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tann2015 said:
I am a 25 yr male - On 18th July night in Ibiza, I consumed untested mdma (250-350mg – orally mixed in water) in Ibiza with 3 other friends with a lot of alcohol.
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I'm sorry to be "that person", but I have to ask. Did you test the powder that you consumed? It could have been MDMA or it could have been something else.

Now, let's assume that it was indeed MDMA. Your body got into a shock, probably because of what you took (if you are not used to), but that is not a HUGE dose either (I know people that consume that amount every month, in a single night). Each body and mind are TOTALLY different, and you can't compare to other person. I've been on a Long Term Comedown (those are the name for the LTC) that you'll read around here, for about a year. I've had trouble sleeping, anxiety, depression, low libido, temblors, brain zaps, you name it, I had it. However, you know when I started to get better? Once I accepted what I did, and changed my mentality: IT WILL GO AWAY.

You have to keep your mind occupied. If you think about this all the time, you are making it worse. Try to do exercise, that helped me a lot! Swimming, running, walking. Also, spend some time in the sun! Eat healthy, stay out of alcohol and other drugs for at least 3 to 6 months, and you'll see how you start to feel better :)
 
Thanks for the reply nightelf.
No I did not tested the powder, so I dont know what I may have consumed.
I have considerably improved my condition these past few weeks. I dont really have trouble sleeping, just the first few minutes i feel vertigos when going to fall asleep, libido's all good, just some anxiety and trouble concentrating (a lot). I will certainly be starting to exercise regulary and im following a good diet. No alcohol for a few months- agreed. Its just that I want to feel normal again, just dont know if i ever will. And i hope i dont read about LTCs for a YEAR. I cant imagine some1 can fuck his life up by a single dose of drug, forever.
 
It's been a long time since I've been on the forum. It really is true -- once you're better, you're not spending time on bluelight and hence so much of the content of this site can become so discouraging.

I wanted to stop by and say hello and let everyone know that I'm 100% better from what was a horrific time in my life. I never did post very frequently, so my post history won't enlighten much unfortunately. That said, I was in a dark, dark place for a considerable period of time, thought about ending my life, and feel so blessed today.

I won't be coming back much, but if you PM me, I get email notifications so feel free to reach out to me to those who are suffering. I really don't have anything hugely illuminating to offer to those who are still suffering, but I always said to myself that if I ever got better, I wanted to be there for others who were suffering to let them know they will get better too. So here I am.

I just waited it out. It took a long ass time -- around 2 years! -- but I'm proof that it's not forever. Much love ! <3
 
I'm totally fucked man. I've got constant ringing in my ears vision messed up muscle weakness impotence my life's over cause of a careless weekend don't believe this is happening to me
 
ryan23 said:
I'm totally fucked man. I've got constant ringing in my ears vision messed up muscle weakness impotence my life's over cause of a careless weekend don't believe this is happening to me
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Jesus your having serious symptoms man, hope they clear up sooner rather than later. My symptoms still remain as emotional numbness, lack of sex drive, lack of pleasure from orgasm. I'm at the 3.5 month mark almost....
 
colin681996 said:
Jesus your having serious symptoms man, hope they clear up sooner rather than later. My symptoms still remain as emotional numbness, lack of sex drive, lack of pleasure from orgasm. I'm at the 3.5 month mark almost....
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A can't take it anymore man
 
ryan23 said:
A can't take it anymore man
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Could only imagine how you feel man. Must suck... Makes me greatful I ain't suffering any of those symptoms. You know I'm only a message away for suppourt. Don't worry man, one day we will wake up an all of this will just be a distant memory
 
Dude, i have the exact same shit ryan23 minus the muscle weakness, im at 9 months with drastic improvements in the first month then null for the rest.

What persists for me is the floaters, light sensitivity and pains all around my torso region

Ive learned to control the awareness of heartbeat.

You need to accept whats happening and keep going.

I still drink and smoke (cigarettes) every weekend, if i was going to recover i would have already, so why let it fuck my life up more.

Just keep going bro.

Try enjoy somethings that put a smile on your face, I work 2 days a week 20 hours a long with full time study.

