I figure I may as well share my story with this substance. I *greatly* regret taking it, and in hindsight don't know what the hell I was thinking. I had quit research chemicals for over a year to stick to more tested things I felt safer with, but I guess I really got sucked into the mephedrone bandwagon. I don't blame anyone for using it besides myself, but I will say that I was certainly under the impression this was the wonder drug of the century: no negative effects, a safer alternative to MDMA, everyone loves it, wave of the future, perfectly safe, blah blah blah. Still my own fault for not doing my own research, and getting carried away with it.
Anyways I did probably around four grams over three days (the total extent of my use), I know fucking retarded, people can't beat me up for this mistake more than I already have myself. I even continued using it after I realized I was getting bad effects from it, telling myself that only happened when I used a lot and I could just use one line and be fine (one turn to two fast and two to three etc).
Anyways, what all did happen to me from mephedrone. First of all, the first horrible effect I noticed before I realized anything else was wrong at all was an electrical feeling pain in my foot. Like, I thought my foot must have brushed against an exposed wire or something. I look at my foot and it has an oozing sore on it, looks horrible, right where the pain was.
Then I notice my hands are flushed and red. My knees are purple. The side of my other foot is dark brown discolored and the veins are engorged. My hands are white as sheets after the redness goes away, but the tips of the fingers from the last joint on up are bright red and will remain this way for around three or four weeks.
I got sores in my mouth and on my tongue that tasted like mephedrone and seemed to break open. My knuckles are discolored, which stands out strangely from my paper white hands (and blood red finger tips).
Other horrible effects I got were amnesia (snapping to the next day as I am in the process of sniffing a line, forgeting that I had not slept yet and that I had infact most likely been up sniffing lines the entire fucking night). Some heart pains the third day which is the day I flushed the rest of what I had down the toilet. The heart pains went away the same day and did not come back.
So now it has been around five or six weeks since my last dose. My hands are close to normal color, even the tips are not blood red anymore but maybe a wee bit pinker than they used to be. The oozing sore on my foot where I felt the electrical pain has mostly healed, but it seems to have left a pink scar behind , it looks like a perfect circle. The skin is also a bit indented there.
My knees are normal color usually now, but when I take a shower they get BRIGHT red. I don't know why this is only when I take a shower. Another thing I noticed is immediately after my mephedrone binge I started getting a *lot* of infections. Pink eye in both eyes, two ear infections, throat infection. Thankfully they all seem to have cleared up now and are not coming back, but I was sick and even feverous (low grade) for an entire month, longer than I have ever been sick for before.
One foot still has discoloration on the side, but it isn't as bad as it was. It went from bright red, to dark brown / bronze (I was soooo worried I was going to get gangrene but now think I am probably not), to a sickely looking off colored bruised flesh color to now what it is which is pretty much a shade or two off the normal color with hints of pink and maybe very light hint of purple. At first glance you can't even see the discoloration now though, it has definitely gotten much better. I do notice occasional sharp pains in my hands and feet now, but they are not too bad and only last a split second.
What I really would like to know is what are the chances that I develop gangrene at this point? (Over a month and a week afer my last dose, with no signs of blackness in anything yet, so I should be probably ok right? When I squeeze my finger tip it goes very very white but the blood comes right back, and I still have feeling through out my body, although perhaps where my foot is discolored it is lacking a tiny bit of feeling I can still feel it pretty fine and when I press it down it goes from white to colored.)
So really people I mean I know I am a fucking retard and I know this shit is totally unresearched and no one really knows, but what the fuck happened to me? Is it likely I did permanent serious damage to myself? Am I probably going to be ok since I have been ok for this long with nothing serious? I have been to the doctor like five or six times since it happened and they seem to think I am mostly ok besides for a nasty infection (that finally cleared up, WOOT). They didn't do any real tests on me, but took blood pressure, looked at my discoloration , etc. They seem to think I am just a fucking hypocondriac with some infections, which is quite possible, I feel like a fucking hypocondriac since I used mephedrone. I examine my body for like the slightest irregularity and as soon as I find one convince myself I have some synthetic mephedrone induced AIDS or some shit. But I am starting to feel a lot better just wanted to add my experience in case it helps anyone else or warns people not to fuck with this nasty drug.
Also want to add I forgot to mention I was VERY light headed after the last day I used mephedrone, but it went away about as fast as the heart pains. But I notice recently I am a bit light headed on occasion and also sometimes need to catch my breath a bit more than I used to maybe.
Also I just want to say to the people who are accusing it of all being in peoples heads, fuck you guys, just because you can binge on mephedrone and do ten grams in a day you are fucking diluting the honest to god truth about this drug in that it does in some people cause real horrible effects. I see so much justification with this drug, like oh I am going to go off about shit I know nothing about because either
Benzos are almost essential for finishing things off. Anyone else ?
