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Bluelight Crew
mdma log
[edit] mood(set) before taking pill was pretty nervous, thought it would be a good idea to add that
4:50 -- half a pill
6:50 -- have felt a bit odd... must be weak pills... taking another half
7:50 -- feel like im coming up... very wierd head space... dialated pupils... not what i normally associate with rolling though... if i dont get higher, i may take anotehr half within a half hour
7:55 -- taking about a half (they are hard to break in half, so tiny)
8:10 -- feel so smooth... absolutely no twitching or muscle spasm or jerkiness to me... like i am in complete control of my muscles... my body feels energized and nice
8:45 -- Very dizzy. Feels very good. VERY WIERD HEADSPACE, and it feels wonderful. People look different, people look beautiful. im going to try meditation soon, will post on that.
Music is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.
9:00 -- E cured my diarea btw. havent had it since roll started (have been ahving it all day). absolutely NO HPPD!!!!!!!!!
9:30 -- I have been SOOOO fucking social! its so easy to make conversation! NO social anxiety!
10:15 -- feel almost normal now. am i coming down? dammit.
11:00 -- i have an afterglow, still feel a little fluid. Going to summarize what i felt.
p.s. I said I would post on the meditation. I could be completely in the moment, in the bliss of music (next time I will try meditation without music). Next time I wil also just take one pill. I believe this only lasted for two hours because of how spaced out I took the halves.
Body high (especially in the head). Body felt light and nice. Very beautiful feel, and very dizzy, for the first half hour (rush). Whenever I used the restroom, I washed my hands for a few minutes—felt great.
Liquid muscles. Complete control of my muscles, could move so smooth. No twitchyness or jerkiness (which i would normally attribute to a stimulant).
Headspace: Liquid. Fleeting attention. Enhanced mood. Clear. Music becomes a big influence on the mind.
Cognition: Could type as fast as normal, and talk. Felt no "dumb"ness.
Sociability: Was very social. Could talk for hours. Enjoyed talking (which i usually dont). Usually i feel very awkward, none of that on E. As if all psychological defenses are down. Very influenced by whether i percieved people as receptive or not.
Illness: Diarea and stomache ache and cramps were cured. HPPD was cleared. Magical drug.
Comedown: At first, pessimistic thoughts. Then it cleared up. I am enjoying a nice afterglow.
[edit] Going to sleep now. Slight headache has been coming on and off. Still have an afterglow. Pupils still very large. Nite
[edit] Sleep very easy after MDMA. Once i stop thinking about stuff, hypnopompic hallucinations come quickly, as does distortion of my sense of motion (as usual as i fall asleep, but comes quicker after MDMA) and i drift to sleep
The day after, i get occasional small reoccurances of the body feel (mainly in the head) for 5-10 seconds. No hangover. Still an afterglow and very relaxed, social anxiety not as strong as usual.
[edit] I'm very very tired today. I got eight hours of sleep and Just took a three hour nap, still very tired. Also very hungry today.
[edit] mood(set) before taking pill was pretty nervous, thought it would be a good idea to add that
4:50 -- half a pill
6:50 -- have felt a bit odd... must be weak pills... taking another half
7:50 -- feel like im coming up... very wierd head space... dialated pupils... not what i normally associate with rolling though... if i dont get higher, i may take anotehr half within a half hour
7:55 -- taking about a half (they are hard to break in half, so tiny)
8:10 -- feel so smooth... absolutely no twitching or muscle spasm or jerkiness to me... like i am in complete control of my muscles... my body feels energized and nice
8:45 -- Very dizzy. Feels very good. VERY WIERD HEADSPACE, and it feels wonderful. People look different, people look beautiful. im going to try meditation soon, will post on that.
Music is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.
9:00 -- E cured my diarea btw. havent had it since roll started (have been ahving it all day). absolutely NO HPPD!!!!!!!!!
9:30 -- I have been SOOOO fucking social! its so easy to make conversation! NO social anxiety!
10:15 -- feel almost normal now. am i coming down? dammit.
11:00 -- i have an afterglow, still feel a little fluid. Going to summarize what i felt.
p.s. I said I would post on the meditation. I could be completely in the moment, in the bliss of music (next time I will try meditation without music). Next time I wil also just take one pill. I believe this only lasted for two hours because of how spaced out I took the halves.
Body high (especially in the head). Body felt light and nice. Very beautiful feel, and very dizzy, for the first half hour (rush). Whenever I used the restroom, I washed my hands for a few minutes—felt great.
Liquid muscles. Complete control of my muscles, could move so smooth. No twitchyness or jerkiness (which i would normally attribute to a stimulant).
Headspace: Liquid. Fleeting attention. Enhanced mood. Clear. Music becomes a big influence on the mind.
Cognition: Could type as fast as normal, and talk. Felt no "dumb"ness.
Sociability: Was very social. Could talk for hours. Enjoyed talking (which i usually dont). Usually i feel very awkward, none of that on E. As if all psychological defenses are down. Very influenced by whether i percieved people as receptive or not.
Illness: Diarea and stomache ache and cramps were cured. HPPD was cleared. Magical drug.
Comedown: At first, pessimistic thoughts. Then it cleared up. I am enjoying a nice afterglow.
[edit] Going to sleep now. Slight headache has been coming on and off. Still have an afterglow. Pupils still very large. Nite
[edit] Sleep very easy after MDMA. Once i stop thinking about stuff, hypnopompic hallucinations come quickly, as does distortion of my sense of motion (as usual as i fall asleep, but comes quicker after MDMA) and i drift to sleep
The day after, i get occasional small reoccurances of the body feel (mainly in the head) for 5-10 seconds. No hangover. Still an afterglow and very relaxed, social anxiety not as strong as usual.
[edit] I'm very very tired today. I got eight hours of sleep and Just took a three hour nap, still very tired. Also very hungry today.
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