MDMA - first time - Reflections and "therapy"

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I'm really new to MDMA use, so I'm just wondering if I got a pretty MDMA-filled roll today, and if it will help me forget about relapsing on morphine (as described below.)

I used MDMA tonight to get a new perspective. I just withdrawaled and quit a 1.5 year morphine addiction, and I don't want to relapse. It's funny that out of all that time, I've never used MDMA.

I took the roll about 4.5 hours ago, and I was incapacitated almost. It lasted about 2-3 hours.

It was a strange feeling, it didn't have that speedy-meth-euphoria, more of a "I just want to sit down and enjoy everything" kind of happiness (I wouldn't call it euphoria, say, when compared to the (meth)amphetamines I've also done in the past.)

It was very tranquil, the feeling. At first it felt a bit disassociative like a low dose of Ketamine, then it started feeling semi-opioid like in the sense that it had a body high (not an opioid body high, but just an intense calm body high), and I just thought about things, fixing up my life from my addiction, and watching the band(s) play at the night club I went to.

I'm also wondering post-roll, what am I in-store for these next few days? I heard some post-rollers have that sense of "tranquility" for the days after. Right now I don't feel a comedown at all, I just feel the very minor lingering effects of the roll (but otherwise I feel sober.)

I have class today at 3:15pm, I just hope I can make it (it's currently 1:35am my time, I plan to go to sleep by 3am.)

All I can say is, it really gave me a different perspective. Just sitting there in the night club and thinking about my life and what I need to do to improve was such a positive reflection.

:D I've never rolled before, as I said. First time, and boy, before I took the roll I was still kinda feeling like shit from the opioid-withdrawal (I've only been clean a week and a half from the morphine.) But right now I feel "normal."

Any feedback on my experience and the roll helping with my opioid-addiction (hopefully this roll gives me the ability to refuse relapsing on opioids .

Thanks guys!

edit: I just checked, my pupils are still quite dilated, but I don't feel a comedown or the heavy gelatin-like E feeling now. As I said, I just feel at peace, I feel like the majority of my opioid-withdrawals are gone, but I don't feel "high" right now. I think I'll be able to sleep within a few hours.

It was quite a "trip." I don't think I'll have cravings for this because it really incapacitates me. Just doing all that thinking sitting down in the night club (what I mainly did, and hugged my friends who sat by me while thinking) gave me a new perspective: I should focus on my studies in college this semester and not relapse on the opioids.

Very interesting trip guys. I didn't know such drastic changes to 5-HT (serotonin) could give me these types of thoughts.. then again I've never really used hallucinogens (never did LSD, did only a small amount of shrooms about 4 years ago, so I forgot about that.)

 

[DOHP]

Yeah alot of peoples pupils stay dilated for a while after mdma. And I thought I was the only one who got the 'body high' with mdma; sort of like a plesant tingling running all over the body.

Nice to see a report on mdma, not many about.

 

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Yeah alot of peoples pupils stay dilated for a while after mdma. And I thought I was the only one who got the 'body high' with mdma; sort of like a plesant tingling running all over the body.

Nice to see a report on mdma, not many about.

Do you think there's a possibility that I got a MDA/MDMA mixture roll? (Hence my "tiredness" on the roll.)

It was quite a trip. No visuals, but a lot of thought provoking substance.

I just woke up, I found out in my sleep I knocked over my bedstand and my iPod/alarm clock/etc. on it, hahaha (I probably was dancing in my sleep, hahaha.)

What's funny is I found one MSContin (morphine) 100mg pill on the ground while looking for the alarm clock I knocked down whilst sleeping... and even thinking about taking it now makes me want to vomit.

Usually I'd take the morphine right away. Very very interesting.

edit: I just flushed the morphine. Screw relapse. :D

 

[Pretty_Diamonds]

Awesome!! Don't see much MDMA reports around here. It's my favorite drug. .

 

[DOHP]

Do you think there's a possibility that I got a MDA/MDMA mixture roll? (Hence my "tiredness" on the roll.)

It was quite a trip. No visuals, but a lot of thought provoking substance.

I just woke up, I found out in my sleep I knocked over my bedstand and my iPod/alarm clock/etc. on it, hahaha (I probably was dancing in my sleep, hahaha.)

What's funny is I found one MSContin (morphine) 100mg pill on the ground while looking for the alarm clock I knocked down whilst sleeping... and even thinking about taking it now makes me want to vomit.

Usually I'd take the morphine right away. Very very interesting.

edit: I just flushed the morphine. Screw relapse. :D

mdma on its own produces very weird effects and hallucinogens, and for me mdma's wierd effects generally happen on the come down when im trying to get to sleep, most likley because it causes a chemical imbalance in the brain.