smileyfish
Ex-Bluelighter
A moderately experienced but infrequent piller, a recent night out highlighted exactly how much an impact your mood and the environment can have on your experience.
Location: a small events venue with wich I am familiar and have dropped at previously.
Dose: 1 pill (~100mg) good clean MDMA, taken in halves 15 minutes apart.
Note: all times are approximate.
0015: dropped first half and chatted with friends aqnd chilled out.
0030: dropped second half and continued chatting until became aware of slight body tingles and general start of coming up. Decided I didn't really dig the music where we were so went for a wander around the complex to try the music in different rooms (water bottle in hand
).
0045: hit the floor in the main room and found the music to be just right. Really started getting into the lasers. Felling really good and glad I took the pill in halves as I had none of the usual nausea. Body tingles getting stronger, some rushes, really starting to come up nicely.
0050: cute girl next to me on the dance floor notices me and insists on giving me her glowsticks. Proceed to go off on the dacefloor with said glowies. Getting right into the lasers now and anticipating hitting the peak I can feel coming.
0110: accidently kick my water bottle over and bend down to pick it up. At the precise moment a guy jumps backwards, knocking into a girl carrying a full, open can of Red Bull. Said girl drops can of Red Bull wich lands square between my shoulders, drenching me and spraying cute glowstick girl. All parties are extremely apologetic and there are no hard fellings BUT goodbye peak
0115: clean myself up and wander back to find my friends, feeling very straight. Get back to chatting and chilling. Can still feel some MDMA effects - empathy, increased tactile responses etc. My boy wanders over feeling very loved up and wanting to share it with me. My headspace starts to get very messy as our relationship had been going through a long less-than-satisfactory patch and I had made the decision that I would leave to find work interstate or overseas (he knew). Start to feel really guilty, confused and dishonest cuddling with him and hearing him tell me how much he loves me. Try to explain all of this to him (good to let it out). Get some fresh air and find this really helps me feel better.
0130: realise the inexperienced kids we had met earlier in the night were not having the best time. Start making sure they are ok - tell them all about harm minimisation, testing, bluelight etc. Takes my mind off my own situation and I cruise for a while, enjoying being out with friends and the relief of finishing my thesis.
0200: Realise that the Red Bull had not only killed my peak but the silver PVC pants I was wearing also
Put on my Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds lab coat (long story) that I had brought along as a jacket to cover the damage - lab coat attracts lots of attention
. Start to realise exactly how exhausted I am after 2 months of really pushing myself and working very long, stressful hours. Become aware of fatigue throughout my entire body and my mind - decide I want to go home.
0230: the others in my group are starting to come down. Hang around chatting, hugging etc. Get up and walk around the venue to wake myself up a bit. Feeling ok but tired and ready for bed.
0300: everyone is pretty much down now, so we gather the troops and head home for a hot shower then bed. Find that most everyone else had an awesome time on the same pills witha great peak and some visuals. Another friend who has trouble letting go of mental control also didn't peak and had a similar night to mine.
Interesting to learn that no matter if the pills are great, your environment and mental state are major factors controlling your MDMA experience. Would like to know how my night would have turned out without the Red Bull encounter
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Location: a small events venue with wich I am familiar and have dropped at previously.
Dose: 1 pill (~100mg) good clean MDMA, taken in halves 15 minutes apart.
Note: all times are approximate.
0015: dropped first half and chatted with friends aqnd chilled out.
0030: dropped second half and continued chatting until became aware of slight body tingles and general start of coming up. Decided I didn't really dig the music where we were so went for a wander around the complex to try the music in different rooms (water bottle in hand

0045: hit the floor in the main room and found the music to be just right. Really started getting into the lasers. Felling really good and glad I took the pill in halves as I had none of the usual nausea. Body tingles getting stronger, some rushes, really starting to come up nicely.
0050: cute girl next to me on the dance floor notices me and insists on giving me her glowsticks. Proceed to go off on the dacefloor with said glowies. Getting right into the lasers now and anticipating hitting the peak I can feel coming.
0110: accidently kick my water bottle over and bend down to pick it up. At the precise moment a guy jumps backwards, knocking into a girl carrying a full, open can of Red Bull. Said girl drops can of Red Bull wich lands square between my shoulders, drenching me and spraying cute glowstick girl. All parties are extremely apologetic and there are no hard fellings BUT goodbye peak

0115: clean myself up and wander back to find my friends, feeling very straight. Get back to chatting and chilling. Can still feel some MDMA effects - empathy, increased tactile responses etc. My boy wanders over feeling very loved up and wanting to share it with me. My headspace starts to get very messy as our relationship had been going through a long less-than-satisfactory patch and I had made the decision that I would leave to find work interstate or overseas (he knew). Start to feel really guilty, confused and dishonest cuddling with him and hearing him tell me how much he loves me. Try to explain all of this to him (good to let it out). Get some fresh air and find this really helps me feel better.
0130: realise the inexperienced kids we had met earlier in the night were not having the best time. Start making sure they are ok - tell them all about harm minimisation, testing, bluelight etc. Takes my mind off my own situation and I cruise for a while, enjoying being out with friends and the relief of finishing my thesis.
0200: Realise that the Red Bull had not only killed my peak but the silver PVC pants I was wearing also


0230: the others in my group are starting to come down. Hang around chatting, hugging etc. Get up and walk around the venue to wake myself up a bit. Feeling ok but tired and ready for bed.
0300: everyone is pretty much down now, so we gather the troops and head home for a hot shower then bed. Find that most everyone else had an awesome time on the same pills witha great peak and some visuals. Another friend who has trouble letting go of mental control also didn't peak and had a similar night to mine.
Interesting to learn that no matter if the pills are great, your environment and mental state are major factors controlling your MDMA experience. Would like to know how my night would have turned out without the Red Bull encounter

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