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ShAYZoN

ShAYZoN

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I have noticed with my last 10 rolls the comedown has gotten significantly worse to the point where I'm rolling bawls for like 3-4 hours and then the comedown hits I feel this dark feeling over me and everything around me becomes dark. My body temp gets thrown out of wack now my skin just feels gross.

I think it's time for a long break... Anyone that is abusing MDMA that doesn't haven this going on yet... stop the abuse before it abuses you... I've been rolling for 2 1/2 years and I was good about breaks for the first 1 1/2 but I fucked it up now I have year + to recover... Sucks does anyone else have this going on :(

-shayzon
 
ShAYZoN said:
I have noticed with my last 10 rolls the comedown has gotten significantly worse to the point where I'm rolling bawls for like 3-4 hours and then the comedown hits I feel this dark feeling over me and everything around me becomes dark. My body temp gets thrown out of wack now my skin just feels gross.

I think it's time for a long break... Anyone that is abusing MDMA that doesn't haven this going on yet... stop the abuse before it abuses you... I've been rolling for 2 1/2 years and I was good about breaks for the first 1 1/2 but I fucked it up now I have year + to recover... Sucks does anyone else have this going on :(

-shayzon
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I remember reading that you were "e-tarded" like 2 days ago (I believe) bc you had rolled the night before. Are all these feelings just hitting you now, or did you roll again?


I think you just need a long break. Try to break apart from E/MDMA mentally and act as if you do not plan on touching it again. If you just say you are going to stop for "X" amount of time, all you are doing is waiting for that time to come so you can do it and in reality you are not puttting it behind you and moving onward with your life. This doesn't mean I think you should never do it again, but you need such a long break that you have 0 plans of doing it. You don't wanna mess your brain/seratonin levels up so much that you struggle with depression/emotions/anxiety the rest of your life.

There is a LOT of awesome things in life, perhaps reminding yourself of them will really help. E/MDMA should be a treat every 3-12 months that you treat yourself too. It just makes MUCH more sense to do it this way IMO
 
I agree with boltfan. Give yourself a break - at least 6 months - from mdma. With any luck the joy of mdma will return with only occasional use.
 
I agree with them. Take at least a 6 month break from MDMA and stimulants in general.

Try not to think about it during the break period. There are so many good things in life besides Ecstasy.
 
Honestly you can do it shayzon. You got the support of all the bluelighters. I've recently had a break through. I made about a good 90$ (which is rare for me cause I'm always broke) about 2 weeks ago and ussually the first thing I do is buy E. But this time I told myself no. I'm just gonna move on with my life and spend my money on something that can last me years rather than something that only last a few hours.
 
Im in a similar situation, abused mdma bad and now being forced to stop because there is no other choice...for my first 8 months (of my 2 year binge basically)I rolled at least every week now the side effects are so bad, its not even worth it...and they keep getting worse...and I fear some are permanent, terrible depression, not to mention weird physical things like I developed this ringing in my left ear that never goes away...I have this "numb" feeling in a certain spot in my back that I'm positive is from E, &the list goes on ..all these things are so annoying to live with day to day.. and with all this... I dont think I will be able to stop myself from rolling on the 21st or on my b day 5 days later, I want to stop all winter but thats what I said last winter :/ Its so hard to stop when thats all you have been doing for so long, and everything reminds you of rolling, I understand...I just wanted you to know there are people out there like you because that always makes me feel better, and that your side effects can and will keep getting worse hope thats some more motivation for you :) much love and luck seriously ... the sooner we stop the sooner we can feel like it was in the beginning
 
I have been partying for over 12 years. Have had years of crazy rolling (doing it for consecutive weekends for months and months at a time). I take year breaks at a time- the magic isn't the same at all but it still can be fun- just different. Now, on comedown I drinks lots of green juice or eat fruits and veggies and I find the next day is smooth sailing. I make sure when I am not indulging that I am taking care of my body as much as possible.
 
Yeah my eyes are fucked up mood swings i've noticed lately I've been very irretable I also have been not talking to people I feel like everyone is out to piss me off or hurt me. I also have a ringing I my right ear I also noticed my skin is more numb. I just wanna be normal again I've gone not even a week yet I can make it months pretty sure cause this feeling I'm OVER IT.
 
Also when ever I party I always wear earplugs. Honestly, there is a lot to be said about taking care of yourself (eating healthy foods, drinking lots of water, excersize, sleep), that will make days after a breeze (or at least a lot better to handle).
 
I had this problem due to abuse (using every couple weeks for a long time, and it all came crashing)- and I made it through, and now enjoy rolling again. There was a point where my friends would plan to roll, and my anxiety around it made it simply not worth it, but I'd give it a try anyway, and sometimes rolling itself was dark and sad.

I also (as always) really reallllllly improved my ability to roll and the quality of my roll by using piracetam (a supplement you can find online).
 
Yeah I have anxiety now from rolling so much I also have noticed that I can't handle people anymore I feel like I'm going psychotic from it. . . I don't wanna do this anymore I'm over it I can't put my finger on it but I'm totally changed now. Not for the better either.
 
I would just stay off beans for a few months and try to be as healthy as possible. Same shit happened, I was depressed / had anxiety / couldn't sleep / and lost a lot of my appetite. But I stopped for 3 months and spent a lot of time getting in shape, now I love rolling once again.
 
I feel you man. I haven't rolled in almost two months. I have been smoking weed everyday for two years though. After this weekend I plan on quitting the stinky herb too.

Looks like a few years of sobriety and success are in store for me. :\ ((( boring )))
 
I know alot of people like to flame for their love for mdma, But as someone who used to glamorise mdma till days end I can honestly say the dark side of mdma outweighs the upsides.

SURE i had amazing times, but ive seen it change alot of people, and the worst myself, but was in so much depression and the worst year of my life (2009) where everything came back to bite me and I just became a depressed sad person over my mdma abuse.

After about 8 months of staying clean, and excercising and eating better, plus getting on SSRIs and seeking therapy ive become my old self.

Im happy where I am, and while I had amaazing times with mdma and will always rememeber the amazing times, im happy im without it, and you should take a long, long break even if it might be hard. You will benefit from it alot.

I promise you.

-peace
 
Oh and btw I was at the "festival" as everyone put it and was NOT on mdma even though all my friends were, and I watched above and beyond play the most beautiful set and site ive ever seen in my life, without mdma, and turned out being the best night of my entire life.

Peace an luv ya'll
 
Ecstatic Glow said:
weird physical things like I developed this ringing in my left ear that never goes away...
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some dj's are half deaf so bring those ear plugs with you.

I haven't read that mdma would be ototoxic, but have read that impurities in pills can be. Anyways that's some serious abuse.

my first and only mdma comedown was enough for me not to do again.
Aftereffects are just as important for me to determine substances potential.
 
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