Not letting this fuck my life up, its just another hurdle that life throws at you.


Good luck and stay in the fight.
 
nnzo said:
Dude, i have the exact same shit ryan23 minus the muscle weakness, im at 9 months with drastic improvements in the first month then null for the rest.

What persists for me is the floaters, light sensitivity and pains all around my torso region

Ive learned to control the awareness of heartbeat.

You need to accept whats happening and keep going.

I still drink and smoke (cigarettes) every weekend, if i was going to recover i would have already, so why let it fuck my life up more.

Just keep going bro.

Try enjoy somethings that put a smile on your face, I work 2 days a week 20 hours a long with full time study.

Not letting this fuck my life up, its just another hurdle that life throws at you.


Good luck and stay in the fight.
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Well if you're drinknig every weekend your not giving yourself much chance of a full recovery are you?
 
nnzo said:
Dude, i have the exact same shit ryan23 minus the muscle weakness, im at 9 months with drastic improvements in the first month then null for the rest.

What persists for me is the floaters, light sensitivity and pains all around my torso region

Ive learned to control the awareness of heartbeat.

You need to accept whats happening and keep going.

I still drink and smoke (cigarettes) every weekend, if i was going to recover i would have already, so why let it fuck my life up more.

Just keep going bro.

Try enjoy somethings that put a smile on your face, I work 2 days a week 20 hours a long with full time study.

Not letting this fuck my life up, its just another hurdle that life throws at you.


Good luck and stay in the fight.
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But you do make a good point, in that you should just try live your life the way you normally would even if you weren't going through this. It seems that you can do that and good for you. I for one can't as my emotions have been off for a while now, so has my sex drive
 
Colin it didnt make a slight difference for 5 months, i might as well live my life and keep sane by having a good time am i right?


Im preparing for this never to leave me, ive done this my whole life and it works well, setting low standards so im not disappointed at the realistic result (everyones case is different), i am extremely pessimistic but it has worked well for me so far and i have been quite successful in aspects of schooling and money making (only 20)
 
nnzo said:
Colin it didnt make a slight difference for 5 months, i might as well live my life and keep sane by having a good time am i right?


Im preparing for this never to leave me, ive done this my whole life and it works well, setting low standards so im not disappointed at the realistic result (everyones case is different), i am extremely pessimistic but it has worked well for me so far and i have been quite successful in aspects of schooling and money making (only 20)
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I'm not knocking your attitude I'm just saying that drink could be hindering your recovery, that's all
 
nnzo said:
Colin it didnt make a slight difference for 5 months, i might as well live my life and keep sane by having a good time am i right?


Im preparing for this never to leave me, ive done this my whole life and it works well, setting low standards so im not disappointed at the realistic result (everyones case is different), i am extremely pessimistic but it has worked well for me so far and i have been quite successful in aspects of schooling and money making (only 20)
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To be honest, if this lasts too long, I would highly consider just pulling a plug on my life.
 
Colin the sad fact with mine is I know what's happened, Google "weed with MDMA chest pains", exact same as first bad comedown, mines not going to fix, I have to adapt. Simple. Life gets hard but I'm sure your going to rough it out, I'm at 9 months with stagnant results, your at 3.5.... Keep pushing bro come on
 
nnzo said:
Colin the sad fact with mine is I know what's happened, Google "weed with MDMA chest pains", exact same as first bad comedown, mines not going to fix, I have to adapt. Simple. Life gets hard but I'm sure your going to rough it out, I'm at 9 months with stagnant results, your at 3.5.... Keep pushing bro come on
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I'm just saying....... If life is going to be this shit for good there is no point. Seriously, if this is permanent I'll never have happiness in my life.
 
I have ruined it with alcohol too. In 2012 dropped 200 mg, after night drinking(friend could't sleep so sounded like a good idea for him...) In total used 380 mg that night/morning and it was my fifth time. Ive never felt the mdma high/euphoria again after this stupid mistake. Tried it 10 more times, even with one year gap. In sober life I think it affected my emotions, but i dont know to what degree. Feeling less happiness. More people here with the same experience like colin, nambo and me? and with recovery??
 
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