FractalStructure
Bluelighter
Let me start out by saying that this was my first "real" roll, and i had bought a bunch of pills once before, eating 4 of them and feeling pretty much nothing. This trip actually happened in 2004, and prior to this, I only had experience with marijuana (daily), alcohol, and dxm (also have done daily for a while).
So the weekend comes around, and I decide to roll. I spend an hour waiting on friday, to get one white dolphin, which I take around 3 pm on saturday.
2:30 I bring the pill to my friend M's house, and show it to him. He tells me he's double dropped the same pill two days prior and was floored. I was getting excited. I dropped the dolphin and a smile came over my face. I knew i was gonna "actually" roll. The pill was taken at approx. 3 pm.
3:30 M is sober, playing GTA San Andreas, and im browsing through the songs on his pc, and music starts to sound a little more pleasant, a little more exciting. I still can't distinguish it from placebo nonetheless.
4:00 We go to my house, I feel bad that I'm gonna be rolling while M has to be sober, so i give him some adderall i have, so at least he's be spun on dl-amphetamine. He snorts it, and i still dont feel much. I got a gram of cannabis, nothing special, but enough to act as a catalyst, last night in preperation. We rolled two joints out of it, and went to the local park
4:15 M and I share the two joints, and while we're doing this he gets a phone call from some girls that want us to meet them a couple blocks away to chill (i have never hung out with these people before), we agree and continue smoking. Its important to note that I didn't feel much prior to this. However, when we finished smoking the pot and got up and went to meet up with these girls...
I realized I was feeling great! In terms of mdma specifically, it would be a +++ already. The 5-or-so block walk was completely overwhelming. everything i looked at seemed to smile back at me. It was just simply, sheer ecstasy, for lack of a better word. I felt like every problem I had, had been easily dissolved, although in a much different way than opiates. I also felt very energized, although not tweaked out at this point. I felt like a little boy on his way to the gates of Disney World for the first time. My mind was completely clear, there was no typical "buzz", but I was clearly very high.
4:40
We meet up with these girls, M is nicely spun, I'm rolling face at this point, everything starting to increase. I felt a very strong stimulation, although not unpleasant at all. I didn't know any of the people we were with besides M, but all I had to say is "hi, im rolling" and i was able to meet everyone, and felt like I knew them all very well. It also felt like all of them were truly good people (in retrospect, they are all actually pretty closedminded and not nice people, which further proves the extent to which i was tripping).
6:00
I had many conversations with many people, and was feeling waves all over my body, it got a little uncomfortable at one point so i smoked a little more bud and it kicked the happiness back in. Many of the people around me wanted to get these rolls since they saw that they were strong and i tried calling the guy, wanting DESPERATELY to get another one to keep the roll going. Keep in mind, this was my first time, and i did not want to come down, at all. I must have tried 20 times with no results, but i was still going strong at this point
7:00
We go to the beach by my area. Now, note that this beach is actually incredibly filthy, but right now it seemed absolutely gorgeous. when I think back about this trip, i see the image of the waves crashing. And that wasn't the only thing about to crash
8:00
I finally started to feel it coming down. I was unable to get more so i just gave up. I felt an overwhelming sadness and the people i had just spent my roll with, who only half an hour ago I felt so connected to, felt very empty, and I didn't want to be around them. I didn't want to be around anybody. The euphoria was all gone. However, i still felt a strong, uncomfortable stimulation.
This stimulation lasted for a very long time and got increasingly uncomfortable, ultimately to the point of physical pain. Unfortunately, I didn't have any benzos or opiates or even alcohol to soothe the crash, nor was I aware of this technique back then. I couldn't sleep at all that night, although i tried, tossing and turning for hours. The next day, I STILL felt stimulated and shitty. By that evening, however, I was starting to feel normal again. Even though the crash was horrible, I felt the trip was worth it.
NOTE: I knew close to nothing about mdma at the same, so I assumed what I ate was just pure "ecstasy" but after two years of some decent use, I now can easily "feel" meth in the pills, and make sure to stay away from them, only eating clean rolls (via testing kits or friends that have tried the same pill). Either way, for a first roll, it was a phenomenol experience, even with the meth.
