Meh, I'm so lame sometimes.

Just sniffed up half a naltrexone which was stupid and did nothing and I knew it would do nothing but I needed to cut and snort something because I'm trapped in my house with no drugs to abuse and going out of my mind. Wow, awesome. I have no money, car's broke, and I'm sniffing fucking naltrexone. 8)

Now I have a headache.

 

RC's, my friend

 

No. S/he's trying to get sober IIRC. RCs would be counter-productive.

SciCo-- It's still early days, you're bound to have troubles like this. You may feel low about this, but at least it wasn't something properly stupid like snorting extra strength asprin or something. Don't beat yourself up over it, just remember what you're trying to do, and maybe have a few more things to do around the house. Get a few good books from the library, maybe build a model or a puzzle (sounds lame, but it can be quite fun actually) or the like. 'Boredom' is one of the bigger reasons behind relapse once the physical detox is completed, so it helps to have as much to do as possible, so as to learn how to keep occipied while sober.

 

I totally should have googled naltrexone. That was certainly naive. Best of luck with your endeavor then, SciCo, I have no experience on the matter but it sounds like Dave had some good advice. Take care, be kind.

 

I feel really stupid, but I posted this blog as a reminder to myself. I've been home too many days in a row, alone. Thanks Dave and tmdoca.

 

Don't be so self loathing. I could tell you a bunch of cliche things about why it doesnt make since to constantly down yourself, but i wont.

 

^ I know. I'm really bad with the negative self talk.