Stimulants Meth advice please

[ItsNothing]

I am struggling bad rn. Im trying to pass a class ive failed 2 times already. Im in college i have Audhd and i cant get my prescription of adderall from my psychiatrist. At this point im desperate enough to try meth. How horrible of an idea is this? I NEED to pass. But ive abused adderall in the past kinda. Im def prone to addiction. But i never went overbord with it. Occasionally i would snort it and smoke weed and listen to music to feel it pulse through my body. But that was it. It was occassional. Other than that i rarely showed interest in adderall. It literally just makes me do chores not really fun.. Im a “smart” addict but if i meet the right drug i assume that could change fast and what if meth is that drug?! How would i know?!. Im scared but if i dont make it in college then i vowed to end myself. I cant live with the debt on my shoulders. Any advice on meth would be greatly appreciated. I want other drugs but rn it’s the only thing i can find. (Keep in mind im not very socially inclined)

 

[ItsNothing]

I am struggling bad rn. Im trying to pass a class ive failed 2 times already. Im in college i have Audhd and i cant get my prescription of adderall from my psychiatrist. At this point im desperate enough to try meth. How horrible of an idea is this? I NEED to pass. But ive abused adderall in the past kinda. Im def prone to addiction. But i never went overbord with it. Occasionally i would snort it and smoke weed and listen to music to feel it pulse through my body. But that was it. It was occassional. Other than that i rarely showed interest in adderall. It literally just makes me do chores not really fun.. Im a “smart” addict but if i meet the right drug i assume that could change fast and what if meth is that drug?! How would i know?!. Im scared but if i dont make it in college then i vowed to end myself. I cant live with the debt on my shoulders. Any advice on meth would be greatly appreciated. I want other drugs but rn it’s the only thing i can find. (Keep in mind im not very socially inclined)

What to know how to use meth in the most productive way. Getting fucked up comes second

 

[andyturbo]

Hi mate and Welcome to Bluelight!

Ok. I want to be completely honest with you regarding my thoughts. I am sure there will be others who disagree with some or most of this, and others who will echo it.

Don't do it. - and these are three words I very rarely use in response HR advice. For example, people requesting real advice for drugs they are going to consume. (IMO this usually leads most likely to the opposite of HR)

However, in this situation, I think it is the best advice I can give. It will most likely result in an even worse situation than you already have found yourself in. Yes, meth is super productive. But not in the way you want during exams (for most people - I know there are always exceptions)

The worst aspect of it will be that you will honestly feel like you are smashing the exam and writing heaps of really high-quality content. However, to the sober reader and later yourself, its most likely going to result in a lower grade than you will get at your current stance.

I have used meth on and off since I was 17 and I am 35 now and I cant stress the number of times I have done this exact thing, often coming back onto the forums a day or two later only to edit/delete/moderate my posts.

Obviously, I can't suggest anything that falls under sourcing, but my only other advice is to have a think about all your options. And then make the choice you feel is right, whatever that may be. Wishing you the best of luck.

A.T

P.S - I highly encourage you to listen and take on board advice from others who reply. Someone may offer advice that I haven't thought of, which could help your position more than what I have said.

 

[rentedbythehour]

I'm a daily user and I couldn't agree more with andyturbo. There's just a few things I would add. You may get productive, but it's also extremely easy to get distracted. Your focus will shift from thing to thing and you might end up not accomplishing what you wanted to in the first place. There's also side effects that you don't want to deal with in school. Like not sleeping. Or walking around with your eyebrows up to your hairline because you're so busy looking at everything around you.

I have to ask why you can't get your prescription from your Dr? There's so many reasons I can think of right now but don't want to make any assumptions. I would really make that your first option. See what you can do to get your script filled. Second, look into natural alternatives. I know my kids Dr told me to give them chocolate if they had a day where they forgot to take meds. I'd try otc caffeine pills or supplements before meth. Third, there are a ton of people out there with ADHD who don't take meds. There are ways of dealing and coping with ADHD that don't involve meds at all. Having a routine, setting timers, giving yourself breaks every so often so you are able to focus on what you have to get done. Prioritize. Learn different ways to cope.

Good luck!
RBTH

 

[ItsNothing]

Hi mate and Welcome to Bluelight!

Ok. I want to be completely honest with you regarding my thoughts. I am sure there will be others who disagree with some or most of this, and others who will echo it.

Don't do it. - and these are three words I very rarely use in response HR advice. For example, people requesting real advice for drugs they are going to consume. (IMO this usually leads most likely to the opposite of HR)

However, in this situation, I think it is the best advice I can give. It will most likely result in an even worse situation than you already have found yourself in. Yes, meth is super productive. But not in the way you want during exams (for most people - I know there are always exceptions)

The worst aspect of it will be that you will honestly feel like you are smashing the exam and writing heaps of really high-quality content. However, to the sober reader and later yourself, its most likely going to result in a lower grade than you will get at your current stance.

I have used meth on and off since I was 17 and I am 35 now and I cant stress the number of times I have done this exact thing, often coming back onto the forums a day or two later only to edit/delete/moderate my posts.

