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Bluelighter
The is my first time taking 1 MDMA pill, design is yellow star. The whole pill weighs about 300mg. I decided to trip in my room alone, and only other thing I'm doing was talking online. I wanted to see how this drug will affect me before I bring it to the outside world(rave).
The morning, I ate many balance bars to put nutrients and minerals into my body.
at 9:15PM the MDMA pill was placed in my mouth, I'm curious of my people call it "candy" is it sweet? I figured out the pill isn't sweet, but somewhat bitter. Then the pill was swallowed.
From there to 20 minutes, I was feeling a slight feeling of warmth, and calmness.
then after 20 minutes BAM!
I soon felt really strange, I felt like I was in a extreamly altered state of consiousness, my perception started to preceive things as slow, I felt like I was deep underwater, heart rate skyrocketed as well as my temperature. I soon find myself in a state of fear, the odd thing was it hit me so fast, it just went from here to there in just seconds. The MDMA rush started to take hold.
I really thought about panicing, I was thinking, I could be one of those 2 per 100,000 users thats going to die. I was thinking I will die of heat stroke, because I was getting hot and sweaty, my heart rate was going to crazy I thought I was about to faint, or I was thinking about how the MDMA is contaminated with meth, therefore i'ts turning nasty on me. I ended up doing some meditation, and praying to the ecstasy gods, it acually worked.
I started seeing really mild open eye visuals, but I've always thought MDMA never contained visuals, things started to get less intense and less confusing. I didn't feel like my body was overheating, and I wasn't sweating alot anymore.
Soon everything was clear, I felt the sense of euphoria, connection to other people, empathy. During the peak about 1 hour I was listening to trance, and techno, I wrote some letter I emailed to some girl, who both seem to have personal interest in each other, then after that talked over AIM, I was able to type extreamly fast. I can feel the connection we have, and I really enjoyed writing it to her.
During the whole time, drymouth kept hitting me, everytime I get dry mouth which was pretty often, I drank some water. I ended up drinking 1 and a half bottles of water about 750ml, yet I wasn't active or dancing around. I find that drinking water helped regulate the temperature. Once I started to come down, I went to bed, laid there and listenined to trance, or techno music. I still thought about how everything makes sense, everything is connected, the whole cosmic fabric, the whole world, the people etc...
Now its 1:30AM, I just got out of bed to type this, I'm nearly back to baseline, but best off all no crash feeling. I had 5-HTP ready for it, but I didn't even have to deal with a crash. I don't understand why, but its a good thing. Only side effects I'm still feeling is drymouth, and a lightly elevated heart rate. I don't even feel that tired as many people clam it would, I only feel mildly tired. I think I'm going to try to eat something soon, and try to fall asleep. No jaw cruching was ever experienced anyways. I'm wondering if I could even fall asleep I'm not even that tried.
Well, this is my first report on MDMA, and how the coming up was really insane, but I choose to try it again soon. I just want my MDMA to have only MDMA or MDMA like compounds, no other active ingredents, except the fillers.
Personally if you want to expand your heart, or consiouness then MDMA is for you. If you want to make bonds with people, and or objects, then MDMA is for you as well.I've learned alot about myself during this roll. However although MDMA is really euphoric, I wouldn't use it to get euphoria, even though its different I would perfer the opiate euphoric effect.
I'll update whenever, to see how things go, I'm pretty much back to baseline, and feeling normal now.
The morning, I ate many balance bars to put nutrients and minerals into my body.
at 9:15PM the MDMA pill was placed in my mouth, I'm curious of my people call it "candy" is it sweet? I figured out the pill isn't sweet, but somewhat bitter. Then the pill was swallowed.
From there to 20 minutes, I was feeling a slight feeling of warmth, and calmness.
then after 20 minutes BAM!
I soon felt really strange, I felt like I was in a extreamly altered state of consiousness, my perception started to preceive things as slow, I felt like I was deep underwater, heart rate skyrocketed as well as my temperature. I soon find myself in a state of fear, the odd thing was it hit me so fast, it just went from here to there in just seconds. The MDMA rush started to take hold.
I really thought about panicing, I was thinking, I could be one of those 2 per 100,000 users thats going to die. I was thinking I will die of heat stroke, because I was getting hot and sweaty, my heart rate was going to crazy I thought I was about to faint, or I was thinking about how the MDMA is contaminated with meth, therefore i'ts turning nasty on me. I ended up doing some meditation, and praying to the ecstasy gods, it acually worked.
I started seeing really mild open eye visuals, but I've always thought MDMA never contained visuals, things started to get less intense and less confusing. I didn't feel like my body was overheating, and I wasn't sweating alot anymore.
Soon everything was clear, I felt the sense of euphoria, connection to other people, empathy. During the peak about 1 hour I was listening to trance, and techno, I wrote some letter I emailed to some girl, who both seem to have personal interest in each other, then after that talked over AIM, I was able to type extreamly fast. I can feel the connection we have, and I really enjoyed writing it to her.
During the whole time, drymouth kept hitting me, everytime I get dry mouth which was pretty often, I drank some water. I ended up drinking 1 and a half bottles of water about 750ml, yet I wasn't active or dancing around. I find that drinking water helped regulate the temperature. Once I started to come down, I went to bed, laid there and listenined to trance, or techno music. I still thought about how everything makes sense, everything is connected, the whole cosmic fabric, the whole world, the people etc...
Now its 1:30AM, I just got out of bed to type this, I'm nearly back to baseline, but best off all no crash feeling. I had 5-HTP ready for it, but I didn't even have to deal with a crash. I don't understand why, but its a good thing. Only side effects I'm still feeling is drymouth, and a lightly elevated heart rate. I don't even feel that tired as many people clam it would, I only feel mildly tired. I think I'm going to try to eat something soon, and try to fall asleep. No jaw cruching was ever experienced anyways. I'm wondering if I could even fall asleep I'm not even that tried.
Well, this is my first report on MDMA, and how the coming up was really insane, but I choose to try it again soon. I just want my MDMA to have only MDMA or MDMA like compounds, no other active ingredents, except the fillers.
Personally if you want to expand your heart, or consiouness then MDMA is for you. If you want to make bonds with people, and or objects, then MDMA is for you as well.I've learned alot about myself during this roll. However although MDMA is really euphoric, I wouldn't use it to get euphoria, even though its different I would perfer the opiate euphoric effect.
I'll update whenever, to see how things go, I'm pretty much back to baseline, and feeling normal now.
it seems like everyones best friends when they're rollin heh heh
