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MDMA helped cure depression/anxiety from DOM/DOB

killo

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MDMA helped cure depression/anxiety from previous DOM/DOB/DOC trips.

2 weeks ago I took pure molly for the first time. A guy I met at a local rave party split one molly capsule between me, another guy and himself for free. He told me to snort it since I was taking less than a typical oral dose. It turns out that was a good idea, despite snorting it I had an experience which could be described as insightful and inspiring.

It was amazing. Despite taking only a fraction of a molly capsule(whatever the dose was) I had a great time.

Before I talk about the experience I'd just like to say for about a year after taking DOI/DOB/DOC I have had horrible anxiety and sleeping problems, not to mention feeling out of sorts and depressed more than usual.

I had taken LSD and mushrooms years ago and had my life changed spiritually, after coming across the DOx's I have never been the same. One LSD trip after all that helped me reclaim some of my centered-feeling. But the LSD wasn't strong enough to really rearrange my mind. I couldn't find anymore LSD for the longest time, I needed it because I have always admired its effects on problem solving mental struggles.

That's where the MDMA comes in....

As far as the experience goes, it wasn't too intense. I definitely felt it, I was completely relaxed, euphoric to the point of not wanting to move too much. But I wasn't rolling so hard as to have any jaw clenching. I took just enough to give insight on myself and my situation in life and all overall fun time with myself and company. There was also some visual enhancements, things looked sorta "generally distorted". Not like LSD warping, but things looked more clear and bright/colorful, if I looked at laser lights or colorful lamps around the rave they look absolutely amazing, the colors seem to multiply and give me mini light shows.

Basically I had good vibes the whole time, everyone I spoke to I felt as though they were no different than me. We're all sharing this planet together, we have to show compassion towards each other in order to achieve higher happiness. Conversation was odd, and for the first time in my life I knew how to communicate smoothly, everything flowed and had meaning. There was wonder in everything that was happening around us.

Many hours later there was virtually no come-down, I don't know maybe I didn't take enough to really feel drained. I noticed when it started to wear off, things didn't look at bright but I still felt lovey and extremely relaxed. I went to sleep with no problem.

I woke up the next day feeling amazing, I smoked pot for the next few days and each day had an amazing afterglow.

Even now, 2 weeks later I am still adjusting to my new outlook on life. Or should I say, I am glad MDMA helped me rediscover the outlook that LSD showed me years ago. Compassion, truth, spirit and joy!

THANK YOU MDMA!
 
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no such thing as triple stack......also, he said he did a molly capsule, and if it actually was pure MDMA, it wouldnt take much for him to roll off it as it sounds like this was his first time



This is the 2nd time I've had "just MDMA". The first time doesn't count though since it was weak compared to this session. And the other pills had speed/MDA so they don't count as they are not subjectively "just mdma".

I think I didn't expect anything so I had a great time, I wasn't "rolling balls". It was more like complete relaxation, zen, peace.

There was body euphoria too, at some points I was stuck against my chair with a stupid grin cause it felt so nice to feel free.
 
ahhhh..... what a beautiful feeling it is. i was the same way after my first real experience with mdma. total different outlook on life. :D
 
I never really pointed my finger at DOC/DOM/DOI but now that you say it, I've had crazy mental problems for the first time in my life. (Always been depressed no attention span .etc but I'm talking MAJOR depression and hearing voices.)

Durring both trips I “blacked out", and lost control of my actions here on earth because I was busy morphing through unexplainable transformations of conciousness. Some of them where so bizzare that I felt like my brain was in a knot and was about to explode now when I think back. I've never had any other psychedelic do this... They were both extreme trips with complete ego loss, and at parts almost like a NDE.

I was mumbling and walking into walls, then at points screaming random words and running around; in just my underwear no less... ( why do psychedelics make people want to get naked on unintelligent doses? ) Maybe it ties in with the revisitation of our primitive human faculties. This is all what I was told since I don't remember any of it except for a fragment of a moment where I came to... I was in my skivvies and I hadn't any shoes or socks on and it was like the middle of winter and I'm standing with one foot in gravel and the other in a snow bank. The crazy thing was I could * the best way I can describe it * see 360' around me and my thoughts became infested with every persons thoughts in the whole apartment plaza or at least that how it felt.

If you've seen the movie jumper then you know those little jump scars in it. Well my vision was like that, very weird. It took a group of 6 grown men to accost me, and two of them where fat policemen. Keep in mind I wasn't in control of my actions at least not at a conscious level. I don't even remember any of that part of most of the night.

