Hammet
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March 5th, 2006 -------- The passenger seat
Written March 7, 2006 under 90% clear mind
Drugs taken: Triple Stack Blue Dolphin E pills (cut with cocaine), opium, really good hippy Train wreck, and White Russian.
Staring:
Geoff – Few beers
Hollieann- 1 E pill, 3 bowls
Jordanna - Half an E pill then later another half an hour later, 3 bowls
Brian(Author)-2 E pills about 2 hours apart, 1 blunt & 7 bowls (approx.)
Co Staring:
Jake– Blunt and then some
Rosemere Joe – Ditto and some Opium
My girlfriend just broke up with me recently, so that means 2 things. One is that I can smoke weed and experiment with drugs again without feeling guilty, and two is I get to spend more time with my friends, mainly Geoff since I am currently “staying” at his place. My first time trying E was only 4 days ago, and I loved it but knew there was more there than I was feeling, so I was excited to get my long time best friend from high school Jordanna to come over and be there with me when I tried it again on a higher dose, since I was well aware now of the kind of bond that is made with people who take E together. And considering we had been through a lot together prior and still remained friends after high school, I knew she would be the perfect person to try it with. Although at first she only agreed to be there and watch as I did it.
Slow day to start, I think Geoff and me woke up at like noon or later as usual. Jake called me and informed me that it was our mutual friend Joe’s birthday. I headed over to the Rosemere neighborhood, which I just moved out of recently to sit in on a birthday blunt of some real good White Russian weed and pick up some more from the hippies. We sat in my car and smoked by the graveyard there (where a bum died recently). We talked for a good while after we were done, mostly about my last E experience, Joe’s birthday, and myself having sex with Hollieann and her cousin Davey within a week. They always love to hear about that kinda stuff. Then we drove down to the hippies and smoked a couple bowls and since it was Joe’s birthday they hooked him up with what they called a Black Dot, which turned out to be opium that they had been saving. I was extremely high from all that good weed and just sat there for at least an hour till I decided to go back to Geoff’s apartment and see what was going on for the night.
Around four pm I called Geoff’s new current girlfriend/my long time ex Hollieann to see if she could get some E for us, since she was the one who got it last time. Luckily she could, but once I drove across town to get her, we had to wait at her house for her contact to go grab some more, which was no big deal since we also got to eat some free burgers her family made, and I am always down for some free food.
Around six Hollie called her contact to see if he had got it yet and how much it would be. This is the first funny moment of the night. He said it would be 15$ each pill, or we could get 4 for 50$… but if Hollie had sex with him he would give it to her for basically free. Geoff got real pissed and I of course thought it was hilarious… unfortunately for me since I was buying, she didn’t do it. Anyways we met him at a Wallgreens parking lot, and we recognized each other. I still don’t know his name, but he looked familiar and said we should hang out and go skating some time… I think he was my brother’s friend. Everything went safely although Geoff wanted to kill the dealer since he was trying to fuck Hollie.
Then I drove everyone to pick up Jordanna who I made wait a while since we had to wait on the E. She wasn’t mad though, and we were happy to see each other since it had been a few weeks (my birthday actually). She didn’t want to try any of the E, but I thanked her for just coming along.
I had been in suspense about taking the E pretty much all day and when we all got back to Geoff’s place, I didn’t want to be a freak and just take a pill right away, so I waited as long as possible, which was apparently under five minutes, according to what he just told me. Haha. After that comes the waiting, which is of course the worst part, even though I was extremely high from all the weed already, I had to try some of the Train wreck that I just got with the girls (Side note: Geoff doesn’t do any sort of drugs including marijuana or tobacco, but he can out drink me usually). Jordanna does smoke weed, but only occasionally now, and she has never had anything like Train wreck, Hollie on the other hand smokes as much as me, maybe more. After a couple of bowls and 20 minutes I continued my marijuana belligerency and noticed Jordanna was literally in another world. I had never seen her like this before. I had turned 21 like 3 weeks ago, so I took her to grab some way overpriced apple flavored bitch beers for Geoff. I was starting to feel the E before I left, so I was in a giving mood and decided to buy them for him since I felt he was missing out on some level.
