Buckeyeguy
Greenlighter
I believe I'm in the right forum( I also believe other things) here goes
I have been binging on " bath salts" for a couple of days now... I have read and read and read about the chemicals and tried to educate myself so I wouldn't become addicted. I haven't used large doses, but I have insufflated almost every time. I found smoking meph just didn't work. Anyway at this point I'm not high, I'm coming down harshly and I had to take a klonopin to stop from shaking. The reason for this post is as follows. I have a big problem here, I obviously don't have more, and I need it. You all may say that I don't and I will even agree but I DO. The past few hours i have barely escaped doing horrible things and having horrible thoughts due to the lack of the salts and the come down. I'm sure this makes absolutely no sense but I am going to be in trouble soon... I know this and I don't want anymore but I have to( I'm sure everyone knows the feeling) I have used coke and MDMA in the past and easily put it down and continued my life. I have no idea why I am thinking about anyway possible to get this including but not limited to harming myself and others, but I just have to have it. I am not an addict, never have been luckily, but I believe these RCs have flipped the script on me. As I'm typing I am shaking so bad I want to jump out in the street and get hit by a car or something so I don't want to snort more. I don't feel suicidal as a matter of fact I don't feel anything but the need for more "salt". I don't know what to do as I have never found myself in this position and I think I'm going to take a walk and try to find some way to get some. My local smoke shop has it but they're closed. I have been considering breaking in there for hours! Luckily my wife hid my pistol or else I would have been in trouble already. I am broke until Thursday and have no idea what's going to happen in the meantime. I actually slept last night very well due to the firs klonopin. Tonight however it hasn't affected me at all... Just made me a little dopey. I can't think or imagine what I'm going to do and I truly hope I don't die as I do not want to. But the devil has his horns in my eyes or something, and I can't even feel anything I don't care about anything now or from the minute I snorted the first line( I had bought some coke then later purchased the salts to help take the edge off the comedown). I stupidly thought "it's legal it'll be fine". Well obviously it is far worse. I don't know what to do but needed to share with someone. My wife is going to divorce me now too because I can't manifest enough emotion to pretend to care, but I want to... My doctor is out of office for a week or else I would go to him in the morning or at least try, so my only option is to use more! Needless to say I'm gonna go to jail prolly... At least there aren't many withdrawal symptoms! If anyone can help me out with advice or else please feel free I need it!
What's funny to me is the fact that as with other drugs I know it's bad and I can muster up the strength to leave it alone and not do stupid things, it's the same way with the salts but I just simply don't want to, lol I feel like shit and I'm enjoying it, I'm enjoying walking in the cold with shorts on even though I'm freezing balls... I don't really need to ingest anymore but I'm going to because I HAVE TO lol the worst part about this all is that I have a decent stress free( mostly) life and I would consider myself intelligent but nothing matters right now! I hate it but I love it and leving to go find some wish me luck!
I have been binging on " bath salts" for a couple of days now... I have read and read and read about the chemicals and tried to educate myself so I wouldn't become addicted. I haven't used large doses, but I have insufflated almost every time. I found smoking meph just didn't work. Anyway at this point I'm not high, I'm coming down harshly and I had to take a klonopin to stop from shaking. The reason for this post is as follows. I have a big problem here, I obviously don't have more, and I need it. You all may say that I don't and I will even agree but I DO. The past few hours i have barely escaped doing horrible things and having horrible thoughts due to the lack of the salts and the come down. I'm sure this makes absolutely no sense but I am going to be in trouble soon... I know this and I don't want anymore but I have to( I'm sure everyone knows the feeling) I have used coke and MDMA in the past and easily put it down and continued my life. I have no idea why I am thinking about anyway possible to get this including but not limited to harming myself and others, but I just have to have it. I am not an addict, never have been luckily, but I believe these RCs have flipped the script on me. As I'm typing I am shaking so bad I want to jump out in the street and get hit by a car or something so I don't want to snort more. I don't feel suicidal as a matter of fact I don't feel anything but the need for more "salt". I don't know what to do as I have never found myself in this position and I think I'm going to take a walk and try to find some way to get some. My local smoke shop has it but they're closed. I have been considering breaking in there for hours! Luckily my wife hid my pistol or else I would have been in trouble already. I am broke until Thursday and have no idea what's going to happen in the meantime. I actually slept last night very well due to the firs klonopin. Tonight however it hasn't affected me at all... Just made me a little dopey. I can't think or imagine what I'm going to do and I truly hope I don't die as I do not want to. But the devil has his horns in my eyes or something, and I can't even feel anything I don't care about anything now or from the minute I snorted the first line( I had bought some coke then later purchased the salts to help take the edge off the comedown). I stupidly thought "it's legal it'll be fine". Well obviously it is far worse. I don't know what to do but needed to share with someone. My wife is going to divorce me now too because I can't manifest enough emotion to pretend to care, but I want to... My doctor is out of office for a week or else I would go to him in the morning or at least try, so my only option is to use more! Needless to say I'm gonna go to jail prolly... At least there aren't many withdrawal symptoms! If anyone can help me out with advice or else please feel free I need it!
What's funny to me is the fact that as with other drugs I know it's bad and I can muster up the strength to leave it alone and not do stupid things, it's the same way with the salts but I just simply don't want to, lol I feel like shit and I'm enjoying it, I'm enjoying walking in the cold with shorts on even though I'm freezing balls... I don't really need to ingest anymore but I'm going to because I HAVE TO lol the worst part about this all is that I have a decent stress free( mostly) life and I would consider myself intelligent but nothing matters right now! I hate it but I love it and leving to go find some wish me luck!
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