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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only

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Thanks for your words Mia...it is a horrible feeling isn't it :(
Could you try and take one of your xanax and relax for a bit?

I still feel really sketchy today. I felt really really panicky and scared last night. I almost felt like I was on the brink of losing it. I was trying to relax and count my breaths, 3 secs in, 3 secs out, but my mind kept wandering and thinking about all this crazy shit I can't even out into words, I felt like I couldn't understand anything. I haven't felt that bad or panicky in years....it feels so shit :( I tried to sleep but kept waking up every hour and it was one of those crazy, fitful sleeps.

I hope you feel better soon Mia <3 Maybe try and have a glass of milk or something just to give you some energy and your stomach something to do. I've been trying to force some food into myself but I'm having trouble. So now I'm just drinking some soft drinks because I thought getting some sugar is better than nothing.
 
I hope you feel better soon too! <3

I didn't ration my xanax very well :( and ran out when it started to not get good (about eight or nine hours ago). I have some klonopin but I'm so not a regular benzo user, is it bad to mix the two?

Do you have any sleeping pills? A good night of sleep will probably help a ton but alas without a sleeping aid that's unlikely. I'm dying to take my seroquel but it speeds up my heart rate and my heart rate is already up so I'm worried to risk it.

I feel disoriented and tired, keep wanting to close my eyes and nap but I can't sleep. And this shit fucks with my stomach so much, way more than heroin ever did... I've been in bed all evening naeseous to the point of wanting to cry because I can't throw up... so I forced myself to which is a horrible thing to do but I just could not take it anymore... besides one or two random occasions the only timess I've self induced vomit are from meth making me so naeseous. I feel a bit better now I just want to sleep. :(

Have you tried listening to music or watching a show/film to help calm your nerves/drown out your thoughts somewhat? Sometimes I'll get too anxcious when trying to just lie and fall asleep and work myself up, the tv or music being on gives me something to focus on absentmindedly and actually helps me sleep... also do they have Gatorade in Australia? I've heard from several sources that it's the best thing to drink, electrolytes or something helps with your heart? not sure but it also has some sugar in it, it's what I've been drinking.
 
You can mix Klonopins no problem, benzos are very safe you can't od on them by themselves.
Take a bunch of them and get some sleep!
 
I have one restavit left but I start work at the bar in 2 hours so another all nighter :\ And daylight saving ends today so I might even have to work an extra hour! I don't know though, I dread it right now but working there is sometimes the best thing for me when I'm scattered, because it gets me out of my head, it's so busy I don't have time to think and I can talk to lots of people. By the time I get home I should be able to sleep naturally I think...
Right not I don't feel too bad from lack of sleep - I did sleep a bit today - it's more that I just feel completely exhausted! I had to sit down and take a break halfway through brushing my hair because I ran out of energy and my heart felt like it would explode. I cannot be fucked doing my hair or putting on my makep - I know I'm scattered when I don't care if I look like shit!

I love seroquel for putting me to sleep - it works better than everything. I don't know why though, I just get so scared to sleep. I fight against taking them or going to bed even if I know it's the best thing for me. I just find it frightening being alone with my thoughts sometimes...I'm so used to having a boyfriend with me when I'm scattered and it makes such a difference compared to doing it alone. But yeah maybe avoid it if you think it'll put more strain on your heart...

I feel disoriented and tired, keep wanting to close my eyes and nap but I can't sleep.
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I know that feeling, it can be so uncomfortable, I'll be lying there and want to close my eyes but as soon as I close them I want them open again and I just can't relax or get comfortable... I'll want the tv on then I'll want it back off.

Hopefully if you take that klonopin you'll be able to relax and get some sleep and feel better soon.
 
I have to restrain myself from purchasing methamphetamine and injecting it frequently.
But why...? I'm miserable, no matter what, family? never known it. God? doesn't exist, never did. Love? what the fuck is that? i'm a joke, my entire life was spent being a street kid, a dirty, paranoid speedfreak.
 
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I have one restavit left but I start work at the bar in 2 hours so another all nighter :\ And daylight saving ends today so I might even have to work an extra hour! I don't know though, I dread it right now but working there is sometimes the best thing for me when I'm scattered, because it gets me out of my head, it's so busy I don't have time to think and I can talk to lots of people. By the time I get home I should be able to sleep naturally I think...
Right not I don't feel too bad from lack of sleep - I did sleep a bit today - it's more that I just feel completely exhausted! I had to sit down and take a break halfway through brushing my hair because I ran out of energy and my heart felt like it would explode. I cannot be fucked doing my hair or putting on my makep - I know I'm scattered when I don't care if I look like shit!

I love seroquel for putting me to sleep - it works better than everything. I don't know why though, I just get so scared to sleep. I fight against taking them or going to bed even if I know it's the best thing for me. I just find it frightening being alone with my thoughts sometimes...I'm so used to having a boyfriend with me when I'm scattered and it makes such a difference compared to doing it alone. But yeah maybe avoid it if you think it'll put more strain on your heart...


