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hardlife123 said:
Hi guys. Is anybody experience Constant shimmering blinking snow vision? And floating feeling like ground is soft all the time or the elevator sensation? After I stop MDMA before 2years I started suffering from this condition everyday for 2 years..I just don't know what to do else..I can't accept live with this for the rest of my life
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My sister who experiences "snowy vision" due to her sometimes severe case of Migraines takes a prescription medication known as Sumatriptan (Imitrex) in order to help her manage. Perhaps that's worth looking into.

Anticonvulsants suchas Topiramate (Topamax) as well as the Benzodiazepine Clonazepam (Klonopin) may also offer you relief of your symptoms.

Also, I just found out about the following information before replying to your post. It might help you to know about it, or it may not, but it's worth noting nonetheless:

Newly published research (http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/head.12378/full) has confirmed a “brain dysfunction in patients with visual snow”, located principally in the right lingual gyrus. Before this, no other etiology for visual snow had been identified. Insofar as sufferers of visual snow had undergone ophthalmic, neurological and psychiatric examinations, no systematic problems besides the visual snow were found. The recent research that indicates this disorder occurs in the brain has important ramifications for the possibility of potential treatment. However, standard treatment protocols have yet to be established.
 
justme6263 said:
I'm on it to try to control facial tics, only just been put on them. I will stay away from MD for a bit then.
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Well it depends on the kind of anti-depressant, not all are dangerous to combine. But probably at the very least your roll will be seriously/completely muted and worst case it might be very dangerous yeah, depending on the AD. SSRI's/SNRI's mute a roll, MAOI's can kill you if combined with MDMA. There are other classes that also interact with MDMA, but those two are the ones that are prescribed the most
 
Advice needed - Comedown

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I've been Ibiza for three nights from the 4th to 7th July. I did 1 and half pills to two pills every night. Previous to this I've only ever done pills on two occasions. Since coming back I've had a really bad comedown..feeling dizzy, anxious, spacey and emotional. Today (5 days later) I feel a lot better than I did but I still feel a bit weird, like I can't explain it. It's like my house doesn't feel the same as it did before I went ibiza, my surroundings feel strange. I keep dwelling on it and I keep freaking myself out over it. Surely I shouldn't feel this way 5 days on? I just can't wait to feel normal again. I don't uusually do drugs and feel stupid for even doing it and I have no intention of doing it again. I keep reading how people have felt weird for months after. Is this normal?
Any advice much appreciated, thanks
 
ub3r123 said:
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I've been Ibiza for three nights from the 4th to 7th July. I did 1 and half pills to two pills every night. Previous to this I've only ever done pills on two occasions. Since coming back I've had a really bad comedown..feeling dizzy, anxious, spacey and emotional. Today (5 days later) I feel a lot better than I did but I still feel a bit weird, like I can't explain it. It's like my house doesn't feel the same as it did before I went ibiza, my surroundings feel strange. I keep dwelling on it and I keep freaking myself out over it. Surely I shouldn't feel this way 5 days on? I just can't wait to feel normal again. I don't uusually do drugs and feel stupid for even doing it and I have no intention of doing it again. I keep reading how people have felt weird for months after. Is this normal?
Any advice much appreciated, thanks
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Moving this into the recovery thread. Have a read, you will find lots of useful information in there and also people that have experienced this before. In any case don't worry, it's temporary, and people that seem to have after-effects that linger for a long time are only a small minority and usually these stories have one thing in common: MDMA abuse, not MDMA use. This is not always the case of course, we've seen exceptions here, but generally it. is You will notice you're slowly starting to get back to normal soon, after-effects are sometimes to be expected and usually a sign you overdid it. Rolling multiple days in a row is a surefire way to run into trouble, like you are experiencing now, this time it's only some mild after-effects, but listen to your body, it is trying to warn you that you are pushing your limits
 
I actually have 95% of the symptoms in the article about low cortisol. holy shit. is this it lol?
 
