Chainer
Bluelighter
merging into the mega I need a Break thread
it has been about 4 days sense i quit. Just as the last few times i quit, it is not really that hard.. sleep is not as easy, but i do get to bed. I feel much more clear headed.. I was smoking everyday and that was not working out for me. I think moderation is the key. I quit once before for about 4 months, when i started back up i felt that i didnot get as high and i was not crazy about the feeling, but i did not experience the negative side effects until i was smoking everyday for a few months.
I love the clear headiness i get from not smoking. I also feel more open to talk with people and i enjoy being sober.
I'm still barely sleeping too, at day 4.
I am also getting consistent sleep paralysis, just horrible.
But once addiction sets in you're pretty much fucked and you have to quit cold turkey.
2 days off the shit, last night was the first time I have ever had a legit convo my roomates gf and she's been here every day for a month.
I am such a snob on this demon drug that when I'm on it, people who don't do it are just meaningless objects to me, robots.
She's actually a super chill girl and she's dropped acid and Mdma before but just hates this zombie drug. She could see the new light in my eyes and she was encouraging me like crazy to quit.
I know for sure that this is my time to leave.