I know that feeling, it can be so uncomfortable, I'll be lying there and want to close my eyes but as soon as I close them I want them open again and I just can't relax or get comfortable... I'll want the tv on then I'll want it back off.

Hopefully if you take that klonopin you'll be able to relax and get some sleep and feel better soon.
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I know how you feel... sometimes I don't want to go to sleep because I feel lonely? Weird! Being single sucks for this and I'm also not used to it...

I took the Klonopin and was able to sleep... thank god. I went to work but I've mostly just been staying home today, still don't feel myself. I promised a friend I would go out with her tonight but I still feel sick and now I feel gross from eating so much this morning.... ugh.

I hope your work day goes OK and that you feel better! Keep us updated :)
 
this thread is NOT about glorifying methamphetamine - posting such things can b triggering to recovering/using addicts who want to stop.....which is wat this thread is about

if u want to post an ode to methamphetamine there r countless other drug forums on BL more suited to it

thank you
 
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I don't love this drug anymore. I used to love it but those days are long gone now. I hate this trap I'm caught in, I just want to get out of it. I can't take it anymore I can't take another day of it.
 
^exactly how i feel about it

sanity, i apologise for having to edit ur earlier post, i just saw it as triggering - i didnt realise until ur later post that ur caught in that cycle of love and hate for the drug.....best to hav conveyed that in ur earlier post :)

the gd news is anyone can get off meth
the bad news is its fucking hard
meth PAWS takes from 3 - 5 yrs for long-term addicts, which is why, gorgoroth, u r feeling the way u r
i encourage u to find a way thru it

any drug addiction needs to b replaced with something else whether its work, new friends that dont use, a hobby, NA/church involvement or a relationship (not with a meth user)
i promise if u want it enough and will go to any lengths to pursue recovery from meth u will recover
sure ull slip up - but thats not wats important
its the big picture thats important

dont bag me here as im not here to preach but my bf went to a religious rehab run by the salvation army to recover from his alcoholism, and i wud come along to the regular 'recovery church' services they held, plus i met an inspiring christian guy who was looking to christianity for his recovery
paul and i decided to become christians - we by no means see ourselves as prudes or perfect ppl, but having a higher power we cud put a name to has really helped me lately, thru some rough times with both my drugs of choice....P (pure meth) and heroin

i also hav my horse - i keep involved in as much riding activities as poss
ive had to give up adult riding club cos it starts at exactly the time i collect my methadone but i can still ride in the afternoons and pauls taken it up with me

paul is a major help as far as meth goes cos he hates the stuff - and our relationship grows stronger by the day
i dont want to hurt the man i luv dearly so i dont want to touch meth!

all the same, i slip up, as methamphetamine addicts in recovery tend to - we r dealing with a very addictive fucker of a drug
just the other day i used IV meth....just 1/4gram but thats 1/4gram too much for my body which has suffered yrs of abuse from this drug

so thats where i am with meth atm - i love it but i hate it too
it will always b that way i fear

to change the subject briefly i just felt in the name of harm reduction i might add - to whoever said u cant OD on benzos alone, no it is pretty hard to OD on benzos alone but it is not impossible......b careful of all drugs inclduing benzos

mia - i cant take seroquel cos of its effects on my heart either
ask ur psych about zyprexa (olanzapine).....IMO this is the best antipsychotic for dealing with meth

brentzxi - sounds like u and i hav had some similar problems, dealing with opiates/benzos/amphetamines
i got off heroin and meth at the same time but i was in a detox unit then went onto suboxone maintenance (hav now swapped to methadone)
clonazepam was the benzo i was on too tho ive bn switched to valium and ive already started dropping my dose slowly
its not easy but its doable
gd on u mate cos i can remember ur earlier posts and feeling frustrated cos i knew wat u were going thru but u werent ready for help
uve proved uve got a gd strong will - go get em mate!
 
iono about you but i after 6 hours i get hungry and i can eat anything that is moist/greasy that goes down easy. sushi is easiest for me to eat and its nutritious as well
 
I would like to use the drug meth more as i have perviously abused the fuck out of grass,pills and acid

I think Meth dose excersise you mind in good and bad ways,
as a newbie user for meth everytime i use, as the effects creep up on me i slowly become violent and angry
and my friends are starting to get pissed off with my behaviour whilst on the drug.
I say to them '' hey fuck man, u know this tension between us.. its growing on me and you know what it actaully feels good, what? wanna go cunt? ill fucking stab you '' and so on..
Its fun for me and them when im not edgy and pissed off..
all i think about is fucked shit when im on it.... is this not normal? someone please come forward if they have the same experiences that i do when they use meth.. i dont think im the only one.
 
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At first fun and games eh...
Trust me mate you do not want to use it on a regular basis. If it's already making you angry and changing your friends attitudes toward u - stop now
 
this triggered me and im sure other ppl - plz remember wat this thread is about and who it is intended for

methamphetamine glorification is fine in some other forums - read the rules of each forum first to find the right one
this is not the right one
 
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Does meth chill everyone out, or is that an effect only some people get from it? Just curious? I am asking because i feel extremely relaxed while on it, but some of my friends just get really excited and pumped up..
 
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