BlueBull said:
Moving this into the recovery thread. Have a read, you will find lots of useful information in there and also people that have experienced this before. In any case don't worry, it's temporary, and people that seem to have after-effects that linger for a long time are only a small minority and usually these stories have one thing in common: MDMA abuse, not MDMA use. This is not always the case of course, we've seen exceptions here, but generally it. is You will notice you're slowly starting to get back to normal soon, after-effects are sometimes to be expected and usually a sign you overdid it. Rolling multiple days in a row is a surefire way to run into trouble, like you are experiencing now, this time it's only some mild after-effects, but listen to your body, it is trying to warn you that you are pushing your limits
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So is this normal to still be feeling this? I'm literally on the verge of a breakdown today cus I just can't ever see if going away. Is there anything I can do or take what will help this?
 
mdma . first ever post. im just worried and need help and advice. please anyone

i have been off of mdma for 3 months now . but before that . i was doing it real hard for a period of 18 months. to be exact october 2013 to april 2015
the first 3 to 4 months it was like every other weekend lets say 2 little tab pills of em or 1 or 3 every . after the 4th month . it started getting more heavy i started popping every 2 to 3 days of the week . but the dosage was like for me a g or 2 or sometimes 3 a day . it was new for me so i was getting heavy on it . after does 2 months i had a family member pass away vey close to me my GPA he was my dad and mom cause i have none. i started popping oxycodine like 6 7 pills a day if not 3 or 4 for a total of 2 weeks on top of that pop mdma but first i pop mdma then oxy for the depression which helped.. after i was done with the oxy i stil took mdma.. and for the does 3 to 4 months i was going so heavy that if i think about it i start crying for being so careless and stupid . i was doing 2 to 3 gs 3 to 4 days of the week my most was 4 and i had a bad trip . but i couldnt stop taking it . the last 6 months before hitting heavy dosage i turned it down to poping only twice a month which was 2 gs does both days please dont judge or say im stupid. i just want advice how i can help my my self like what to take as in vitamins or pills to better myself or what to do . i know i fucked up on those 18 months. but after finding out for first time ever BLUELIGHT.ORG i read so many info and it made me stop.. just want some experts. and where to start helping my mind . is their light for me . or have i regretted my live completly . P.S. i know most things arent written correctly. i am just really impatient on wanting answers. thank you for reading and i hope their is some hope . i dont have no anxiety i dont feel depressed . i dont get zaps or anything weird. i do regret things and stuff that i have done while on it thats for sure.. i do tend to forget things but it isnt real bad. it takes more time for me to think about a question things like that. i feel like mdma has fucked up my emotion as in . i dont tend to care, i feel like i cant love again or care for someone .. one thing for sure that i am happy about. is when i found out about bluelight and the destruction of mdma . that completly change my mind on stopping the drug and i have and i dont think about it at all.. now i just want to get back on track and change things for best and start feeling.

i would love so much if someone gives me a step of things to better myself. and also links to where to buy specific products . and things i should start doing im 25 yrs old . and im trying step by step . im back in the tech business i have a girl now i have my own apt now.. and i just dont wanna be fucked .
 
me2point0 said:
I actually have 95% of the symptoms in the article about low cortisol. holy shit. is this it lol?
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Low cortisol is literally the medical translation for being too stressed. I have a couple of those on that list when I'm feeling edgy. If you chill out over a long enough time, the cortisol regulates back to homeostasis.
 
thejibberman said:
Low cortisol is literally the medical translation for being too stressed. I have a couple of those on that list when I'm feeling edgy. If you chill out over a long enough time, the cortisol regulates back to homeostasis.
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Yep but that doesn't mean thats the only option. There are people on here looking for a reason why they have these symptoms and low cortisol is a big cause. Cortisol is literally the mind-body connection in action. The thing with this stuff is that low cortisol itself causes anxiety which then feeds back into the cycle and prevents cortisol from achieving homeostasis. Either way, you can help your body achieve this homeostasis with a lot of physical interventions (SSRIs/psych meds are only 1 of them. SERMs if you have low T are another). Its a vicious cycle.