So the weekend comes around, and I decide to roll. I spend an hour waiting on friday, to get one white dolphin, which I take around 3 pm on saturday.
2:30 I bring the pill to my friend M's house, and show it to him. He tells me he's double dropped the same pill two days prior and was floored. I was getting excited. I dropped the dolphin and a smile came over my face. I knew i was gonna "actually" roll. The pill was taken at approx. 3 pm.
3:30 M is sober, playing GTA San Andreas, and im browsing through the songs on his pc, and music starts to sound a little more pleasant, a little more exciting. I still can't distinguish it from placebo nonetheless.
4:00 We go to my house, I feel bad that I'm gonna be rolling while M has to be sober, so i give him some adderall i have, so at least he's be spun on dl-amphetamine. He snorts it, and i still dont feel much. I got a gram of cannabis, nothing special, but enough to act as a catalyst, last night in preperation. We rolled two joints out of it, and went to the local park
4:15 M and I share the two joints, and while we're doing this he gets a phone call from some girls that want us to meet them a couple blocks away to chill (i have never hung out with these people before), we agree and continue smoking. Its important to note that I didn't feel much prior to this. However, when we finished smoking the pot and got up and went to meet up with these girls...
I realized I was feeling great! In terms of mdma specifically, it would be a +++ already. The 5-or-so block walk was completely overwhelming. everything i looked at seemed to smile back at me. It was just simply, sheer ecstasy, for lack of a better word. I felt like every problem I had, had been easily dissolved, although in a much different way than opiates. I also felt very energized, although not tweaked out at this point. I felt like a little boy on his way to the gates of Disney World for the first time. My mind was completely clear, there was no typical "buzz", but I was clearly very high.
4:40
We meet up with these girls, M is nicely spun, I'm rolling face at this point, everything starting to increase. I felt a very strong stimulation, although not unpleasant at all. I didn't know any of the people we were with besides M, but all I had to say is "hi, im rolling" and i was able to meet everyone, and felt like I knew them all very well. It also felt like all of them were truly good people (in retrospect, they are all actually pretty closedminded and not nice people, which further proves the extent to which i was tripping).
6:00
I had many conversations with many people, and was feeling waves all over my body, it got a little uncomfortable at one point so i smoked a little more bud and it kicked the happiness back in. Many of the people around me wanted to get these rolls since they saw that they were strong and i tried calling the guy, wanting DESPERATELY to get another one to keep the roll going. Keep in mind, this was my first time, and i did not want to come down, at all. I must have tried 20 times with no results, but i was still going strong at this point
7:00
We go to the beach by my area. Now, note that this beach is actually incredibly filthy, but right now it seemed absolutely gorgeous. when I think back about this trip, i see the image of the waves crashing. And that wasn't the only thing about to crash
8:00
I finally started to feel it coming down. I was unable to get more so i just gave up. I felt an overwhelming sadness and the people i had just spent my roll with, who only half an hour ago I felt so connected to, felt very empty, and I didn't want to be around them. I didn't want to be around anybody. The euphoria was all gone. However, i still felt a strong, uncomfortable stimulation.
This stimulation lasted for a very long time and got increasingly uncomfortable, ultimately to the point of physical pain. Unfortunately, I didn't have any benzos or opiates or even alcohol to soothe the crash, nor was I aware of this technique back then. I couldn't sleep at all that night, although i tried, tossing and turning for hours. The next day, I STILL felt stimulated and shitty. By that evening, however, I was starting to feel normal again. Even though the crash was horrible, I felt the trip was worth it.
NOTE: I knew close to nothing about mdma at the same, so I assumed what I ate was just pure "ecstasy" but after two years of some decent use, I now can easily "feel" meth in the pills, and make sure to stay away from them, only eating clean rolls (via testing kits or friends that have tried the same pill). Either way, for a first roll, it was a phenomenol experience, even with the meth.
