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[MEGA] Cannabis Quitting Thread aka I need a break

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Thanks, and keep in mind that when I wrote that, I was in my first couple days of withdrawal. I freak out a bit once I come down and realize what I've become.

It's not a demon drug, I'm just a dumbass for not respecting it. I was caught up in that same mentality you just described. But at this point I do feel like I'm possessed by an evil spirit that fiends bong rips haha.

Ontario here too man. Being fed a constant supply of yummy Canadian kush has not helped my desire to quit.
 
rave_itsrealfun!!! said:
Thanks, and keep in mind that when I wrote that, I was in my first couple days of withdrawal. I freak out a bit once I come down and realize what I've become.

It's not a demon drug, I'm just a dumbass for not respecting it. I was caught up in that same mentality you just described. But at this point I do feel like I'm possessed by an evil spirit that fiends bong rips haha.

Ontario here too man. Being fed a constant supply of yummy Canadian kush has not helped my desire to quit.
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Hahaha I understand all too well.
Definitely seems like you know what the deal is though.

O Canada ! ;)
 
I've been craving a break, but only to save money. Alcoholism runs in the one side of my family, but alcohol has never been my drug of choice. It's always been Mary Jane.
So if I keep having money come to me, and it's spendable - guess where it goes?
I spend everything on necessities, then what's left can go to savings and pot.
Canadian as well, and I just can't seem to find a reason just yet to quit this 4~5 year habit. Other than to lower my tolerance.
Does it affect my work? Not usually. I'm a writer for my newspaper in my college - and I put it to the test this week by having no real story ready to hand in at 9 a.m.
I started writing it just an hour before, handed it in and the next day received a whopping 94%.
So why can I do this? The answer is simple: I'm a sick, addicted marijuana smoker who has learned probably all his college education by being baked and reacting to the situations while under the influence.
This doesn't make me a better person. This makes me a worse one, in most peoples eyes.
I've built myself a hole it seems: one where if I quit smoking, I will lose my identity. Because after smoking through highschool and college, I've grown to understand that I can handle my addiction, in my own way, by smoking daily and making sure I am keeping myself productive.

This is my internal conflict. I know I could live as a smoker for the rest of my life, and still have a great life (assuming my health is not afflicted so horribly), but this is not the NORMAL way of living. This is the way of a diseased mind that is too weak to stop even for a few days... as most would say.

But I don't want to stop. And I think the only way people like me CAN quit is if they truly feel that without a doubt in their mind that they're done. Otherwise I think the situation is completely hopeless.
 
The dreaming and the mania I get throughout the first days are insanely pleasurable. Always makes me gladly accept the few (entirely bearable) withdrawal symptoms that come with it as well. Never needed any compensation for those, I always feel 200% better emotionally after quitting, but I get really short-tempered and have ended up with law suits the last 3 times I quit for a few days. I'm just not myself when off it (as ironic as that may sound), or at least not who I prefer to be and have been throughout the past 13 years. I therefore started to embrace my cannabis use and try to practice moderation with it. It was a very long process though.

The other thing is that after a few weeks (~2-4) I start getting severe GI issues with episodes of fever and intense stomach pain (laying awake all night trying not to call an ambulance sort of pain). That's probably caused by an underlying GI tract disease though and pot actually seems to keep that at bay. A friend is experiencing the same thing with his migraines. He's been migraine free since the age 14 which was when he started smoking pot, aside from a few incidences that always occured after 2-3 weeks without pot...

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I've been craving a break, but only to save money. Alcoholism runs in the one side of my family, but alcohol has never been my drug of choice. It's always been Mary Jane.
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I've always said the same thing about my alcohol use. Just wanted to let you know that a booze addiction can really sneak up on you over years and decades and only explode in your face when you're going through tough times. It has been exactly like that for me, I've never enjoyed booze but surely did drink socially here and there (not excessively). Then came the tough episode in life and before I could realize what's going on I was on a liter of 80proof per day, from one day to the next. Just watch out and be safe, alcohol can be really really sneaky. <3
 
It hasn't affected my work or school much either but here are my reasons:

-I have severe low confidence around the opposite sex when I'm high

-It dumbs me down a little, mainly memory, and I am learning a 2nd language

-my body is diseased with dependence

-Smoking 3.5 - 7 grams of chronic a day is uncharted territory in terms of health. Very little research has been done and it could come with serious risks we don't know about yet. I know a chronic user who never smoked a cigarette in his life and was just diagnosed with throat cancer.

