Perhaps I was a bit melodramatic last night...I am sorry for being such a tool. Guess it was my turn to be the midnight tweaker...Bored, stimmed, nothing else was going through my head, I find the balance confusion amusing when it happens I'm too high to react otherwise...I'm sure someone would have laughed at me falling on my head ridiculously but it would probably bring out a new flavour of hurt in me...I'm not a wreck. Not even close, you all know it (photos of me seem to capture a blatant 'innocence' no matter what. My main vice is total boredom, more than drugs. Drugs provide a source of interest that I enjoy more than all but the most worthwhile of drug effects I've tried.
The way it is, I buy a gram of MDPV, a drug I know I will like, a popular stim known for being, besides great value for money, really euphoric and not particularly toxic on the usual organs compared to 'equivalent' stimulants..Like, it's self indulgent, it could potentially go wrong, and as questionable hedonism and personal interest is as motivation, it's not done as a self destructive act or through depression...Whether or not enthusiasm is a good thing I feel depends on how effectively its applied to the bigger picture of drug use, from gaining a layman's grasp of chemistry, knowing that you should never take over 400mg tramadol at a time, micron filter for IV users, discovering a whole new range of music through some connection or other from drugs, etc...
At the end of the day none of us are immune if something terrible happens through drug use...but like it should be something to fear.
I'm really hoping I got the job at the local Pet's Corner the other day, I feel it went well, so I may even be back out in society before September. And fwiw for the foreseeable future I'm housesharing with two female friends both on my course and both very anti drug-based intake, who both know I'm on the 'used drugs' side of the fence and will probably keep me from getting so bored as to end up trying some new RC market arrivals for the thrill of a guaranteed new type of life experience.
Anyway, while the anti PV mood is in on this page, what about the popular phenomenon of the 'MDPV Gauntlet' (don't think it has a name but it's essentially like that), when considerably more than 1g tends to get bought and binged on until everything is gone...Like it's all like diary entries throughout this thread. It's not the fact it happens that's odd, cos even 1g goes a long way, but unlike other drugs that have this capacity for causing intense binges for weeks, causing addiction and deterioration of mental health, it's sort of done in good humour and people want to relay their fucking scary experiences, and it's not so much as met with disgust (Kate

), it's met with support, responding anecdotes, usually with a funny side cos MDPV's psychosis is legendary but not feared. I mean Ektamine made a fucking hilarious rage comic about his adventure with MDPV.
I do appreciate your point, Knockando. Course I'll be a wreck if I keep up the PV use, but cranking up PV use and becoming a wreck is just a fact. I could say the same about you, technically, would still hold true!

I really hate every little thing that my parents have gone through due to my bad decisions, but that era is ending. I'm moving out of home, into my first own home! No more waiting at home to start my life proper...It's going to be a permanent lifestyle change and likely to be a fulfilling era.
Kate, I bet this was even more boring for you

, if you read any, it's boring for me too cos I can't write all that naturally on stims, but I don't agree with you about it suppressing creativity and talent...I spent the week making music, finished a track, involved a lot of fiddling around but it's fiddling with creative intent

Last PV I bought, I made a music video that MM really enjoyed even if its lost to youtube obscurity.
Plus I made this Lego rocket from scrap lego one night on MDPV!
Say what you will, it's an excellent motivator. The enjoyment of creating deliberate meticulous design in particular seems to rock my boat... Truthfully, I have not the desire for it 90% of the time when sober. MDPV has left me with three different completed creative projects that could possibly outlive me (the lego rocket especially

)
JesusGreen & I are just having fun along with the rest of yeh! Druggies judging druggies for taking drugs...Whatever next 8)