We drove to the 7-11, just down a couple blocks. On the way there Jordanna started looking around and asked me how we got in the car. I laughed really hard and just told her what was going on. After we got the beers and parked in the apartment I was really feeling the E mixed with weed. I told Jordanna just to sit in the car with me for a while.
I remember looking in my trunk for CDs but not finding them, luckily the best Tool mix was already in my car (perfect for tripping). It took about ten minutes to get the beer and drive back to Geoff’s, but me and Jordanna stayed in the parking lot for at least an hour listening to music, and we were both frying hard. Jordanna said she felt like she had taken some mushrooms the weed was so strong on her. Also I had to change a Tool song for her since it was making her freak out… from weed. I remember looking at a gradual embankment of trees and dead leaves which turned into a solid wall and the “bricks” began swirling uncontrollably. Also the lights in on the dashboard and CD player were extremely vivid and entrancing. I’ve never felt like this before in my life. About then I was also feeling extremely relaxed, and I started to talk like what can only be described as a hippy. Half a sentence spoken slowly then the rest followed be the word “man,” which is really uncharacteristic of me, but it was so obvious even Jordanna noticed. Geoff called to see what was taking so long and I talked some hippy to him and told him we were in his apartment complex just sitting in the car. He laughed and told me to come in soon.
Jordanna began telling me she was feeling somewhat like I was on E, so I told her more about it without trying to peer pressure her into anything she would regret later. But I told her our friendship would be immeasurably deeper after having this experience together and some of the other effects. She told me she would never get pressured into anything… ever (which I knew to be true) but that she would eat half a pill. My first feelings of deep friendship and love came at this time because I knew she had always been a true friend, and trusted me enough to try this with me. We stayed in the car talking about what we were experiencing for at least 30 more minutes.
I don’t know why we left the car but we eventually did, and went upstairs to Geoff’s room. Jordanna took half a pill. Hollie loves E and asked me if she could have one. I told her to ask Geoff since he doesn’t like Hollie doing drugs all the time. He agreed and she ate one also. A few hours passed and the whole time Geoff put on an A Perfect Circle song on repeat (I just now found out it was on repeat.) Hold on… let me describe Geoff’s room. We turned out all the lights except for two black lights. Also he opened quite a few glow sticks of various colors that we put on our wrists. This combination fucked with all of us really good. When the E started hitting Hollie and Jordanna, they started reminiscing about old times… mainly that I took both of them to my senior prom . So they were not entirely strangers to eachother, but they started acknowledging that both found the other very attractive, and Hollie (who is bi) started asking Jordanna if she had ever had any form of lesbian experiences. I don’t remember what I was doing but I looked over and saw both the girls with no tops on. They both felt completely comfortable being naked in the room (only panties on eventually) with Geoffrey and myself, (I call him Geoffrey while high only, and not on purpose) I remember Jordanna saying it was about time I saw her topless since I’ve known her so long. Kissing ensued there after, small ones at first between the two girls then making out soon there after. Jordanna kissed me briefly and it didn’t feel strange like it probably should have. Everyone was completely comfortable. On ecstasy, your eyes get extremely dilated, and I remember we were all looking at each others eyes. I looked at Jordanna’s and said “They look blue… and a color I’ve never seen before.” The color I had never seen before was every color mixed together (black) and the absence of color (white) at the same time, all while looking somewhat like liquid metal.
Many feeling and things here I cant recall, but I do remember Geoff putting 2 glow sticks in circles and tying them to shoe laces so he could swing them around and make everyone trip. What I saw was indescribable, but I remember black stripes wherever he swung them. When things calmed down a little bit I took the glow sticks and swung them parallel to the sides of my body while listening to the APC song. Slowly the striped things I had seen before formed on my sides then came over my entire body like a force field, but it was generated by the music. The girls were watching me, and my exact words were… “I’m inside of it.” Which made them laugh a lot. We decided to go to Jack in the Box and get some food since Geoff and Jordanna were getting hungry. When the music stopped so we could leave, I felt like a piece of myself had left, and it was a bit sad.
