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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only

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You're not fucked after 7 months you may just THINK you are... and use it as an excuse not give up (I'm already fucked what's the point in trying to get off?)

I wish I could tell that to the me of 5.5 years ago, my life would have been very different.
 
Good to know...
I'm going to quit at the beginning of July, when finals are over and I'm out of school. I'm also getting my wisdom teeth out during that time, so I'll have a good excuse to take a couple weeks off. Plus, I'll have plenty of vicodin to get me through the worst of it :) Then the whole summer will be drug-free! (except for psychedelics but there's definitely no chance of me abusing those).
 
I don't know, from my experience give up today not in x time. No matter how good your reasoning is, something will always come up and you'll use it as an excuse to put it off. If you have the desire to get off detox tomorrow. I know how much it sucks and etc (TRUST me ;)) but I said I was going to give up on x and x and has great reasons and here I am.
 
mrs_mia_wallace said:
You're not fucked after 7 months you may just THINK you are... and use it as an excuse not give up (I'm already fucked what's the point in trying to get off?)

I wish I could tell that to the me of 5.5 years ago, my life would have been very different.
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I think ppl who have developed addictions were already in trouble to go down that road. I gave up meth for 6 months after using for 10 years off and on, and I was fucked up already when daily use became normal. Even after months off the gear and not doing anything about dealing with my issues I didn't really improve much, was just sober and fucked in the head! lol.

Long term health effects of this addiction is just going to have to remain a mystery, no one can predict what damage (if any) is done or how you will cope with it.

But if you haven't dealt with what was causing the addiction in the first place AND are trying to keep clean, things just seem worse.
 
I think I'm done with Amphetamines(Adderall in my case) until the next school year, and I will take summer off, except for the occasional pot smoking.

I honestly dont know how many times I've done it, as I dont go over 40MG in a day and maybe once or twice a week, but not everyweek, if that makes sense :/ just popping and snorting the Adderall. I will never forget that first high. Up until that time (Like a month and a half ago) I only smoked some pot (Maybe twice) and done Xanax & DXM & Codeine. I hope this isn't a form of thread hijacking as I'm sorta kinda telling a story but here goes;

I took about two big lines of Adderal, each pill is 20MG Instant Release, so I dont know how much exactly MG was in those two lines, but trust me, they were pretty big lines. I got to where I needed to be, and it hit me within 5-15 minutes, and I felt like fucking superman. Just...amazing. I never felt anything like that before. I am a confident person (people call me cocky and stuff), but when I was on Adderall, I felt like my confidence and motivation was multiplied tenfold, and I was empathetic, and my thoughts is that "This is what cocaine and or Ecstasy must feel like". Sure, MDMA is probably much stronger than what I took that day, but I've never tried neither Cocaine nor MDMA. I had a unbelievable euphoria that day, I just felt fucking amazing. Excuse my language, but I dont know how to put it in words.

The friend that let me try it the first time, gave me a nice hookup and would sell me 4 20MG Adderall Instant Release pills for $5. Everytime I use, I feel good, but never like that first high, and I hate the comedown, the headaches, the depression after using, it in a way felt like I was being depersonalized. So I'm quitting, and not using until the next school year. Considering I'm not addicted, or at least I dont think I am (Its been around 2 weeks maybe since using).

Hopefully once the summer is over, I can re-experiance my first high and not take it too far.
 
zephyr said:
I think ppl who have developed addictions were already in trouble to go down that road. I gave up meth for 6 months after using for 10 years off and on, and I was fucked up already when daily use became normal. Even after months off the gear and not doing anything about dealing with my issues I didn't really improve much, was just sober and fucked in the head! lol.

Long term health effects of this addiction is just going to have to remain a mystery, no one can predict what damage (if any) is done or how you will cope with it.

But if you haven't dealt with what was causing the addiction in the first place AND are trying to keep clean, things just seem worse.
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I'm coming up to three months off amphetamine. I know you would expect depression for a few days, merely from the comedown, and even a bit of depression as you get used to not being on speed.
When this depression worsens, this is just, to me, another trigger, so I attack the depression in any way I know how, but not speed.
Speed for me was compulsive, yet it wrecked me mentally and physically, and to go through all what I went through, the last couple of months is too scary a prospect.
 
3dmusic said:
congratulations
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thankyou<3 congratulations on your sobriety as well. i wish you the best!

this has been my longest clean stint for a long long while:)

sure i miss that hit but the cons were far out-weighing the pro's just before i stopped. the only thing i've been injecting is opiates and that has been far and few between.

i havent had a dream where i've shot meth in some time either which is a great weight lifted off the mind.
 
Do people on meth/amphetamine experience some form of arthritis after a few years of usage? Or joint problems?
 
^i would get a lot of soreness in joints and limbs when i was heavily using. it had a lot to do with how active i was dancing etc and poor diet. i have chronic pain as well.

i got a message from a friend the other day saying they had a new source for "good" gear to which i was easily able to decline and not enquire any further.

another week clean, yeow!:)
 
I had to quit meth

There is just no time to do it and be able to hold down a job and look normal. There's no way it fits into a weekend. I wind up not being able to sleep for 4 days. It fucked up my life royally...twice.

Plus, all I do on it is obsessively view porno and whack my weenie...sometimes to the point that it gets sprained, or something.

Why bother? There really are better things to do with my life.
 
fasteddie said:
There is just no time to do it and be able to hold down a job and look normal.
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Sounds like me & my drinking (wine) problem. I had to quit coke (did Meth once, a few months ago and had a very bad OD) because of my health (heart) and now I have a terrible problem with wine. One bottle and the next day I'm dog meat. Fortunately I don't hafta go to work but I feel like this wine, smoking (a few cigs/day) and staying up late is killing me. No exercise either.

I'm really worried, feel like I'm dying and I don't really care. Life has gotten to be soooo bad. Some crooks stole some land from me worth several hundred thousand and I can't find a lawyer willing to take my case (they all want lotsa money that I don't have and won't take any of the land, which is still in my name as collateral) . . . even the County attorney won't take the case even though a developer said these guys would go to jail. The crooks threatened the developer & his mother with a lawsuit! When will this nightmare end?! I cry almost every day. Totally fucked/raped.
 
^^^ But I thought you got the land in some sort of shady way in the first place?

On topic, good job for keeping off the meth
 
I'm such a dumbarse, I broke my heart.

Had a big couple of weeks and in the last few days got some weird symptoms - bad heart pain, bad headache/jaw pain, temperature, and very out of it mentally... I was about a second away from taking myself to the hospital then but I decided not to.

Anyway I went to the doc a couple of days later and got some tests including an ecg, anyway apparently I have got heart damage from the shit.

I felt fear when she told me but nothing since then, honestly I'm surprised by how little I care, it doesn't really mean anything to me, I don't know why.
 
^^^ Details, pls . . . how long/often were U using, how much, were U smoking/shooting?

Like I said about my Coke/meth problems . . . same thing, heart problems made me quit . . . I had a warning (heart flutter) and quit. I'm >40-years old too and not in very good shape.
 
I felt fear when she told me but nothing since then, honestly I'm surprised by how little I care, it doesn't really mean anything to me, I don't know why.
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Thats one side effects of what drugs do to you. You don't give a shit.
 
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