-spiritual enlightenment is impossible with an attachment to an object

-I have handed over $20,000 - $30,000 to criminals in exchange for all these problems. I am brainwashed to give them money.

-Sure it's a teacher plant but I passed the course many years ago and I've just been hanging out when I should be moving onwards

-I can only get along with and relate to other stoners when I'm high

-I am pretty much a zombie when I'm high all day. I am much more vibrant off it.

-It's sad to think that many others must have these same issues (I'm not that unique) and never overcome them. I refuse to end up one of those people who stays high until death, while fully accepting the pro-cannabis bs and never realizing that they can do better... all because they are too weak to man up, face withdrawal and change, and admit they've made a mistake.

-This bitch of a withdrawal is only going to get tougher to beat if I stay high any longer. I can't ever go through this again, I've already been through it once before and it was a good month before I was 100%.

-I'm starting my first career job soon, and I won't be able to rock joints all day and reek of pot, because the average boss does not understand or respect that and would have me instantly fired.

Day 6 here, even though I've been getting 3-4 hours of sleep per night and half the calorie intake, I have double the energy I had before. I know I'm hijacking this thread a bit but writing all this down is helping me keep focussed on what needs to be done.
 
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im 45 days sober now, not a single puff and ive barely been drinking. i definitely feel more sober than i did in my daily haze, when i did a sober day. but i barely feel different what i feel when i went 3-4 days sober. i guess i was hoping for the effects to be a little more noticable.

behaviour wise things have stayed about the same. i still dont like smalltalk, im still rather the silent than the loud type. i still spend 6 hours on the internet, basically doing nothing after i get home from work. i actually think i was a little more productive after work when i was smoking. i would smoke a joint, watch a tv show and then often feel compelled to do a little more work. it feels like i have less drive.

i stay longer at work, because theres nothing waiting for me at home. when i was still smoking i sometimes rushed through all my work as quickly as possible so i could smoke a joint before dinner. now i just take my time and dont really mind getting home past 7 pm. whats nice is that im completely functional and on call all the time. no more paranoia when the doorbell rings, no more putting off shopping or talking with my parents because im too stoned.

i definitely go out more. my roommate still smokes and when his buddies come over on the weekend they like to smoke weed and play vidia or watch a movie. something i LOVED to do. now it just bores me, i want to go outside and experience something. thats definitely a plus.

what im trying to say is that without weed, im still my same old time wasting self. i didnt become a super productive, intelligent, social, well-liked person like i had secretly hoped. but i am no longer under the constraints of weed. i feel more free and in control. i feel better towards my parents, girlfriend and co-workers. i love not worrying about the next joint. it didnt change me as a person, it just took off my shackles. now its all me. now i have nothing to blame it on anymore.

im never going back to weed. i would love to toke once in a while but the risk is not worth it to me. i believe that with me its like with dry alcoholics. one sip and the go crazy and relapse straight back into addiction. for me the only way is cold turkey, forever.
 
So yeah at day 8 i would say I am 100% recovered. Gonna stop visiting this site and forget about drugs for a while.

And with the money I saved, I was able to pick up some tickets for the red hot chili peppers.

Certainly not psychologically though, this is when it becomes tough not to burn. Last night I found a big old bag of seeds full of crumbs that I could have sifted through and rolled up a joint with. I went to the bathroom like 3 times to flush it before I actually managed to do so. I had like a 30 minute stare down with the stupid bag haha, just sitting there fondling it haha, and almost caved. And as if that wasn't enough then my roomie rolled a joint and left a bong rips worth on the table, I scraped out his grinder to make it extra crystally before coming to me senses and throwing it away. I feel extra good about myself now though. That was a big test, at day 9 now.
 
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I am having a hard time at the minute without weed, feels like there is a big empty hole in my life. I don't get any physical withdrawal just mental, it makes me so miserable without it and I can barely sleep. It has been about a week since my last smoke and it is all I can think about, I thought it would have got easier by now but it is getting harder by the day.