I drive drunk and/or high every day and rarely have any sort of swerving or anything. This was no exception, I could drive perfectly so long as someone told me where to turn, because I was basically in a trance. I turned the Tool mix on again while we drove. Jordanna and me started talking about our friendship and how meaningful it was to both of us. A few things stand out in my mind that were extremely powerful to hear/say. I’m not sure who said what, but it didn’t matter anyways since we were of like mind… extremely connected like nothing I had ever experienced. “We are the people who stay friends even after high school.” “Other people come and go, but our friendship has always been there. It has always been us. Our friendship and love will always be there even if years go by without talking.” “We need each other, and there are certain things that only one can do for the other, and we will always be there for the other.” She also told me about a time when I saved her from a horrible situation, and how glad she was to have me as a friend since no one else could have saved her. After she told me this it literally brought a tear to my eye because it made me feel so good inside.
We eventually ended up at Jack in the Box and ordered a bunch of Jr. bacon cheeseburgers. Jordanna was peaking on her first half of a pill while we were in line to get the food, and Hollie (being an experienced E user) decided Jordanna would enjoy a hand rub. She was sitting in the front passenger seat, and Hollie in the back, so she put her arm back and Hollie put lotion on her hand and started giving her a massage. Jordanna was really into it at first (any skin to skin contact on E is amazing), and said that it was weird that she felt tingly all over her body and that she could feel the hand massage “down there.” Immediately after saying that she started saying that it was almost as good as sex. She was quiet for a second then started with the slight moaning and saying “oh my god!” Geoffrey and I started laughing in disbelief as Hollie continued. It probably took Jordanna about a minute before she climaxed in the seat next to me from getting a hand rub. By the end, she was practically screaming in the car. I will never forget that.
Less than a minute later, we drove up to the window and got our food still practically in disbelief. Jordanna who was hungry before now said she wasn’t but that she would try to eat. Took one bite, chewed for a second, said it tasted like cotton, then had to spit it out. I asked for a bite to try it first hand. It did taste somewhat like cotton but all my taste receptacles were going out of control and even this somewhat disgusting taste brought me pleasure, so I continued to chew it just for the sensation until Hollie and Geoff told me just to spit it out.
After all that, we headed to my mothers hot tub. From here on out, my memory is pretty hazy, so ill probably leave a lot of things out. I think Hollie was too hot and had to get out fairly quickly. Me and Jordanna talked some more about our friendship and such. I love hot tubs on E, but everyone wanted to leave, so we didn’t stay there very long, and headed back to Geoffrey’s apartment.
More weed when we got back to the apartment. Me and the girls went outside to smoke some more and continued talking about our feelings toward each other. I remember we all hugged a few times. Once Hollie went back inside, Jordanna told me something that I could tell she had locked away down deep in her psyche. I felt overwhelmed that she would share this with me but also horrible because I unknowingly teased her about it before. I swear we talked forever. The trees across the way had faces. When we went back inside later, it was almost morning and we all felt cheated like we should have had more time to do this and that we had actually lost a couple hours of our lives. Starting to come down now, and it sucks. It’s the feeling of knowing you will never feel this good again. Kind of like if you went to heaven and everything was awesome then you had to go back to earth. Yeah your “ok,” but the yearning to feel heavenly is overwhelming. I can see how people get addicted to this now. All in all though, the good well outweighed the bad for me. If I remember correctly Jordanna actually got pissed that she was coming down. Before she was making plans for us to try E again, but now she is definitely not thinking like that.
After staying up all night, I took Hollie home and tried to sleep with little success. The next day I passed out for like 18 hours though. The effects stayed with me for 2-3 days after. I think that’s about it.
