Jaisif
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Im hoping this is in the correct forum if its not just lemme know :D
Okkk, This is going too be on of many posts about feeling 'Weird' And 'messed up' after abusing Mdma, but i just want abit of help on what i should do and wether my symptoms are normal..
I done Mdma 5 1/2 weeks back, i have done it 7 times in total over the duration of about 2-3 months,(All of the mdma was what i believe too be good) the last week however doing it 5 of the 7 times, Usually doing aproximatly 0.2 0.3g's a day (Owchies!!).
It started off basicly str8 after coming off of it but didnt realy kick in untill the 2nd week after were i started getting real scared about it & honestly felt asif i was losing the plot!, You name it, i though i had (went from thinking i had sterotyn syndrome too thinking i had Schitzaprenia & all sorts!) :0. Looking back i believe i was having withdrawal smymptoms because i couldent sleep at all and if i did it would be like 4-5 houres worth & just put me in a even worst state, was also suffering from not being able too eat properly.
I am seeing improvements however, my sleeping and eating have come back too me (even though i have trouble getting a full nights sleep, usually only sleeping a maximum of 7-8 houres compared too 10 before hand, yes i WAS a lazy basterd) im able too think abit more straight and my memorys beginning too come back to me, still have a long while to go though im sure of it! i find that when i think about my symptoms too much, i get quite worked up over it, & realise that it is just over thinking about it, & when i forget about them, i feel asif im completly back too normal! im Comparing my symptoms and pattern of thinking back too when they were at there worst & theres deffinite recovery :D
Now that i can think more straight i am trying too work out what my primary symptoms are and the ones that im still suffering from (5 1/2 weeks on) are:
#Feel unmotivated/depressed/tired, Mostly in the afternoons?.
#deffinite symtoms of de-realizeation or 'Feeling asif im on a different universe'.
#still forgetfull, trouble remembering things.
#paranioa, getting worked up over small things, mainlyto do with my symptoms & 'will i ever feel normal again' (has improved alot though) either that of i have learned too controll these paranoid thoughts).
#this weird zapping like sound i keep hearing, almost like a brain zap? but its asif i can hear it?
#have been having deep dreams since the Abuse and i seem too remember atleast 1 of the dreams i had the night before, basicly every day. (not complaining though To be honest, Havent had any nightmares hahah!).
#still not being able too get a full nights sleep, witch is why im feeling tired and drained in the afternoons, But atleast i can get sleep, compared too some of the nights when i believe i was having withdrawal were i actually couldent sleep all night! (this happened about 3 times), but havent had any sleepless nights since :D.
Anywayzzzzzz, during the worst of my hangover i phoned the nhs and told them my symptoms and they said too consult your gp, i told my mother (who was at one point an X head in her teenage days) & she said not too worry about it and that your stressing/thinking about it too much and its true on what she said, but i still feel asif i should visit my Dp? even though my main symptoms have basicly resolved, im still suffering with what i believe too be de-Realization, but at the same time i think that going too a gp could make it worst? as i hear they give out things such as Ssri's and anti depressants, Also the way i think of it is that, the worst is over & going too a Gp and being subscribed with Ssri's or whatever could just stress me out even more?
I have deffinitly learned my lesson and will be doing what most people say too do - Reframe from Drug's, & eat healthy, get good sleep, Exercise ectt & this is exactly what i have been doing and i spose you could say its helped alot. & too be honest, even though iv had these negative affects, it was actually changed me as a person alot, im alot more outgoing, have started Pumping some serious iron!, & have reframed from gaming almost 100% witch has made me as a person alot more mentally & physically healthy :D.
Soo, do you think i should still go & visit a Gp like the nhs advised? I hear the best treatment too E/Drug abuse is Time so too be honest, i think thats what im going too do, i am i believe a very mentally strong person, but some of what i have been through during the worst of my hangover/withdrawal Smashed me too pieces and i will never want too experiance those things again & i advise too any people scrolling through this who havent yet abused mdma- DONT DO IT! @L@- Crazy face.
Thanks for reading this post & i will happly answer any questions too people who are also going through these hard times.
For those who are going too say things like 'Dude you know abusing Extacy can seriously damage your brain right- i know the obvious!
(Sorry if i have dragged this post out abit too much xD)
Once again thanks.