I am counting down the days until my friend harvests in 7 - 8 weeks (that is the only way I can get weed at the minute) today I even worked out how many hours are in 7 weeks so I can start counting down lol.

I just cant really enjoy anything sober, movies and music seem boring and I normally love them when I have weed.

I think when I go back to the weed I am going to try and not make it the centre of my life again, I don't know how I will do that but I have to do it somehow.
 
rave_itsrealfun!!! said:
So yeah at day 8 i would say I am 100% recovered. Gonna stop visiting this site and forget about drugs for a while.

And with the money I saved, I was able to pick up some tickets for the red hot chili peppers.

Certainly not psychologically though, this is when it becomes tough not to burn. Last night I found a big old bag of seeds full of crumbs that I could have sifted through and rolled up a joint with. I went to the bathroom like 3 times to flush it before I actually managed to do so. I had like a 30 minute stare down with the stupid bag haha, just sitting there fondling it haha, and almost caved. And as if that wasn't enough then my roomie rolled a joint and left a bong rips worth on the table, I scraped out his grinder to make it extra crystally before coming to me senses and throwing it away. I feel extra good about myself now though. That was a big test, at day 9 now.
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You threw away your roommates kief, and some weed he left on the table? Even if it was a small amount, why not just give it back to him? As well as the shake in the bag of seeds, why not just give it to someone who could use it instead of wasting it?
 
rave_itsrealfun!!! said:
So yeah at day 8 i would say I am 100% recovered. Gonna stop visiting this site and forget about drugs for a while.

And with the money I saved, I was able to pick up some tickets for the red hot chili peppers.
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Ha, wicked! The one at the ACC yeah? Going to that too :)
Awesome.

Last night, I unfortunately hit a bowl in my state of sedation/intoxication (clonazepam and brandy).
I honestly don't think it's a big deal, I'm not craving in any way right now, and all I'm doing is sitting at home by myself, getting ready for work tomorrow.
Can't help feeling a little guilty though, which is probably a good thing.

Looks like we've got some people in this thread that are on their way to success in regards to quitting.
Always good to hear stories like this. :)
 
Ya man. I'm pumped for the chili peppers.

Haha I threw the crumbs away because I was gonna smoke them myself if I didn't, and these were minimal amounts. Like a scroungy bong rip, and there was nobody around to give it to. I literally had to force myself to throw them, and a part of me instantly regretted it.

So I'm still off pot, but I had a wonderful mushroom trip the other day. It was total bliss, and it made me realize how fucking worked up I've been lately over quitting pot and whatnot, but the trip really helped to chill me out and become centered again.

And I tried oxycodone and I LOVED it. It's the drug I've been looking for all my life. I have enough for my first date with this chick soon, and my next couple job interviews. But fuck, it's a drug without being a drug. And I'm not making it in life, I'm fucking up, even though I have a degree in engineering science I can't get hired cause of lack of confidence / social anxiety due to me rarely ever getting pussy my whole life. Loneliness has been really fucking with me, I don't even think it's the pot that is that big of an issue in my life. It's loneliness. Weed obviously just makes things worse though. But I was smarter in school than all my friends who are already hired, I've been fucking around for a year and can't take it anymore. I take 10 mg of this stuff, and nothing at all happens except I get really happy about life and very socially confident.

I should have switched from pot to oxy years ago. I could guarantee myself that by now I would be an engineer with a girlfriend. Sure there is physical dependence to watch out for, but I plan on using this as a tool to get through difficult situations while I am in this messed up position in life.
 
rave_itsrealfun!!! said:
Ya man. I'm pumped for the chili peppers.

Haha I threw the crumbs away because I was gonna smoke them myself if I didn't, and these were minimal amounts. Like a scroungy bong rip, and there was nobody around to give it to. I literally had to force myself to throw them, and a part of me instantly regretted it.

So I'm still off pot, but I had a wonderful mushroom trip the other day. It was total bliss, and it made me realize how fucking worked up I've been lately over quitting pot and whatnot, but the trip really helped to chill me out and become centered again.

