Cotcha Yankinov
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HPPD (and tinnitus) can feel life ruining at first, but as time goes by you will learn to live with it, and as more time goes by it will start to decrease in severity. 4 months is really early on.
I really recommend mindfulness to try to keep yourself from focusing on the visuals instead of what you're actually trying to perceive visually, and if you're not trying to actually perceive or do anything (think waiting for a bus or riding the train type situations) try not to think too much - catch yourself when you're ruminating and lost in thought, especially if it's related to this. In that respect staying at home all day can sometimes put you in a waiting for a bus type situation. I personally would try to soldier on at work for a while, while practicing mindfulness in concentrated sessions and practicing applying that mindfulness throughout your day. Maybe have another little while so you can focus on meditation, especially if you're sleep deprived.
Headspace is a great app to learn mindfulness with, and there are guided mindfulness meditations on YouTube as well.
A gem of advice is do whatever you can to get your best nights sleep. This often involves mindfulness, but can be difficult because visuals tend to increase in strength as one starts to fall asleep or is in the dark, so very difficult for people who associate these visuals with negative things, or if it gives them anxiety. But many drug naive people report HPPD-like visuals as they are falling asleep - so try to welcome the visuals. Let them entrain you as you stare into your eyelids and relax your body and attempt to quiet your thoughts, listening to your breathing and counting to 10 over and over again in your head can help as well.
It seems the vast majority of us with HPPD learn to live with it just fine after some time, but others take a step further and have learned to appreciate the beauty of the visuals. I'm sure that's asking a lot right now, and I understand how HPPD can even make it very difficult to read when you have blobs of color floating in front of the text, but you may come around some day, especially as it gets better and better.
How is your sleep?
I really recommend mindfulness to try to keep yourself from focusing on the visuals instead of what you're actually trying to perceive visually, and if you're not trying to actually perceive or do anything (think waiting for a bus or riding the train type situations) try not to think too much - catch yourself when you're ruminating and lost in thought, especially if it's related to this. In that respect staying at home all day can sometimes put you in a waiting for a bus type situation. I personally would try to soldier on at work for a while, while practicing mindfulness in concentrated sessions and practicing applying that mindfulness throughout your day. Maybe have another little while so you can focus on meditation, especially if you're sleep deprived.
Headspace is a great app to learn mindfulness with, and there are guided mindfulness meditations on YouTube as well.
A gem of advice is do whatever you can to get your best nights sleep. This often involves mindfulness, but can be difficult because visuals tend to increase in strength as one starts to fall asleep or is in the dark, so very difficult for people who associate these visuals with negative things, or if it gives them anxiety. But many drug naive people report HPPD-like visuals as they are falling asleep - so try to welcome the visuals. Let them entrain you as you stare into your eyelids and relax your body and attempt to quiet your thoughts, listening to your breathing and counting to 10 over and over again in your head can help as well.
It seems the vast majority of us with HPPD learn to live with it just fine after some time, but others take a step further and have learned to appreciate the beauty of the visuals. I'm sure that's asking a lot right now, and I understand how HPPD can even make it very difficult to read when you have blobs of color floating in front of the text, but you may come around some day, especially as it gets better and better.
How is your sleep?