PEACEEEEE! %)
Okkk, This is going too be on of many posts about feeling 'Weird' And 'messed up' after abusing Mdma, but i just want abit of help on what i should do and wether my symptoms are normal..
I done Mdma 5 1/2 weeks back, i have done it 7 times in total over the duration of about 2-3 months,(All of the mdma was what i believe too be good) the last week however doing it 5 of the 7 times, Usually doing aproximatly 0.2 0.3g's a day (Owchies!!).
It started off basicly str8 after coming off of it but didnt realy kick in untill the 2nd week after were i started getting real scared about it & honestly felt asif i was losing the plot!, You name it, i though i had (went from thinking i had sterotyn syndrome too thinking i had Schitzaprenia & all sorts!) :0. Looking back i believe i was having withdrawal smymptoms because i couldent sleep at all and if i did it would be like 4-5 houres worth & just put me in a even worst state, was also suffering from not being able too eat properly.
I am seeing improvements however, my sleeping and eating have come back too me (even though i have trouble getting a full nights sleep, usually only sleeping a maximum of 7-8 houres compared too 10 before hand, yes i WAS a lazy basterd) im able too think abit more straight and my memorys beginning too come back to me, still have a long while to go though im sure of it! i find that when i think about my symptoms too much, i get quite worked up over it, & realise that it is just over thinking about it, & when i forget about them, i feel asif im completly back too normal! im Comparing my symptoms and pattern of thinking back too when they were at there worst & theres deffinite recovery :D
Now that i can think more straight i am trying too work out what my primary symptoms are and the ones that im still suffering from (5 1/2 weeks on) are:
#Feel unmotivated/depressed/tired, Mostly in the afternoons?.
#deffinite symtoms of de-realizeation or 'Feeling asif im on a different universe'.
#still forgetfull, trouble remembering things.
#paranioa, getting worked up over small things, mainlyto do with my symptoms & 'will i ever feel normal again' (has improved alot though) either that of i have learned too controll these paranoid thoughts).
#this weird zapping like sound i keep hearing, almost like a brain zap? but its asif i can hear it?
#have been having deep dreams since the Abuse and i seem too remember atleast 1 of the dreams i had the night before, basicly every day. (not complaining though To be honest, Havent had any nightmares hahah!).
#still not being able too get a full nights sleep, witch is why im feeling tired and drained in the afternoons, But atleast i can get sleep, compared too some of the nights when i believe i was having withdrawal were i actually couldent sleep all night! (this happened about 3 times), but havent had any sleepless nights since :D.
Anywayzzzzzz, during the worst of my hangover i phoned the nhs and told them my symptoms and they said too consult your gp, i told my mother (who was at one point an X head in her teenage days) & she said not too worry about it and that your stressing/thinking about it too much and its true on what she said, but i still feel asif i should visit my Dp? even though my main symptoms have basicly resolved, im still suffering with what i believe too be de-Realization, but at the same time i think that going too a gp could make it worst? as i hear they give out things such as Ssri's and anti depressants, Also the way i think of it is that, the worst is over & going too a Gp and being subscribed with Ssri's or whatever could just stress me out even more?
I have deffinitly learned my lesson and will be doing what most people say too do - Reframe from Drug's, & eat healthy, get good sleep, Exercise ectt & this is exactly what i have been doing and i spose you could say its helped alot. & too be honest, even though iv had these negative affects, it was actually changed me as a person alot, im alot more outgoing, have started Pumping some serious iron!, & have reframed from gaming almost 100% witch has made me as a person alot more mentally & physically healthy :D.
Soo, do you think i should still go & visit a Gp like the nhs advised? I hear the best treatment too E/Drug abuse is Time so too be honest, i think thats what im going too do, i am i believe a very mentally strong person, but some of what i have been through during the worst of my hangover/withdrawal Smashed me too pieces and i will never want too experiance those things again & i advise too any people scrolling through this who havent yet abused mdma- DONT DO IT! @L@- Crazy face.
Thanks for reading this post & i will happly answer any questions too people who are also going through these hard times.
For those who are going too say things like 'Dude you know abusing Extacy can seriously damage your brain right- i know the obvious!
(Sorry if i have dragged this post out abit too much xD)
Once again thanks.
PEACEEEEE! %)
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