Obviously, I can't suggest anything that falls under sourcing, but my only other advice is to have a think about all your options. And then make the choice you feel is right, whatever that may be. Wishing you the best of luck.

A.T

P.S - I highly encourage you to listen and take on board advice from others who reply. Someone may offer advice that I haven't thought of, which could help your position more than what I have said.

I think you’re right cause those are my greatest concerns. Im literally looking for productivity and I have not known meth to be a productive drug. At least not in the way i need it. Im sure you could get some chores done but probably not trig lol. Id take it and not even do the class and then id be hooked, not worth it fr. Thank you for answering!

 

[ItsNothing]

I'm a daily user and I couldn't agree more with andyturbo. There's just a few things I would add. You may get productive, but it's also extremely easy to get distracted. Your focus will shift from thing to thing and you might end up not accomplishing what you wanted to in the first place. There's also side effects that you don't want to deal with in school. Like not sleeping. Or walking around with your eyebrows up to your hairline because you're so busy looking at everything around you.

I have to ask why you can't get your prescription from your Dr? There's so many reasons I can think of right now but don't want to make any assumptions. I would really make that your first option. See what you can do to get your script filled. Second, look into natural alternatives. I know my kids Dr told me to give them chocolate if they had a day where they forgot to take meds. I'd try otc caffeine pills or supplements before meth. Third, there are a ton of people out there with ADHD who don't take meds. There are ways of dealing and coping with ADHD that don't involve meds at all. Having a routine, setting timers, giving yourself breaks every so often so you are able to focus on what you have to get done. Prioritize. Learn different ways to cope.

Good luck!
RBTH

thank you for pointing out the side effects I was not aware of! That's exactly the info i was looking for. And it seems meths risk to reward ratio is just not it.

I def have been doing all the ADHD study tips and it works for most classes. It’s just this one class that i really hate that i cant get my brain to actually work on well. Usually i coast on pure passion and love but i HATE this subject and i can definitely tell by how hard it is for me to complete even the littlest amount of work for it.

As for losing my script. Im not sure what happened. Just at some point i picked up my last prescription and they never let me fill more. Idk if it was that drought of ADHD meds or if they decided i had done too many drugs to be trusted with it. But Im def regretting whatever i did now. My psychiatrist and I have a mutual misunderstanding of eachother too. And I'm worried if i go back asking for it again he’ll immediatly label me drug seeking. If he hasn't already.

Thank you for your insight! I’ll def stay away from meth. It obviously will not help.

 

[andyturbo]

I think you’re right cause those are my greatest concerns. Im literally looking for productivity and I have not known meth to be a productive drug. At least not in the way i need it. Im sure you could get some chores done but probably not trig lol. Id take it and not even do the class and then id be hooked, not worth it fr. Thank you for answering!

I think you are making the right choice, and I wish you the best with your studies. Hopefully, you may surprise yourself and end up doing better than you currently expect. I hope so.

A.T

 

[jaycat420]

Why wouldn't you just score some Ritalin or adderall from a classmate?

 

[jaycat420]

As for losing my script. Im not sure what happened. Just at some point i picked up my last prescription and they never let me fill more. Idk if it was that drought of ADHD meds or if they decided i had done too many drugs to be trusted with it. But Im def regretting whatever i did now. My psychiatrist and I have a mutual misunderstanding of eachother too. And I'm worried if i go back asking for it again he’ll immediatly label me drug seeking. If he hasn't already.

You should call your pharmacy and ask when they filled it last, ask if there was a problem, if you had refills, etc

 

[TheGyattDamnRizzler]

I am struggling bad rn. Im trying to pass a class ive failed 2 times already. Im in college i have Audhd and i cant get my prescription of adderall from my psychiatrist. At this point im desperate enough to try meth. How horrible of an idea is this? I NEED to pass. But ive abused adderall in the past kinda. Im def prone to addiction. But i never went overbord with it. Occasionally i would snort it and smoke weed and listen to music to feel it pulse through my body. But that was it. It was occassional. Other than that i rarely showed interest in adderall. It literally just makes me do chores not really fun.. Im a “smart” addict but if i meet the right drug i assume that could change fast and what if meth is that drug?! How would i know?!. Im scared but if i dont make it in college then i vowed to end myself. I cant live with the debt on my shoulders. Any advice on meth would be greatly appreciated. I want other drugs but rn it’s the only thing i can find. (Keep in mind im not very socially inclined)

I will tell from my own personal experience. I am also in College and do other productive things. Adhd meds don't like hit all at once and are controlled so you are in control and are stimulated and motivated to do things.
Ice like hits you really fast all at once depending on your roi. It makes you so hyperfocused that you almost can't be productive on it. You may also end up just watching porn for ever.
I did ice today and did homework but it was a challenge just to get me to the computer to do it.
I feel like you should probably go another route Ice is more for like partying and being a degen than actually doing well on homework.

 

[Plaid&PolkaDots]

OP, how are your studies going? And how are you?