Written March 7, 2006 under 90% clear mind
Drugs taken: Triple Stack Blue Dolphin E pills (cut with cocaine), opium, really good hippy Train wreck, and White Russian.
Staring:
Geoff – Few beers
Hollieann- 1 E pill, 3 bowls
Jordanna - Half an E pill then later another half an hour later, 3 bowls
Brian(Author)-2 E pills about 2 hours apart, 1 blunt & 7 bowls (approx.)
Co Staring:
Jake– Blunt and then some
Rosemere Joe – Ditto and some Opium
My girlfriend just broke up with me recently, so that means 2 things. One is that I can smoke weed and experiment with drugs again without feeling guilty, and two is I get to spend more time with my friends, mainly Geoff since I am currently “staying” at his place. My first time trying E was only 4 days ago, and I loved it but knew there was more there than I was feeling, so I was excited to get my long time best friend from high school Jordanna to come over and be there with me when I tried it again on a higher dose, since I was well aware now of the kind of bond that is made with people who take E together. And considering we had been through a lot together prior and still remained friends after high school, I knew she would be the perfect person to try it with. Although at first she only agreed to be there and watch as I did it.
Slow day to start, I think Geoff and me woke up at like noon or later as usual. Jake called me and informed me that it was our mutual friend Joe’s birthday. I headed over to the Rosemere neighborhood, which I just moved out of recently to sit in on a birthday blunt of some real good White Russian weed and pick up some more from the hippies. We sat in my car and smoked by the graveyard there (where a bum died recently). We talked for a good while after we were done, mostly about my last E experience, Joe’s birthday, and myself having sex with Hollieann and her cousin Davey within a week. They always love to hear about that kinda stuff. Then we drove down to the hippies and smoked a couple bowls and since it was Joe’s birthday they hooked him up with what they called a Black Dot, which turned out to be opium that they had been saving. I was extremely high from all that good weed and just sat there for at least an hour till I decided to go back to Geoff’s apartment and see what was going on for the night.
Around four pm I called Geoff’s new current girlfriend/my long time ex Hollieann to see if she could get some E for us, since she was the one who got it last time. Luckily she could, but once I drove across town to get her, we had to wait at her house for her contact to go grab some more, which was no big deal since we also got to eat some free burgers her family made, and I am always down for some free food.
Around six Hollie called her contact to see if he had got it yet and how much it would be. This is the first funny moment of the night. He said it would be 15$ each pill, or we could get 4 for 50$… but if Hollie had sex with him he would give it to her for basically free. Geoff got real pissed and I of course thought it was hilarious… unfortunately for me since I was buying, she didn’t do it. Anyways we met him at a Wallgreens parking lot, and we recognized each other. I still don’t know his name, but he looked familiar and said we should hang out and go skating some time… I think he was my brother’s friend. Everything went safely although Geoff wanted to kill the dealer since he was trying to fuck Hollie.
Then I drove everyone to pick up Jordanna who I made wait a while since we had to wait on the E. She wasn’t mad though, and we were happy to see each other since it had been a few weeks (my birthday actually). She didn’t want to try any of the E, but I thanked her for just coming along.
I had been in suspense about taking the E pretty much all day and when we all got back to Geoff’s place, I didn’t want to be a freak and just take a pill right away, so I waited as long as possible, which was apparently under five minutes, according to what he just told me. Haha. After that comes the waiting, which is of course the worst part, even though I was extremely high from all the weed already, I had to try some of the Train wreck that I just got with the girls (Side note: Geoff doesn’t do any sort of drugs including marijuana or tobacco, but he can out drink me usually). Jordanna does smoke weed, but only occasionally now, and she has never had anything like Train wreck, Hollie on the other hand smokes as much as me, maybe more. After a couple of bowls and 20 minutes I continued my marijuana belligerency and noticed Jordanna was literally in another world. I had never seen her like this before. I had turned 21 like 3 weeks ago, so I took her to grab some way overpriced apple flavored bitch beers for Geoff. I was starting to feel the E before I left, so I was in a giving mood and decided to buy them for him since I felt he was missing out on some level.
