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mdma: first time "beautiful"

stjarna

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WHat can I say but my first experience with mdma was absolutely amazing and has made me appreciate my life a little more than I did before that experience.

It was a Friday night in early april of this year. and I was really looking forward to doing it that weekend in my room with my boyfriend there just to keep an eye on me. We began by watching a little tv. I was a little nervous, because I had read what to expect and had heard stories, but this was going to be something new so I was amped about it to say the least. I was hesitant at first and sat the pill infront of me and stared at it for a good 15 minutes witha cup of water. It was an orange chicken head. After a few good deep breaths I popped it in and then there I was. It was in me and there was nothing I could do about it.

I took it around 10:30 or 11 pm. I am not really sure. But I waited. I knew it was going to take a little longer than usual since it was my first time. So to proccupy myself, my bf and I began to watch tv. Ironically enough "Hooked: Illegal Drugs" was on the tv talking about mdma. We both got a really good chuckle from that. Unfortunately I was getting a little peeved because it had been more than an hour since I took the pill. (Side note: I had eaten a fair amount of pizza before hand which we found was the problem behind the delay.) So I was laying around and being bored. I told my bf that I didn't think it was going to work. He put his hand to his head and was like... "I would say 10 minutes and you will feel it." I laughed at him and felt a little sleepy if anything.

Almost exactly TWO hours after taking it I stood up. And I went to walk and wham.... it hit me. Like one of the best orgasms I had ever had in my life. I made noises to go along with it. My head was spinning and all I could feel was elation. I had to sit down it was so overwhelming. After the come up I was in heaven. I hugged my boyfriend and then I listened to music. Ravi Shankur to be exact. Simply amazing because while listening to this I somehow viualized this amazing world of jewel eyed animals and lotus flowers. Everything at this point was beautiful. I kept talking to my bf about antelope with golden fur and saphire eyes, and giraffes that would lie down and wrap there massive necks around where I was sitting cross legged. I used my hands to build the forms that were never really there but in my head visually like I well formed idea. I visualized a great lion that was calm and peaceful with a blue nose and emerald eyes.

I soon found the music of Infected Mushroom and began to dance. It was simply one of the best feelings of freedom that i had every felt. Just the feeling of cloth against your skin and the feeling of the muscles tensing and relaxing was like nothing I had ever felt before. I decided that I would do a few Yoga poses. Which was pretty cool but didn't give me enough movement to really enjoy it. The simple act of breathing made me feel more alive and in tune with my self.

I had nystigmus which was hilarious when I took my alarm clock and tried to give myself a light show... but I was unimpressed and happily gave that up.

The come down was the low point. I was so mad that I was coming down that I cried. And then eventually fell asleep in my bf's arms.

The next day I remember just being happy to be a live and that I could be happy no matter what I did. It had opened my eyes to a new world where life was something to be lived and embraced. I have been doing that ever since.

I have done it once again since then at a rave and I plan to do it again. But there is nothing like the first time.
 
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stjarna said:
I had nystigmus which was hilarious when I took my alarm clock and tried to give myself a light show... but I was unimpressed and happily gave that up.

hehe =D , nice report
 
Welcome to the wonderul world of E, hope next times as enjoyable. I can relate your experience to my first pill many, many moons ago. Great report.
 
stjarna said:
Just the feeling of cloth against your skin and the feeling of the muscles tensing and relaxing was like nothing I had ever felt before.

Quite something innit?

Great reoprt, don't do it too often...;)
 
Indeed, the synergy between MDMA and dancing is amazing...

I never really found any enjoyment in the activity, but after trying Ecstacy, the apeal has stayed with me ever since...
 
"I have done it once again since then at a rave and I plan to do it again."

she has started down the road to....;)
 
Ah... but responisibility is the key! I have been to raves since the last time and I have had a blast without anything. I have just felt good over all about life in general. Without it! So its not like I want to do it every weekend. I could only imagine how burned out I would get. *shudder* but this summer may prove to be crazy. :)
 
everyone doubts my words. But oh well. I guess I will just live my life by how I have set my limits. I want to do it less often so that I can enjoy it more when I do it. If you do it every weekend "you lose the magic" but also you just expect alot of it as well. So yeah. I want to only use it in moderation because of this.

Stay safe and enjoy life.
 
i loved the part about all the animals with jeweled eyes.....just reading that made me feel good. you are blessed.
 
Glad you had a great time on you're first pill!!:)

mmmmmmmz wish i neva touchedthe stuff so icould had that first-time feeling again....8)
 
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alasdairm said:
me too. 5 years later and i have not stopped :)

lovely report.

alasdair

Ditto. I love listening to Infected Mushroom while rolling. Some of my fondest memories have been listening to infected mushroom out in the mojave desert and gazing up at a blanket of stars.
 
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Great Ocean Road said:
Ditto. I love listening to Infected Mushroom while rolling. Some of my fondest memories have been listening to infected mushroom out in the mojave desert and gazing up at a blanket of stars.

Sounds like Absolute heaven :)
 
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