spoken something stupid out loud cuz all i noticed was that my friendly tweakbillys where giggling and grinning at me. i fell in love. now its been months, i have lost so much weight i am almost unreconizable by family, i no longer own anything of value, and i shake almost all the time. Yet when i fix, for a while it all seems so worth it.
now for a run down of my day with meth.
wake up.
check my stash
fresh rig, check.
new cotton, check
no dope, dammit.
call dealer one, no answer
dealer two, out of town till later
last resort dealer, holding, gotta go to him.
call friend get ride, hit pawn shop, sell whatever i had stolen in the last few days, score a scrawny looking gram, go home.
do the dance, poke, pull, flash, push, rush repeat.
need a drink, go to store, face my adoring public, i love you all, muh! muh! muh!%)
run out of dope
come down8(
be a dick to all around me.
find something to steal, or hustle up cash.
crash and repeat.


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[pattbateman]

wow. that sucks.

 

[dcraver877]

and this is all while you feel like your losing your mind...

 

[its.euphoric]

uh..... omg. This is terrible.

You make me sick.
Well.. I mean, not really, but it's just so sad to see people be addicts and steal stuff from people. That is the lowest of lows.

You really need rehab

 

[!_MDMA_!]

yo seriously go to rehab, you're definetly in need

 

[bit_pattern]

Go and speak to th people in TDS, many have been through what you have and might have some helpful advice

 

[thelung]

yeah sounds like TDS material to me!