Hi guys,
Let me first say: weed is a great drug. It's that great of a drug that you might not even look at it as a 'drug'. For me, personally, there also lies the problem.
I'm not much of an addict (at least I try to convince myself that I'm not). I don't smoke, I don't use any other drugs regularly (I maybe use mdma 3 times a year, thats really no big deal to me). Problem is, weed has been different, mostly because there are not too many negative effects, not really too hungover the next day, I might even say more energetic the next day (although that also seems to be passing away). At this point in my life, I have been smoking weed for maybe 8 years, but this is very broad. The last 3 years I have been smoking maybe 5 times a week, and this last year this probably goes up to 7 times a week. I'm in this situation where I feel some kind of a mental addiction is starting to grow, and I'm not sure I like it.
Lately I've been also noticing more negative side effect. I'm getting
lazy. The high is more 'fucked up', I get in this serious loops. Stress from work doesn't go away. Worse, when I think about things like that stoned, it gets MAGNIFIED, like suddenly I have serious problems ahead (I still know at that moment that is not really true but I cannot enjoy the high anymore).
Furthermore, my
short term memory is totally fried. Also one thing I start hating more and more is how fucking stupid you can be while high, like your IQ drops significantly (I know this is only true to a certain degree (-10 ?) but for me it feels like a lot more. And I think in a way this is also what makes weed so much fun, it takes longer to realise something, like suddenly an average TV show is totally amazing, just because all the average jokes suddenly are a lot better than average, because you're so fucked up you had to think alot longer about whatever was going on before you actually got it.
Is this just total nonsense? Does anybody at least to a certain degree get what I'm talking about? Should I just stop and start being productive ?

SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME ?