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My two cents on your case is that I would get prescribed some anti-anxiety medications. I see no real reason not to treat that particular symptom at this point. I am occasionally and I'm only at the 4.5 month marker. Just a thought.

I wish you well in your job endeavors. I was in investment banking before the economy tanked and am currently laid off again, which might be doing me a favor bc I don't know if I could actually work right now anyway. Certainly not to the capacity I did previously.

Interesting in that I was extremely intoxicated the previous night as well. That was the day I got laid off again, and needless to say, I blew off some steam. There might be some correlation to that sort of "alcohol induced dehydration" and taking MDMA. I know you are supposed to stay "hydrated", but the previous days activities I never considered.
 
rphilli72 said:
Hey, what's up? I'm assuming you are wondering what my experience is on benzos in this condition?

Initially (acute phase), I would have been to the ER/psych ward without them. They literally relieved my symptoms like nothing else and allowed me to sleep. I have a prescription for Xanax now and I take some maybe once or twice a week at most. Actually, probably not even that often. I don't get the panic attacks and the free floating anxiety anymore. My symptoms are more fatigue, trouble sleeping, mild dp, and the dreaded head pressure. So, I usually take them to have a real restful sleep when I really need it more than anything. It's also psychologically comforting to know I have them JIC. That's bigger than you may think.

I really don't get the whole anti-prescription drug deal in here. Seems to me, most of us don't mind doing recreational drugs, but prescription drugs are somehow the devil. I don't follow that logic. Anyway, yeah, just be careful. Any drug is potentially dangerous. I've had no rebound effect or any form of dependence develop yet or any adverse reaction, but I take them sparingly.
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Ah okay thanks for your insight. I don't really have panic attacks it's more just worry and intense depression + a fatigued mind that can't think straight. I'm more worried about the sedation since I think it might make my brainfog and depression worse.
 
coderbrah said:
Ah okay thanks for your insight. I don't really have panic attacks it's more just worry and intense depression + a fatigued mind that can't think straight. I'm more worried about the sedation since I think it might make my brainfog and depression worse.
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It also might clear everything up for a while. I agree with rphilli72 here, but be careful.
It's hard to get benzos from docs in my country, but I've gotten a few Zopiclone (Z-drug, sleep med) which I've been taking once a week. Yesterday I got a hold of 7 Xanax. I haven't tried them, but it really does feel good to have them considering I still struggle with insomnia. I am working 100%, and I take the sleep med/benzos before big days at work when I need the rest. If I find that the Xanax works the way I like when taken occasionally, I'll get some Valium too.

I did not take anything for the first 5 months. Right now I think I would have been better off if my doc would have given me some Zopiclone earlier. Zopiclone is comparable to Zolpidem (Ambien) in the US.
 
That's interesting, because in my first few week a friend gave me some of her zopiclone to help me sleep and i found them rubbish, only slept for five hours (as opposed to three or four) and they made me feel really hungover the next day! Luckily my sleep is really improving, and I've also got my hands on some melatonin from America that I'll try tonight, as my boyfriend swears by them (and it's usually only a lot of weed that gets him to sleep)
 
Did anyones symptom worsen with very hot weather? Its about 33celc/92f with the sun out and I feel like I'm losing it.
 
Coderbrah yes, i have really bad fatigue atm and of course the heat is making me even more tired, luckily it's my day off so i can just chill, but yes the head pressure and fatigue are definitely worse in he heat. Make sure you're staying very hydrated, ice water is good, i'd also recommend putting a tiny amount of salt in your water as it helps to replace what you lose in sweat (my friend is a dancer and is often given this during training)
 
Its hot here too and im right back at the start. Im even more panicking than in the first week. To the point where i keep breathing really heavy in the evening and feel like im gonne black out. I have no idea where this is coming from and im all ready three months in.. 30 degrees.
 
I used benzos a bit at first when I was absolutely terrified that I was on the brink of insanity. I realized that they did not do anything for the comedown symptoms
 
coderbrah said:
Ah okay thanks for your insight. I don't really have panic attacks it's more just worry and intense depression + a fatigued mind that can't think straight. I'm more worried about the sedation since I think it might make my brainfog and depression worse.
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Well, from my experience, taking Xanax has made me feel closer to "normal" than anything else. When I said it relieved my symptoms, I am not just talking about the anxiety aspect, but virtually all the symptoms. Plus, say I take one at night and fall asleep, usually the relief lasts far into the next day or maybe even a couple of days. I've had no experience of it making any symptom worse except, perhaps, fatigue, which is not to be unexpected.
 