There are lots of physical things like pregnenolone that can help. As well as getting vitamin D, zinc, magnesium, copper, ferritin, B12 to the proper levels. Lots of people experience low cortisol that is completely unrelated to drugs. One example is overtraining syndrome.

What happened is that MDMA threw the cortisol system out of whack in varying degrees so this is why people have varying symptoms. I know some people also complain about HPPD which is not as easily explainable by low cortisol (unless people are misinterpreting blurred vision as HPPD).
 
Hello guys, I'm back again. Not that long time a go I wrote a post in this forum (which you can find here) about my LTC. This was written the 28/5-2015 after 6 months of misery and for me it was I had reached a dead end. Surely, my symptoms had improved clearly but it was going very slow so I decided to make a plan which you can see.


So I tried the amino tabs and I didn't feel an improvement. Even though during this month when I tried them I felt better, I had difficulties believing it was because of them. If there had been progress, I wouldn't be doubtful about it and also that shouldn't have made me feel worse after having a phase of stress.


The acupuncture didn't work either. I got treatment for 5 consecutive days resulting in a bit calmer mood but still as sensitive to stress and anxiety.


After realising this option had failed on me, I was left to my last option - SSRI. I got the prescription and waited until a week ago to start. I wanted to have them ready so I could prepare myself with facts about the side effects and risks in order to just get them if I decided to go for it. Which I did.


As I said that was one week ago. Today I feel a lot better. Despite the fact that I have almost lost half of my savings on the stock market and my girlfriend (best support ever) left the country for a very long time. I can't imagine how fucked I would be in my head if it weren't for these meds. Today was also the day for me to increase the dosage to the double and last level. So far my side effects haven't been noticeable. I have difficulties sleeping. My sexdrive is a bit lower. But that's about it. And I'm not even sure if that's because of the meds. As I said I have been very stressed the past week.


So now I'm thinking of accepting my loss on the stock market and just focus on getting better. Because it has been fucking 8 months now, I'm tired of this and I need to start respecting my brain again so I can become healthy again and get those money back without feeling bad.
 
mojodolo said:
i just want advice how i can help my my self like what to take as in vitamins or pills to better myself or what to do
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Wow, that was very hard to read. Next time, please, try to write better, using enters and correct punctuation.

You want to stop taking the drug, and feel like yourself again? Well, there you have your answer :) Stop consuming MDMA like candies, eat healthy, get plenty of sleep and sun light. You will need at least 6 months - 1 year to clean yourself. You've abused the substance, and you need to give your head a break, and give it time to heal. The brain recovery is counted in months and not days/weeks. It's good that you don't have anxiety, depression or zaps. Consider yourself very lucky :)

Just relax and live a healthy life, you had your fun with the drug, and now you have to pay the consequences. Nothing is free in this world.
 
