MDPV went from being my new-found passion (mixed with meph & benzos) to being the bane of my life in a very short space of time (less than a year).
Prolonged over-use & several cases of full-on psychosis led me to requiring a psychiatric assessment followed by a short stay in a mental hospital last week.
Further pshychiatric assesement & a possible 1 month in-patient treatment scheme in another psych hospital is now pending.
The symptoms of my MDPV psychosis have lingered on alot longer than expected & any small dabble with the stuff since then have brought back full-on auditory hallucination side-effects. "VOICES" they call them. They criticise you when things get quiet & talk about you in a manner of disgust & dissapointment.
I must always sleep with some background noise on now because complete silence is not an option as the "voices" can be heard with crystal clarity. They made me down a tub on benzos the other nite cos one of them said they were gonna take the tub off me.
17 valium 10mg, 17 bromazepam 6mg & 9 xanax 2mg into the gob in 2 mouthfuls & washed down with some water never caused me an after-thought. Reasoning was that if I hid them, they would be found & I wanted them, so I ate them, all, at once. "There ya go "voice"... You're not gonna be able to take them off me now that they're in my belly! haha, I win!" ahem 8)
Anyway, as much as it sounds like it, I'm not insane. I'm quite enjoying the return of MDMA & the several candyflips I've had recently. Very theraputic & beneficial to the lingering MDPV psychosis symptoms.
Even getting stoned has not acted as a trigger. Smoking some really nice weed or polm has infact got into my oldschool frame of mind. When times we're simple - U want to chill, you smoke dope. U want to trip, you take acid. U want to rave, you take ecstacy. U want to hole, you take ketamine.
No anologue upon anologue of various unresarched pyrovalerones, cathinones & beta-ketones being offered to you at stupidly cheap prices on internet websites.
"Take it back to the start".... buy your drugs on a street corner... "use passion & heart!"
