Mephedrone Addiction

[HB Pencil]

He doesn't know I take Meph...no-one does...that's why I'm here spilling to you guys.

They probably have their suspicions though.

You might think your acting perfectly normal but people will notice faster talking and movement
And then theres the dilated pupils which are a dead give away, then again many people are ill-informed.


I found mephedrone to be dangerously compulsive.

I went from buying the small caps (250mg i think) every couple days, then onto full gram bags and buying them more frequently.

I went for 3 weeks on a half g a day and then went on a 2 g bender at the end.
I know thats nothing compared to other people but i spent almost all my spare money on the stuff, if i had had more money i could have seen things going badly wrong.

One of the best things about drone is the minor comedown, i find it barely noticeable but after this constant use my nose was in a bad way and i noticed my tongue started peeling and was very sore toward the back after a session.

I've fiended for pills before but never enough to want to do them two nights on the trot, with drone thats far to easy to do.

Nasty stuff if not used in moderation, i'll be staying of it now unless i can't get a hold of MDxx .

 

[kaka1234]

I am a 30 yr old mother of 3. I've been taking Meph approx 4-5 times per week for the last 2 months or so. I would say that when I first started to order Meph 1gm lasted me 1 week so I ordered 3gm the next time. That 1st 3gm lasted nearly 2 weeks but the next 3gm only lasted a week.
The reason I take it is because I convince myself it makes me a better me & mother at certain tasks. E.g. I will sometimes take a hit at 5pmish. This not only replenishes my energy to carry on with housework/look after kids/ tidy rooms/ etc etc but it also supresses my appetite so I skip dinner. In my f*ckd up brain I am killing several birds with one stone here! I am getting an organised and tidy home whilst losing weight at the same time!

He doesn't know I take Meph...no-one does...that's why I'm here spilling to you guys.

i hate to say it but it is going to get to a stage that everyone will realise that something is "not quite right" with you and by then i think it will be too late - convincing yourself its for the good is not a good thing . . . .

why do you take it alone and not have the odd night on it with your man? you would be able to share the experience and not feel like you were sneaking behind his back x

 

[chrissie32]

I've only just signed up because I googled 'mephedrone addiction' and bluelight came up. I am addicted to mephedrone. I've been using it daily for nine months now. I am unsure of where to get help. I'm not sure I can do this on my own. I'm a single mum of two children and I have tried detoxing on my own, but when I'm withdrawing from the meph, it leaves me in such a state I can barely look after myself.

Any advice would be much appreciated because I'm really scared here.

 

[rogermcnally]

Hey Daisy. I would be inclined to suggest you tell your hubby all. Involve him in your search for help. The day just might come that he will think you care more for drugs than you do for him - which is where addiction ends up. Best of luck

 

[Evad]

Hey Daisy. I would be inclined to suggest you tell your hubby all. Involve him in your search for help. The day just might come that he will think you care more for drugs than you do for him - which is where addiction ends up. Best of luck

might be a helpful post if she hadn't stated she was a single mother...

 

[rogermcnally]

Hi Chrissie
I kind of know where you are at.

I had a relationship breakup and replaced them with...well no prizes for guessing. I keep trying to stop but after a a few days I'm inclined to say 'screw it, if nobody cares about me why should I' and out I go and get some. Its soooooo much harder to do it on your own.

I'm a recovering alcoholic but I couldn't have stopped without help. The key is to identify what makes you want it. I know myself that feeling crap is enough just now. Be better to feel any way but the way I feel now stuff. Feel free to mail me if you want. We might be of help to each other.

 

[effie]

I've only just signed up because I googled 'mephedrone addiction' and bluelight came up. I am addicted to mephedrone. I've been using it daily for nine months now. I am unsure of where to get help. I'm not sure I can do this on my own. I'm a single mum of two children and I have tried detoxing on my own, but when I'm withdrawing from the meph, it leaves me in such a state I can barely look after myself.

Any advice would be much appreciated because I'm really scared here.

There are loads of posts on here about stopping mephedrone, have a read through this thread, lots of good advice..

In a nushell, you just need to stop taking it (easier said than done I know). You won't go into withdrawals, you will have a come down from taking a stimulant - you will feel pretty exhausted and depressed and crappy, but after a few days you should be feeling loads better. Might be a bit sluggish and lethargic for a while but plenty of sleep and food and vitamins will help. I would suggest throwing away the rest of your meph and seeing if you can find someone to look after your kids for a few days, say you have flu or something, then just going for it. You can definitely do it!

I suspect the tricky part will be staying off it but try to remember how shit it made you feel having to take it every day and how you don't want to go down that route again..

Best of luck, I hope you feel better soon!

 

[jancrow]

might be a helpful post if she hadn't stated she was a single mother...

read the posts, dude, there are two mothers on here!


And btw I wish them both the very best in sorting their problems out, you've come to the right place, read a lot and take the plunge, good luck.

 

[Evad]

read the posts, dude, there are two mothers on here!


And btw I wish them both the very best in sorting their problems out, you've come to the right place, read a lot and take the plunge, good luck.

hah fuck aye, just had my pedantic arse served back to me
sorry about that roger

 

[deanlyricalg]

Prediction of our meph addiction from June

Having a very normal evening tonight. Browsing here, chatting on MSN.... mugabe is playing PES, and yes, we're both on meph.