We drove to the 7-11, just down a couple blocks. On the way there Jordanna started looking around and asked me how we got in the car. I laughed really hard and just told her what was going on. After we got the beers and parked in the apartment I was really feeling the E mixed with weed. I told Jordanna just to sit in the car with me for a while.
I remember looking in my trunk for CDs but not finding them, luckily the best Tool mix was already in my car (perfect for tripping). It took about ten minutes to get the beer and drive back to Geoff’s, but me and Jordanna stayed in the parking lot for at least an hour listening to music, and we were both frying hard. Jordanna said she felt like she had taken some mushrooms the weed was so strong on her. Also I had to change a Tool song for her since it was making her freak out… from weed. I remember looking at a gradual embankment of trees and dead leaves which turned into a solid wall and the “bricks” began swirling uncontrollably. Also the lights in on the dashboard and CD player were extremely vivid and entrancing. I’ve never felt like this before in my life. About then I was also feeling extremely relaxed, and I started to talk like what can only be described as a hippy. Half a sentence spoken slowly then the rest followed be the word “man,” which is really uncharacteristic of me, but it was so obvious even Jordanna noticed. Geoff called to see what was taking so long and I talked some hippy to him and told him we were in his apartment complex just sitting in the car. He laughed and told me to come in soon.
Jordanna began telling me she was feeling somewhat like I was on E, so I told her more about it without trying to peer pressure her into anything she would regret later. But I told her our friendship would be immeasurably deeper after having this experience together and some of the other effects. She told me she would never get pressured into anything… ever (which I knew to be true) but that she would eat half a pill. My first feelings of deep friendship and love came at this time because I knew she had always been a true friend, and trusted me enough to try this with me. We stayed in the car talking about what we were experiencing for at least 30 more minutes.
I don’t know why we left the car but we eventually did, and went upstairs to Geoff’s room. Jordanna took half a pill. Hollie loves E and asked me if she could have one. I told her to ask Geoff since he doesn’t like Hollie doing drugs all the time. He agreed and she ate one also. A few hours passed and the whole time Geoff put on an A Perfect Circle song on repeat (I just now found out it was on repeat.) Hold on… let me describe Geoff’s room. We turned out all the lights except for two black lights. Also he opened quite a few glow sticks of various colors that we put on our wrists. This combination fucked with all of us really good. When the E started hitting Hollie and Jordanna, they started reminiscing about old times… mainly that I took both of them to my senior prom . So they were not entirely strangers to eachother, but they started acknowledging that both found the other very attractive, and Hollie (who is bi) started asking Jordanna if she had ever had any form of lesbian experiences. I don’t remember what I was doing but I looked over and saw both the girls with no tops on. They both felt completely comfortable being naked in the room (only panties on eventually) with Geoffrey and myself, (I call him Geoffrey while high only, and not on purpose) I remember Jordanna saying it was about time I saw her topless since I’ve known her so long. Kissing ensued there after, small ones at first between the two girls then making out soon there after. Jordanna kissed me briefly and it didn’t feel strange like it probably should have. Everyone was completely comfortable. On ecstasy, your eyes get extremely dilated, and I remember we were all looking at each others eyes. I looked at Jordanna’s and said “They look blue… and a color I’ve never seen before.” The color I had never seen before was every color mixed together (black) and the absence of color (white) at the same time, all while looking somewhat like liquid metal.
Many feeling and things here I cant recall, but I do remember Geoff putting 2 glow sticks in circles and tying them to shoe laces so he could swing them around and make everyone trip. What I saw was indescribable, but I remember black stripes wherever he swung them. When things calmed down a little bit I took the glow sticks and swung them parallel to the sides of my body while listening to the APC song. Slowly the striped things I had seen before formed on my sides then came over my entire body like a force field, but it was generated by the music. The girls were watching me, and my exact words were… “I’m inside of it.” Which made them laugh a lot. We decided to go to Jack in the Box and get some food since Geoff and Jordanna were getting hungry. When the music stopped so we could leave, I felt like a piece of myself had left, and it was a bit sad.