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mojodolo said:
i have been off of mdma for 3 months now . but before that . i was doing it real hard for a period of 18 months. to be exact october 2013 to april 2015
the first 3 to 4 months it was like every other weekend lets say 2 little tab pills of em or 1 or 3 every . after the 4th month . it started getting more heavy i started popping every 2 to 3 days of the week . but the dosage was like for me a g or 2 or sometimes 3 a day . it was new for me so i was getting heavy on it . after does 2 months i had a family member pass away vey close to me my GPA he was my dad and mom cause i have none. i started popping oxycodine like 6 7 pills a day if not 3 or 4 for a total of 2 weeks on top of that pop mdma but first i pop mdma then oxy for the depression which helped.. after i was done with the oxy i stil took mdma.. and for the does 3 to 4 months i was going so heavy that if i think about it i start crying for being so careless and stupid . i was doing 2 to 3 gs 3 to 4 days of the week my most was 4 and i had a bad trip . but i couldnt stop taking it . the last 6 months before hitting heavy dosage i turned it down to poping only twice a month which was 2 gs does both days please dont judge or say im stupid. i just want advice how i can help my my self like what to take as in vitamins or pills to better myself or what to do . i know i fucked up on those 18 months. but after finding out for first time ever BLUELIGHT.ORG i read so many info and it made me stop.. just want some experts. and where to start helping my mind . is their light for me . or have i regretted my live completly . P.S. i know most things arent written correctly. i am just really impatient on wanting answers. thank you for reading and i hope their is some hope . i dont have no anxiety i dont feel depressed . i dont get zaps or anything weird. i do regret things and stuff that i have done while on it thats for sure.. i do tend to forget things but it isnt real bad. it takes more time for me to think about a question things like that. i feel like mdma has fucked up my emotion as in . i dont tend to care, i feel like i cant love again or care for someone .. one thing for sure that i am happy about. is when i found out about bluelight and the destruction of mdma . that completly change my mind on stopping the drug and i have and i dont think about it at all.. now i just want to get back on track and change things for best and start feeling.

i would love so much if someone gives me a step of things to better myself. and also links to where to buy specific products . and things i should start doing im 25 yrs old . and im trying step by step . im back in the tech business i have a girl now i have my own apt now.. and i just dont wanna be fucked .
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Moving this into the recovery thread. Also editing nightElf's reply a bit to preserve continuity (simply adding OP's name to the quote)

mojodolo, have a read of this thread, you will find people here that have experience with this. In any case this is not permanent, you just abused the shit out of a powerful drug. If you got drunk every day for months on end, would you be surprised if you had some after-effects that linger for a while? Any drug that has powerful effects, hell even drugs that don't, have the potential to cause you harm when misused. Chalk this up to experience and move on. You'll get better faster if you just try to pick up your life as best you can. Also listen to what nightElf says, he talks sense, you need to give your body time to recover and the best way of doing this is to provide it with everything it needs and to take away everything it doesn't, including drugs. And while asking for relevant feedback is good, don't get lost in trying to diagnose yourself, this will work counter-productive, the worrying this will cause will feed the anxiety that was caused by MDMA abuse, which will in turn make it worse. Get the information you need from here and stop researching after that, move on, that's I think the most important advice I can give you

Welcome to bluelight :D I wish you all the best
 
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@nightelf. Yea i been living life.. With no stressing.. Doing what i have to do not thinking about it.. But i feel like most times i wanna be alone and i get mood swings.. I hate that so much i wanna be able to be around people all time.... Also is it ok is i take 5 htp or any vitamin that i can regain my abilities.. Recover better. Please help.. And thank you for your respond. Made my day.
 
Hope everyone is doing better!!! Just wanted to check in and give some new people some reassurance that things will get back to normal with time. I suffered for many many months and as of right now I'm as happy as could be. Yes the LTC changed my life, but not for the worse or the better, more-less the experience. I just bought a motorcycle this weekend and the last thing on my mind is a panic attack. Keep at it guys :)
 
ub3r123 said:
So is this normal to still be feeling this? I'm literally on the verge of a breakdown today cus I just can't ever see if going away. Is there anything I can do or take what will help this?
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Intense exercise works wonders for this. Yeah it is normal, you misused/abused a very powerful drug and these are the consequences. If you seriously binge on alcohol or other powerful drugs, you will also feel that for a while after. But again, it's only temporary. Everything you describe sounds very very familiar and is to be expected after rolling 3 days in a row. It's never permanent though. Be careful next time, since in my experience once you start to get these nasty hangovers, they will get worse each time you abuse MDMA again. However once you bring your usage down to sensible levels, you shouldn't get hangovers anymore but instead you'll start to feel that afterglow you used to get again
 
Blue bull what vitamin pills should i take like 5htp or anything else ... Or can you send me a link in a thread of a list here in bluelight
 
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