What I do remember was three effemenet entities in an infinite nothing. They looked like the suits in a scanner darkly but all female humanoid parts, but some I couldn't identify since they weren't of our reality, or at least not our planet. They told me that my life was just a joke and that I had created it only out of fear of isolation and loneliness.

(This is now my spiritual belief: We are all the same “soul " which is "god" who created all of these egos / souls that at birth don't know they are the creator and the world among everything in existence... Since time and space only exist in reality then consciousness is possible. It's like an illusion that we all have a separate higher self that the something unique is behind everyone’s eyes deep down. But I believe that like I said since time and space aren't necessarily laws outside this reality here on earth, the same consciousness could be playing out the lives of every living human being... without it being a paradox.)

I've had crazy experiences on dmt and other substances but everything felt so malevolent. I even ended up in the hospital and was still tripping after given haldol.

Anyways, ever since my DOC/DOM experiences I've been a nutcase. My anxiety has worsened and so have my depression. I chalked it up to various other things, but my life has been really hectic so I never really thought it could have been from those trips.

Pure MDMA is like the best love ever. Too bad it's hard to find, my life would be so much better if it was plentiful.
 
killo, congratulations friend, im glad to hear about that, you worded the experience very well. Ive had those experiences a few times, but ive also taken the same drugs in the same doses and not been able to repeat them which is frusterating, but what i think that it means is that you cant give drugs all the credit for the breakthroughs that you have under their influence. but thank god for mdma, it makes me sad to see kids popping pills like crazy and just wanting to get as fucked up as possible or whatever, but it restores my faith when i hear experiences like this.

asplinterfawn, take it easy on thos psychedellics man. In moderation they will be your best friend, in excess, there is a line you can cross where you cant come back. a lot of us have been close, ive been way too close, and i know some people who have definatly done irreversable damage. mdma wont make your life any better, only you can do that, mdma may help but it could hurt you just as easily if you are in the wrong place. and one more thing, those effeminate entities, ive seen similar shit with dmt that shaped my ideas in ways just a significant as they have for you. I dont understand the experience fully, but i have heard a lot of people talk about things like that and i wonder what the hell its all about. anyway, way of topic, happy rolling everyone
 
I never really pointed my finger at DOC/DOM/DOI but now that you say it, I've had crazy mental problems for the first time in my life. (Always been depressed no attention span .etc but I'm talking MAJOR depression and hearing voices.)

During some of my DOx trips I had mental struggles regarding OCD-like patterns of thinking. My health was one of the biggest issues, for some reason this DOx I took gave me a state of depression and hardly no trip. Then another time I tripped so hard on 2 geltabs that after the trip there was a HUGE comedown. It was like a mild speed comedown with MDMA comedown and anxiety since we were still wired.

Worst trips ever.


That's not to say I haven't had good trips on DOx. I remember 3 of them were amazing, but it's hard to take a "good" dose.

LSD is better anyway...

My advice to you is to find MDMA or LSD. If you find LSD, take a lot. You're going to need to reclaim your mind, there will be some rearranging to be done but it's your only hope....

With time you'll get better, but LSD/MDMA are good tools for fixing these mental issues you're having.

Also, I recommend trying St. John's Wort.

Google it, go buy a tincture somewhere and take 30-40 drops a day in water(read bottle of course). In 2 weeks it will help with your depression.

Good luck !
 
no such thing as triple stack......also, he said he did a molly capsule, and if it actually was pure MDMA, it wouldnt take much for him to roll off it as it sounds like this was his first time
you have absolutely no clue what you are talking about
this my friend is a triple stack
300mg of mdma floozy
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I'm almost positive 100mg would have put him on his arse so I doubt the capsule contained 300mg. 30-40mg would definitely give you a nice buzz.
 
wow he split 1 pill 3 ways?
musta been a triplestack

Yea the guy split it with me and another guy.

And yes, it had a lot of powder in it. There's no telling if it was all pure MDMA or maybe some cuts, it didn't burn much at all. There was definitely no caffeine or other stimulants, it was like a sedating kinda stimulation. I did feel motivated to move if I was following other people but only if I was following them, otherwise I didn't have any desire to do anything but chill around people.

But I felt it, that's all that matters! Ahaha, no clue how much MG it was. I've done MDMA like 5-6 times over a couple of years so I have no tolerance.
 
I think I'll choose MDMA as my second drug to try . I told myself that i would never do any drug besides weed but im hearing good reviews about mdma . Maybe it will make me look at things differntly and drag me out of hell.
 
I think I'll choose MDMA as my second drug to try . I told myself that i would never do any drug besides weed but im hearing good reviews about mdma . Maybe it will make me look at things differntly and drag me out of hell.


stay away from pipes!
 
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