I drive drunk and/or high every day and rarely have any sort of swerving or anything. This was no exception, I could drive perfectly so long as someone told me where to turn, because I was basically in a trance. I turned the Tool mix on again while we drove. Jordanna and me started talking about our friendship and how meaningful it was to both of us. A few things stand out in my mind that were extremely powerful to hear/say. I’m not sure who said what, but it didn’t matter anyways since we were of like mind… extremely connected like nothing I had ever experienced. “We are the people who stay friends even after high school.” “Other people come and go, but our friendship has always been there. It has always been us. Our friendship and love will always be there even if years go by without talking.” “We need each other, and there are certain things that only one can do for the other, and we will always be there for the other.” She also told me about a time when I saved her from a horrible situation, and how glad she was to have me as a friend since no one else could have saved her. After she told me this it literally brought a tear to my eye because it made me feel so good inside.
We eventually ended up at Jack in the Box and ordered a bunch of Jr. bacon cheeseburgers. Jordanna was peaking on her first half of a pill while we were in line to get the food, and Hollie (being an experienced E user) decided Jordanna would enjoy a hand rub. She was sitting in the front passenger seat, and Hollie in the back, so she put her arm back and Hollie put lotion on her hand and started giving her a massage. Jordanna was really into it at first (any skin to skin contact on E is amazing), and said that it was weird that she felt tingly all over her body and that she could feel the hand massage “down there.” Immediately after saying that she started saying that it was almost as good as sex. She was quiet for a second then started with the slight moaning and saying “oh my god!” Geoffrey and I started laughing in disbelief as Hollie continued. It probably took Jordanna about a minute before she climaxed in the seat next to me from getting a hand rub. By the end, she was practically screaming in the car. I will never forget that.
Less than a minute later, we drove up to the window and got our food still practically in disbelief. Jordanna who was hungry before now said she wasn’t but that she would try to eat. Took one bite, chewed for a second, said it tasted like cotton, then had to spit it out. I asked for a bite to try it first hand. It did taste somewhat like cotton but all my taste receptacles were going out of control and even this somewhat disgusting taste brought me pleasure, so I continued to chew it just for the sensation until Hollie and Geoff told me just to spit it out.
After all that, we headed to my mothers hot tub. From here on out, my memory is pretty hazy, so ill probably leave a lot of things out. I think Hollie was too hot and had to get out fairly quickly. Me and Jordanna talked some more about our friendship and such. I love hot tubs on E, but everyone wanted to leave, so we didn’t stay there very long, and headed back to Geoffrey’s apartment.
More weed when we got back to the apartment. Me and the girls went outside to smoke some more and continued talking about our feelings toward each other. I remember we all hugged a few times. Once Hollie went back inside, Jordanna told me something that I could tell she had locked away down deep in her psyche. I felt overwhelmed that she would share this with me but also horrible because I unknowingly teased her about it before. I swear we talked forever. The trees across the way had faces. When we went back inside later, it was almost morning and we all felt cheated like we should have had more time to do this and that we had actually lost a couple hours of our lives. Starting to come down now, and it sucks. It’s the feeling of knowing you will never feel this good again. Kind of like if you went to heaven and everything was awesome then you had to go back to earth. Yeah your “ok,” but the yearning to feel heavenly is overwhelming. I can see how people get addicted to this now. All in all though, the good well outweighed the bad for me. If I remember correctly Jordanna actually got pissed that she was coming down. Before she was making plans for us to try E again, but now she is definitely not thinking like that.
After staying up all night, I took Hollie home and tried to sleep with little success. The next day I passed out for like 18 hours though. The effects stayed with me for 2-3 days after. I think that’s about it.