I'm an addict

I just have no idea what to do about it.

y dont ya get some mdma gotta be better for you than meph i was getting bad with meph but noticed heart pulpitations and stopped then mdma came back and i feel a lot better

 

[deanlyricalg]

fucking hell you two.

what happens when you stop taking it? are there any other symptoms beyond what you'd expect from a speed comedown?

you need to get some benzos ASAP and knock that right on the fucking head.

thats wat im sayin 2g a day thats like a smak addiction u have to stop or u will not last long on that amount ya heart will explode

 

[rogermcnally]

hah fuck aye, just had my pedantic arse served back to me
sorry about that roger

No Problem

 

[Kellerman]

Has anyone had tight and/or numb muscles from meph, a long time after use?

It is about 4 months since I touched meph, and I have tight muscles in my legs and numb wrists that I can't account to anything else.

 

[sundayraver]

go see a drug worker ASAP

 

[goldfish72]

Hi guys, I have a dependancy on meph since last December. First started using it when i couldnt get my hands on coke for xmas party season. Fuck i hate the stuff, the smell, the burning drops, the comedowns that last for me about 4 days...........shit im in trouble. Still have my high pressure job and wonderful family to work at and support aswell. Never thought i would ever get too fond of any substance but i have.......i feel such a wanker.

 

[Harambulus]

Tips to prevent me from trying new RCs should they come around to replace meph

Was gonna do a new post but thought I'd put it here as seemed related.

I just had my last hit of meph today. Like always I had the delusional insights that I wanted more of it while high but on the comedown I felt I didn't want it.

Standard.

Now meph is not available I won't go looking for it.

The only thing is I am a little concerned that I will be tempted to buy into the hype of the next RC that comes along and be tempted to try it.

I find that when I begin researching a new drug it gets to a point where I selectively cherry pick the positive experiences from people's reports and ignore the negatives such that I usually end up taking them to try for myself.

At the same time why I don't wanna be researching them at all. It's mainly just cos I'm not doing anything else just surfing away on the web and so do a search for RCs since I have gotten wind of the 'new fad'.

I had found myself already 'curiously' scouring the RC vendors to see what they may have available 'just out of interest' (as my weak justification).

I really wanna knock them all on the head cos all drugs have side effects no matter how we will say they don't in the 'heat of ecstasy'.

I just want to nip it in the bud before the next RC comes along to tempt me cos it is so easy to order them online I want to make sure I have no inclination once one does/may come along.

I have no inclination for other illegal drugs these days but it's the curiosity regarding the RCs having some new exotic fruit which tempted me to try meph in the first place. Luckily for me I guess I only tried it a cpl months before the ban and had my last bit today but as I said I want to prevent myself from trying the others cos I think all drugs are a dead end in the long run. I've got my many insights from them but wanna move on the other things to entertain myself now.

I was in two minds about posting this cos of the whole making it more real by posting about it. At the same time I thought perhaps writing it will encourage me to curtail this short episode and get on with more productive persuits.

^alot of I's :D

 

[perfect haze]

just fucking dont buy any! lol

sorry but your conflicted between desire and your judgement on how much you can handle yer abilities to let hypothetical substance X rule you. It's a ridiculous concept, just like decide yes or no and stick by it, if you decide no then dont buy any if you decide yes then enjoy yourself and dont give yourself a complex over a substanceyou aint even ingested yet!

 

[Hunstel]

Hi all
New to this forum and like many of you i want to openly admit mephedrone addiction, I take it rougly 5 times a week and consume about 10 g. I told my mam about a month ago and she gave support but i always end up going out at the weekend and getting on it and it needs to stop now. The other week i was tripping that bad that it reduced her to tears and yet i still end up on it all the time and all i want is for her to be proud of me.
It will be a hard time but I will keep posting on here about how i am doing becuase honestly this is ruining my life.

 

[goldfish72]

Hi all
New to this forum and like many of you i want to openly admit mephedrone addiction, I take it rougly 5 times a week and consume about 10 g. I told my mam about a month ago and she gave support but i always end up going out at the weekend and getting on it and it needs to stop now. The other week i was tripping that bad that it reduced her to tears and yet i still end up on it all the time and all i want is for her to be proud of me.
It will be a hard time but I will keep posting on here about how i am doing becuase honestly this is ruining my life.

HUNSTEL...... Meph is a vicious fucker that will pull you in, its too new to decide the longterm effects but you can be rest assured they are not gonna be good. I have jus bought my last 2 grams and i am half a gram in....... thats it for me and this is how im going to do it. You see i love the hit but despise the substance, the smell, the taste, the burning makes me gag everytime but i still keep shoving the fuckin stuff up my snout. Thats how powerful the stuff is. As i said when i introduced myself i got into it when i couldnt get my hands on coke of which i only used to take about once a month and sometimes not at all. I then started to use it at work to keep going the extra mile..........this is where im going to miss it, man i get some work done when im on. But this is it, it has hugged me for long enough i'm not gonna substitute it with anything else just gonna stop.........i will post to say how im getting on. Hunstel the stuff is vile but you can be fuckin guaranteed pretty fuckin lethal given time. Be strong STOP NOW.....you can.

 

[goldfish72]

PS thanks SCROOLOOSE it all helps.