My observations as far as heat is concerned is that I tire more easily and I require shit tons of water. I just put up a fence in 95f and I was fine for a couple of hours, but when the heat started getting to me it did seem more severe than typical. I caution that heat will get to everybody so I wouldn't look too much into it. That being said, I literally drank 15 glasses of water and felt like I should drink more and I required many breaks. Much more in terms of breaks and water than I would have needed "previously."
 
THeW0rm said:
cope did you have cognitive issues during your comedown?
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.. yes i did - mostly fuzzy vision and sometimes floaters, also my reaction times were slightly slower i.e. playing soccer.

all cleared up with time.


best of luck
 
An update.

Since my symptoms are so severe I have asked for professional help. I have been a total vegetable for almost 4 months now. I have shown some progression and I do have hope for a full recovery but I think it's irresponsible of me to suffer so much while there are plenty of avenues of help to be explored. I am currently seeing a psychiatrist and she wants to treat me and help me pull myself out of this mess.

I have been given some antipsychotics (a low dose, olanzapine 5mg) to help with some of my hyper-alertness, auditory hallucinations/hppd and confusion which I'm going to start tonight. Then at the end of the week I'm going to start a low dose (5mg) of Lexapro.

I'm posting my experienced because others that are reading this thread might be interested in trying this route out.

I have to say I'm scared shitless though lol, but then again- I popped an XTC pill like it was a piece of candy.
 
Anyone hear from me2point0? He still alive after he rolled last saturday?
 
coderbrah said:
An update.

Since my symptoms are so severe I have asked for professional help. I have been a total vegetable for almost 4 months now. I have shown some progression and I do have hope for a full recovery but I think it's irresponsible of me to suffer so much while there are plenty of avenues of help to be explored. I am currently seeing a psychiatrist and she wants to treat me and help me pull myself out of this mess.

I have been given some antipsychotics (a low dose, olanzapine 5mg) to help with some of my hyper-alertness, auditory hallucinations/hppd and confusion which I'm going to start tonight. Then at the end of the week I'm going to start a low dose (5mg) of Lexapro.

I'm posting my experienced because others that are reading this thread might be interested in trying this route out.

I have to say I'm scared shitless though lol, but then again- I popped an XTC pill like it was a piece of candy.
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I tried an antipsychotic once. Risperidone. It made me feel horrible. I stopped taking it have been better after. Have you been meditating my friend? Trust me on this. Er day!
 
coderbrah said:
Then at the end of the week I'm going to start a low dose (5mg) of Lexapro.
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Ok, that will be interesting. Still, I sincerely urge you to reconsider SSRI meds. There are other anti-depressants. Check out Tianeptine. It is something I am considering for myself. It facilitates BDNF release. No tolerance building IIRC, no withdrawal, minimal side-effect profile. Do some research on your own and ask your doc about it.
 
We'll make it through one way or the other. To each his path. SSRI have helped in some cases. Anyway in less than a year we'll all be dancing our ass off again I promise you.
 
Hello BL...I am knew to this sight and in my 3rd week. Initially it was anxiety and panick attacks. Also permanent pressure In my head. And now full blown severe depression that I can't even shake for 5 minutes. I can't eat, sleep, think. Does anyone know if the depression stays consistently? Or will it subside at some point?
 
Mindinfluence said:
Hello BL...I am knew to this sight and in my 3rd week. Initially it was anxiety and panick attacks. Also permanent pressure In my head. And now full blown severe depression that I can't even shake for 5 minutes. I can't eat, sleep, think. Does anyone know if the depression stays consistently? Or will it subside at some point?
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Definitely not. It took me two months for my depression to completely lift. Anxiety still lingers and I'm 3 months in, it's getting better though. Any more information on how you got it?
 
thejibberman said:
Definitely not. It took me two months for my depression to completely lift. Anxiety still lingers and I'm 3 months in, it's getting better though. Any more information on how you got it?
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3 weeks ago I went to movement. I took 2 pills the first night and 4-5 the second. I am told the pills were a .17 Not sure the extent of that. Yes, I am ashamed considering I'm not young anymore. I use to do ext about 10-15 years ago & never experienced any problems. Obviously I did too much thinking I'm still invincible. I do know it was all tested pure but not all were the same pills. My friends all did the same but I am left.....well, you know. I hope I'm using BL correctly. Still getting the hang of it. Also thank you for responding.
 
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