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I'm also in shit situation can't handlle this..I'm sober for more than 2years,but everyday 24/7 I feel awfull. I have constant feeling of head pressure,dizzy unbalanced feelings like I'm swaying,rocking,walking on a matress or a boat...almost all the time I spend in bed because I hate walking when I feel ungrounded..also lack of energy every morning exhausted tired eyes,penis pain,bones pain,vision shimmering,blinking,litlle visual snow for 2years..no motivation,depreSsion and everything start after only a few months of MDMA and Amphetamine use,and overdose..why I'm so unlucky..I loosing hope after 2years that I will got better,been to 7different neurologist no one of them don't know whats wrong with me,my health tests all came back normal. I just don't know guys what to do...is that a life?? Sorry for my grammar.
 
Hi ryan I tried citalopram which is the same like prozac. I stoped it before 5days because it makes my symptoms worse. But it helped for my mood a litlle bit. I was on them for 7weeks. But now I have whitdrawall effects.. I was shaking and more dizzy when I stop them. But if you are depressed try them it should help A litlle.
 
hardlife123 said:
I'm also in shit situation can't handlle this..I'm sober for more than 2years,but everyday 24/7 I feel awfull. I have constant feeling of head pressure,dizzy unbalanced feelings like I'm swaying,rocking,walking on a matress or a boat...almost all the time I spend in bed because I hate walking when I feel ungrounded..also lack of energy every morning exhausted tired eyes,penis pain,bones pain,vision shimmering,blinking,litlle visual snow for 2years..no motivation,depreSsion and everything start after only a few months of MDMA and Amphetamine use,and overdose..why I'm so unlucky..I loosing hope after 2years that I will got better,been to 7different neurologist no one of them don't know whats wrong with me,my health tests all came back normal. I just don't know guys what to do...is that a life?? Sorry for my grammar.
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I don't know man think this is forever :( how often did you take it ?
 
I dont know if having no physical symptoms means I'm more likely to recover. Does it? It seems like im the only person on the thread with no physical symptoms
 
Colin bro you are going to fully recover just don't fuck around with shit again . no offence my opinion is once you do don't smoke weed . It is not as benign as you think . I was lucky enough to find some forums from medhelp about this type of occurrence and it wasn't only MDMA causing these ltcs. People were having ltcs from other shit even weed . Get a new lease on life man don't fuck yourself up . You have a chance to do what you want and have a full life ahead of you. All that happened to you was a slight deregulation of serotonin receptors but not an injury . injury to it is much more severe.
 
I appreciate your reply man. Dont worry I aint touching that shit again. Maybe staying away from weed for good is a very good idea aswell. I just hope this recovery is sooner rather than later
 
ryan23 said:
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What tests did you have also if you don't mind me asking
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Hi Ryan. It was all blood tests,livers,kidneys,celiac disease,vitamins... MRI,CT scans, blood vessels test,endoscopy,colonoscopy. And all was normal. They said I'm fine,but I'm not...I don't know which tests I need more to do...?
 
colin681996 said:
What do you mean by ''only after a few months'' How often did you use it during those few months
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Oh man I was binged hard in these few months. I was taking at least 3mdma pills at night my record was7 or 8pills in a night. I also overdosed amphetamine,I taken half gram in a night every each week. And then I stop it..I get so fucking strong electroshock in my brain it was the strongest head pain in my life with some blue light I almost didn't pass out I don't if it was brain zaps or something serious,but after that time my vision and my health changed permamently I guess...
 
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Was this everynight ? Jesus lord that's a lot .. Hope everybody gets there eventually man I really do.
There's actual junkies out there taking drugs every night not giving a fuck then there's people that have a blow out in a one off weekend and are in some state it's not fair atall man
 
ryan23 said:
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Was this everynight ? Jesus lord that's a lot .. Hope everybody gets there eventually man I really do.
There's actual junkies out there taking drugs every night not giving a fuck then there's people that have a blow out in a one off weekend and are in some state it's not fair atall man
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Ye it really isn't
 
Why the fuck did pop the pill and a half that night? AAARGGHH!!! FUCK!!!! If I hadn't I'd be my fucking normal self. I know I sound like a broken record but waking up to this shit everyday is getting fucking horrible. Can't believe I'm living in this fucking nightmare :(. It's just not fair. I should be working towards shit that I was before all this shit started happening. My interests, sex drive, emotions have all gone to fucking shit. Why did this have to happen to me? :(
 
Ok I got a question.. most people seem to say that this anxiety is all in your head and that makes everything worse, etc... But why has this anxiety been brought upon them in the first place? What caused them to feel this way that led them down a long and dark comedown? Where did that initial anxiety come from?
 
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Ok I got a question.. most people seem to say that this anxiety is all in your head and that makes everything worse, etc... But why has this anxiety been brought upon them in the first place? What caused them to feel this way that led them down a long and dark comedown? Where did that initial anxiety come from?
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Anxiety is a lot of shit wish people would stop puting everything down to that. The only 'anxiety' I have is because i don't know what the fucks Goin one.
Don't know what got into me when I kept redosing on stuff I didn't even know from having everything to nothing.
I just want to be normal for my son and girlfriend
 
I just wanted to post about my MDMA story two years ago, where I ended up coming to this site looking for support. I had redosed for around an entire week and took around 1000MG of MDMA (very high quality). I was stupid, isolated from everything because of previous problems in my life, and had no idea what the hell I was doing. The mistake I made was google searching tips on rolling before I started to roll and did not search thoroughly enough. I am 100% recovered and feeling normal again. Everything goes away with time, you will look back on the situation in the future and be like "Damn, that sucked." Over time you will forget about how bad you felt when you took it and may be tempted to take it again, but trust me, don't do it. When I said I was feeling different and not like myself I was so caught up in what I thought the MDMA might have changed in me that I never really stopped to think that I had been living with myself for the past 17 years. I knew myself better than anybody and instead of just chilling out and moving on with my life and realizing the person I was, I kept freaking out about it. The best advice I can give you is to just chill out and go with it, listen to some music and chill and play video games or whatever you do for fun because you are still the same as before you took the MDMA. You have a couple choices. You can sit around like an idiot like I did and worry about all the shit that changed after you took to much MDMA, which probably made my symptoms last for a lot longer. Or you can come back to reality and realize that you are the same person as you were before you took it and that you are going to move on from this shitty situation and forget about it. Just take a moment and decide what you want to do. Everything is 100% back to normal for me. The ringing in my ears is gone, the insomnia has gone away, the increased anxiety and depression is gone, and everything else that I felt during that time. Just chill out and continue to live your life. Good luck, and I guarantee you will look back on this in the future and think that it wasn't really a big deal at all. It's been a couple years now and it isn't something I think about anymore. Kind of like one of those times you just get to drunk and you feel like shit afterwards, then you look back on it later and don't really think much of it.
 
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