And I tried oxycodone and I LOVED it. It's the drug I've been looking for all my life. I have enough for my first date with this chick soon, and my next couple job interviews. But fuck, it's a drug without being a drug. And I'm not making it in life, I'm fucking up, even though I have a degree in engineering science I can't get hired cause of lack of confidence / social anxiety due to me rarely ever getting pussy my whole life. Loneliness has been really fucking with me, I don't even think it's the pot that is that big of an issue in my life. It's loneliness. Weed obviously just makes things worse though. But I was smarter in school than all my friends who are already hired, I've been fucking around for a year and can't take it anymore. I take 10 mg of this stuff, and nothing at all happens except I get really happy about life and very socially confident.

I should have switched from pot to oxy years ago. I could guarantee myself that by now I would be an engineer with a girlfriend. Sure there is physical dependence to watch out for, but I plan on using this as a tool to get through difficult situations while I am in this messed up position in life.
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Unless your ok with heroin i would not start with the oxys.. in the end it will cause the same trouble.. you will start with a weekend habit and that will turn into a few time a week until you get the first hint of withdraw and that is not fun. save yourself the trouble and never do it again.. i wish i was able to stop before i started..

Stick to the psychedelics and you will be fine.. even coke is better then heroin.. just my advice.. i been down that road and its death..
 
I wouldn't say taking 10mg of oxycodone is akin to heroin - I don't even really get high. It just cures my fed-upness and confidence issue. But I understand what it leads to if abused.

But yeah I tend to do other drugs when I don't smoke weed, there is nothing wrong with the odd psychedelic journey though.

Guess I should have known I was the type to enjoy the opiate high. Stimulants just arn't my thing.
 
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I don't know if you have ever thought about it rave_itsrealfun!!!, but it seems like you are blaming a lot of your personal issues like low self esteem and not having a girlfriend for your drug use.

Everybody can change, and I don't think you need to use drugs to change what you don't like about yourself. Will you just pop 10mg of oxycodone instead of telling yourself you need to be confident and let others know you are feeling confident before any stressful situations?

I have always been pretty shy myself, and have low self esteem. Couldn't say I had a real date yet and i'm 19, which you might think is young, but having a girlfriend is something I should have went through before this age. I don't condone myself and take drugs to change my behavior, i'd rather live like I am and do some work to change what I don't like and what I can't live with about myself.

Maybe somehow, deep down, i've been smoking for these reasons, I don't even know myself yet. I would just suggest you to stop "crying" over your social situations and work to be a better person all around, for yourself. Not change yourself to be looking all happy in public and therefore getting pussy. You have to realize that a lot of great men have lived alone all their life, it doesn't mean that because you don't have that social easiness in public that you can not get a job.

I think you should put all your problems on the side when going to a job interview... The hardest thing is to make the guy believe that you are confident and everything. If you keep thinking that you can't go in there without having anxiety and everything, you will be stressed out and fuck up.

Good luck man. Also, maybe it wasn't your case, but think about when you started smoking weed. Wouldn't you want to smoke it all the time, everywhere, in any situation? Because it "made you a better person"? Well it starts like that with every drug, as well as oxycodone (which I have no personal experience with). You're gonna have a honeymoon phase and before you realize it's starting to fuck you up, it's gonna be too late.
 
Haha ya man I'm never doing it again, thank you for the msg, apart from the couple which I have. And I have a couple things coming up in which they might be useful to use so I guess it's just karma that they fell into my possession. I will take it as a blessing and then stay the hell away from opiates forever, haha. I should have known... I'm not a stimulant guy.

I will trip again sometime soon and I think I might try smoking weed again because I imagine things will be different if I keep it to once every 2 weeks. And since I control my own destiny I should be able to not instantly fiending bong rips again, I'm doing fine now.

And I don't think my problems are too bad I'm just in one of lifes troughs right now. Just gotta ride the waves dude. I do think whatever problems I have are exacerbated by myself fiending bong rips all day though, a trough can quickly turn into a rabbit hole that is difficult to climb out of - life has improved drastically since I stopped doing this.
 
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hello, I'm new here, but I wanted some help...

my cousin does weed and h's gone like all aggressive, doesn't speak to anyone and is always saying that it helps him concentrate and stuff, but I don't think its true.

he does it in the house and then he says that he hasn't done it, but we can always smell it.

I want him to stop because it affecting him and everyone else around him, what should I do?
 
i would just work anywhere i could find work.. not sure if you should jump into a high end job yet.. start small and work your way up the ladder.
 
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