I didn't know where to put my experience... Harm reduction? Experience report?
Anyhow I came up on a bottle of 60 or so 1mg xanax and popped 2 to just relax. Well 2 made me a bit loopy and a friend offered me some meth. I decided to smoke a bowl. Long story very short... This resulted in an entire week of eating xanax and slamming/smoking meth. I don't remember most of the week... But apparently (and through vague memories...) I took all 50+ xanax in a period of 5 days. In that 5 days, I shared needles with a gay guy in his 30s who has sex with random men on craigslist, had a 3 sum with some dude and some chick... Unprotected..., I sold a bunch of my stuff, I was high as fuck on meth around my friend and his family... Apparently they kicked me out, I got the cops called on me twice but fled the scene, I ended up with 2 backpacks in my car and 2 cell phones (no idea who's they are... Found out one is of a friends who I don't remember seeing, I gave away my 3ds to a dealer to get more meth, etc.
I cannot even believe this was me. I'd never give my shit away.. Especially my 3ds... I love that thing.. And I'd never share needles or have unprotected sex ... But apparently while blacked out on xanax and meth fueling my decision making... I kept taking more xanax...yet being high on meth kept me going and wanting to do more meth. This was a super brutal combination because xanax alone makes me want to take more xanax... And meth alone makes me want to take more meth... So the 2 made a very risky and dangerous combo for me.
So a note to the wise, be careful with this combo. Meth alone can make you do incredibly stupid shit that you regret (at least in my experience) and xanax can cause blackouts and same thing... So just note to any one considering this combo. Be careful! I tend to be a very careless individual when it comes to drug use, its sad because while sober I tend to be very careful... But once certain drugs are in me... I can be the king of reckless but this combo was by far the most damaging to my life. By day 6 my arm was super fucked up from where I can only guess I injected and missed a vein. The fact I don't remember injecting terrifies me. On a level that is beyond anything I've experienced ... Almost everything I did last week was terrifying. Ive been sober now since last Sunday... But even now I'm trying to put the pieces back together. I gotta get tested got HIV, hepatitis (all terrifying) and hoping to god I don't have a meth baby on the way... And hoping I can fix my friendships.. (My best friend I am banned from his home.. Where I was living because apparently being at your homies house while blacked out and methed out around his mom, dad and little brother is totally okay((it makes me cry to think I'd even do such a thing)) but yeah. Be safe!
Anyhow I came up on a bottle of 60 or so 1mg xanax and popped 2 to just relax. Well 2 made me a bit loopy and a friend offered me some meth. I decided to smoke a bowl. Long story very short... This resulted in an entire week of eating xanax and slamming/smoking meth. I don't remember most of the week... But apparently (and through vague memories...) I took all 50+ xanax in a period of 5 days. In that 5 days, I shared needles with a gay guy in his 30s who has sex with random men on craigslist, had a 3 sum with some dude and some chick... Unprotected..., I sold a bunch of my stuff, I was high as fuck on meth around my friend and his family... Apparently they kicked me out, I got the cops called on me twice but fled the scene, I ended up with 2 backpacks in my car and 2 cell phones (no idea who's they are... Found out one is of a friends who I don't remember seeing, I gave away my 3ds to a dealer to get more meth, etc.
I cannot even believe this was me. I'd never give my shit away.. Especially my 3ds... I love that thing.. And I'd never share needles or have unprotected sex ... But apparently while blacked out on xanax and meth fueling my decision making... I kept taking more xanax...yet being high on meth kept me going and wanting to do more meth. This was a super brutal combination because xanax alone makes me want to take more xanax... And meth alone makes me want to take more meth... So the 2 made a very risky and dangerous combo for me.
So a note to the wise, be careful with this combo. Meth alone can make you do incredibly stupid shit that you regret (at least in my experience) and xanax can cause blackouts and same thing... So just note to any one considering this combo. Be careful! I tend to be a very careless individual when it comes to drug use, its sad because while sober I tend to be very careful... But once certain drugs are in me... I can be the king of reckless but this combo was by far the most damaging to my life. By day 6 my arm was super fucked up from where I can only guess I injected and missed a vein. The fact I don't remember injecting terrifies me. On a level that is beyond anything I've experienced ... Almost everything I did last week was terrifying. Ive been sober now since last Sunday... But even now I'm trying to put the pieces back together. I gotta get tested got HIV, hepatitis (all terrifying) and hoping to god I don't have a meth baby on the way... And hoping I can fix my friendships.. (My best friend I am banned from his home.. Where I was living because apparently being at your homies house while blacked out and methed out around his mom, dad and little brother is totally okay((it makes me cry to think I'd even do such a thing)) but yeah. Be safe!
