Hi guys, it's me again
Currently I am experiencing some kind of setback. For the past few days (7-9) I have been feeling that my LTC condition is getting worse day after day and that I am going backwards. I have had greater difficulties concentrating, speaking to people and just feeling sick. It was only a few days ago I passed the 3 month mark.
Is it normal to get a setback like this? Have you experienced one? I haven't done anything unordinary except a beer I drank a week ago but I can't possibly imagine it being the reason of this.
I want to think that the LTC is like an inclining sinus curve. On the long term, you will feel better but on the path towards becoming free you will experience bad periods and good periods, but this is the first time I am having a bad period...
Sinus curve below for you that doesn't get it.
During my ~19 months on the mend, I experienced dozens of 'bumps in the road' which lasted as little as a day, and as long as 2 weeks according to a journal I kept, and which I recently decided to read through again after opening it for the first time in at least 5+ years.
They were very difficult to deal with and at the same time maintain a positive or optimistic outlook because it felt as if I was slipping backwards into my original full blown / full flare up state of symptoms with respect to their intensity / severity.
During one of these episodes, I was extremely upset and frustrated, and decided to try and numb myself with alcohol, but the hangover lasted much longer than any relief from my symptoms.
I didn't really do anything noteworthy to get past these 'bumps...' other than eating a healthy diet, being physically active daily, getting plenty of rest, avoiding stressful situations as much as possible, avoiding the use of any drugs other than the two that I was prescribed by my psychiatrist, and trying to keep my mind stimulated by way of a hobby in order to try and avoid constantly worrying that I'd never feel 'normal' again.
Not that I'm proud of it, but before finally getting sick with this so called 'LTC,' I ate well over 1,000 untested ecstasy pills (and molly capsules), and I did not do myself any favors since I didn't bother waiting for my serotonin to recover or regenerate. And many times I would mix it up with booze, weed, and other drugs - particularly cigarettes because they felt so good when rolling. So yeah, I probably fried a lot of brain cells, but my point in telling you all this is that if I was able to bounce back (with a lot of help from others), then I'm optimistic that others can too, including yourself if done properly. And I know that's vague of me to say, but I'm not sure if you will need to resort to the use of meds or not as an example.
I wish you all the best with completely overcoming this extremely difficult time in your life, and believe me when I say that it's not impossible, but it will take time and effort on your part, and unfortunately you may need to let go of certain things if you wish to truly mend yourself such as certain friends who may be bad influences, and recreational drugs as well (including alcohol, which is neurotoxic and carcinogenic), take care.
I found my self some good ways out of this.(Like sports, new hobbys, working etc.)
