I went to a eye specialist but there said to me: You don't have any vision problem. It's not exactly blurry just looks like that. It's maybe a symptoms of the the DP/DR but I am not sure. This is the most annoying shit I ever had. I experienced a same symptoms from weed but it went away after 3...
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This was my 3 year post. At that point things were still really bad. Years 1-2 I had to move back in with my parent, mostly bedridden from the agitation and "tilt" as I used to describe it, sort of extreme dizziness and involuntary eye movements etc. It was a weird time of hopelessness, lots of entertainment I semi- paid attention to and suicidality. I did try to go for walks or jogging when I could. But I had to go during the night or wear sunglasses and earplugs. Sometimes I was dry heaving from the dizziness.
Year 3 I was miserable but able to do some things, leave the house and such, but it still sucked ass.
Now, honestly reading back that I can see just how far I've come at year 4. It's been pretty much exactly 4 years now, give or take a week or two. I wasn't able to socialize normally because of the severity of my state before. I just stayed at home and got into some online support groups. Nowadays when I'm out people don't usually know anything is wrong unless I tell them. Sometimes my involuntary jerks (neck/left arm/left leg) might show up but other times I can suppress and hide it. I have hope it will go away completely in 2-3 more years. I've been making some plans to move out again soon, start a part time job and then either get back to my engineering studies or more likely after this ordeal I've been thinking of a complete switch into nursing. These kind of life plans seemed so far off I didn't even entertain such thoughts when going to the grocery store was an issue. Things have improved massively. Even from last December I've been feeling better and more stable. I'm still not well, but I can see these things in the horizon. Most days I'm enjoying life. I've met some wonderful new people online and there have been silver linings in this experience.
To the actual symptoms. If you read that last post, the things that were gone then - are still gone now. So I don't have that insane anxiety/agitation any longer for example. From the list of things that have improved, my light sensitivity is much much less. Being at the PC does not bother me any longer. Dizziness is very much improved, it's not really there unless I'm feeling very stressed or haven't slept, am ill or something along those lines. Pressure behind eyes is quite rare likewise, the number I used at 3 years was 50% improved.. I'd say now it's 90%.
Fatigue is soo much less. I don't have the same energy I did before this but I'm active most of the time, unlike before. Again, I can see this clearing up in time. Tinnitus is there, but it's a mild background sound like a white noise. It's another thing that gets worse with pushing myself too much but other than that it's minimal. Not a problem at all.
The buzzing sensation in my spine has dampened down. It's hardly noticeable most days, and this I'm so grateful for. That sensation used to drive me mad, it was like being tasered in the neck every other second.
I still have involuntary eye movements, a mild kind of nystagmus. It's annoying, but not super serious. It doesn't really hinder my functioning at all. Just feels a bit off especially when trying to hold eye contact and such. It has improved from year 3 even. I believe it will also clear up in a few more years.
The one and only symptom that has not improved whatsoever and I think will be my battle scar is HPPD. Now, I want to stress that I don't see it as a problem whatsoever, but I'm mentioning it since you asked. There can be a grieving time for these things but seriously some people deal with much much more serious health issues. This is a minor thing. I don't even think about it except sometimes at night in bed.
My vision in daylight is a bit like this, though perhaps not as bad as in this picture:
https://i.ytimg.com/vi/OpBpSBGJTQ0/hqdefault.jpg - There is a dark sheet over things, it's not that noticeable with both eyes open but if I close one eye it's pretty damn obvious. And there is a subtle grainy texture, like tv static.
In dim light, such as at night in bed things get quite grainy and blurry like in the middle part of this image:
http://neuronresearch.net/vision/pix/snowyvision_composite.gif
Again, not a problem. It doesn't affect my happiness, wellbeing or functionality at all - it's just my reminder of this chapter of my life for the years to come. I wasn't planning on becoming a night time pilot or something.
It still annoys me a bit when people come here with some regime or guru advice, and call LTC a one catch-all condition like it's a some sort of cult (reminds me of the nofappers) , I do believe it comes from a good place mostly. But especially when people are recommending psychotropic medications lightly it comes across as a bit reckless to me. If you believe your symptoms are psychological, that's fine. If not, it doesn't make a whole lot of sense to fix a problem caused by drugs with more drugs. Patience, and a healthy lifestyle. Hopefully you live in a country that will allow that, I know not everyone has the luxury.
For the record, I don't think my problems were caused by MDMA. This would not happen with good a quality tested substance. It's the risk of taking things from strangers at a party, I don't know what mix of rat poison and nuclear waste I ingested but it wasn't pure MDMA.
