1g mdpv binge did go very well or I have no crazy insane horror story for you guys this time, its fucked up I did get 3 meals (small tho, was not hungry, but sum "forced" me lol) and I slept two times only a few hours like 2-3 hours pr time and did fall easy asleep those times lol was not my meaning to sleep. I even sad laughed at the shadow people lookin in my windows and knockin on the windows 1 time, while I was sittin chillin sum porn.
All tho was only 1 time, had sum paranoia and anxiety but it was nothing as it use to be but ofc crappy enough.
None delusions and none wild hallucinations, so all in all it did go very well, and im pretty chocked about that since my life is going like fuck and I have been awake most part on different drugs since the 1 in this month and very little food. Guess I just was lucky this time.
Back in the game for real it seems sadly.. Ordered 500mg more mdpv today, don't got so much cash this month so didn't buy more.
Don't feeling like fighting for life so much right now, I really should but man I am really the biggest idiot all the stuff I have done in my life and all the trouble I have in my life right now.
Oh well have mxe back maybe it can give me sum power back, guess like 900mg back? Did not end up doing that much mxe with the mdpv, all tho it did get it nice the few small lines I did.
I'm worried about myself, I really am. If it's not one thing it's another, I'm treading on the border of alcoholism. It runs in my family too so I really need to stop.
I guess it's good that I don't think of PV much anymore. But I can feel alcohol pulling me in. I'm concerned.
I feel you friend, I do the same, if im not doing drugs I drink, and have done for many years, havin no drugs = getting drunk. My dad is an alcoholic and his dad was also.
If you need to talk about it my pm box is always open
Ordered 5 gr mdpv yesterday, to another address, so let's hope it goes OK this time. I would rather vape! I love the taste and effect.
Lets hope it does NOT, you are not in control anymore as you use to be with drugs right Anatrica?
Take care girl
