Alright so I joined this forum specifically to share what happened to me as I feel there was little to no information about this on the web.
So I started doing "Molly" around the end of November of 2011 and as with a lot of users I got hooked. I started doing it every other weekend and that soon became every weekend sometimes even both Friday and Saturday.
It became all I really ever thought about but I knew it wasn't something you should do often. After a few bad rolls I almost gave up molly but decided on sticking with one good dealer and not buying outside of them.
I never had a bad roll again. Although about a month and a half ago my stomach felt weird, (to the touch) Ive always been really lean and skinny, I still am but in regards to my belly it was always super firm and flat. It somehow in one weeks time frame had felt mushy. still flat but mushy. very weird. I decided just to start running and do more aerobic activity even though I was already incredibly active (maybe it was my metabolism?). It just felt weird to me. At the same time I got Ulcers all down my throat which happened right after I had snorted molly and caused an infection in my throat. It all felt weird to me.
Anyways time goes by and my throat infection has gone away but my stomach remains and symptoms are getting worse. I almost feel like a have a balloon inside my stomach and every time I eat it inflates and my stomach distends so far out I literally looked pregnant, I became constipated and always always hungry. I could feel and hear my stomach gurgling and my intestines moving. It became all I thought about. It started making me depressed. I didn't want to go out or do anything. I was self conscious about it even though nobody could tell but I could. My body was no longer the same.
I did extensive research on it, afraid to go to the doctor, (had no health insurance either) and thought either h pylori bacteria, gastritis, IBS, celiac disease etc... the list goes on.
BUT IN FACT I HAD NONE OF THESE.
I had not linked that what was happening to me could all be happening because of my habitual use of MDMA in the past.
Of course I hadn't thought of it because I had done so much research on it in the past, digestive/stomach issues never came up under long term use systems.
We all know that molly makes us poop on the come up but I never linked the two until I read that although serotonins purpose is to make you feel "good" it also controls your digestive system.
Our intestines are our "second brain". Serotonin is what keeps them going. Just as it helps us sleep and regulates our hunger.
So I put two and two together and realized that what was wrong with me was that my serotonin levels were not equipped enough to have me in a healthy state, which is why I was always down and out (completely out of character for me) and why I was having such horrible stomach issues.
I decided to take 5 htp to somehow re-up my serotonin. I had NO IDEA if it would work but I was willing to give it a chance after reading many mixed reviews.
It was worth a shot.
After only taking it once, ( I am not exaggerating) I felt a world of a difference. Overnight my stomach flattened out. I was having regular bowel movements again, its like my body bounced back overnight. My stomach was still a little bloated but nothing compared to the way it looked and felt before. I felt like I had my health back which was the ONE THING i wanted back. I could easily get back into shape by exercising.
Anyways I really hope that this could help some people out there who are going through the same thing because there really is NOTHING online. I do feel as if there needs to a lot more research on MDMA seeing as it is so widely used especially by the youth today. There is a lot we don't know about this drug and what it could affect, I have decided never to use it again as I would never want to risk this happening to me again. It was a good phase of my life. I enjoyed it extensively, Enjoyed several music festivals but its just not worth risking my well being for. It is by far the best feeling I ever had. But ever since this happened to me I will no longer condone its use to any of my friends or anyone in general.
Im not saying what happened to me will happen to everyone else but eventually something will unless you are doing it once or twice a year. But that is REALLY hard and I think a lot of people don't fully understand that. Molly isn't physically addictive and you don't need it everyday or anything like that, but its addictive in the sense that when you go out you want to do it. Drinking doesn't cut it anymore. At least that is what I have experienced and seen others experience around me.
Do not quote me as I am not a medical professional. I am just sharing my experience.
Feel free to ask me any questions as there is ALOT I left out just because Im not trying to write a novel on here. 8(
So I started doing "Molly" around the end of November of 2011 and as with a lot of users I got hooked. I started doing it every other weekend and that soon became every weekend sometimes even both Friday and Saturday.
It became all I really ever thought about but I knew it wasn't something you should do often. After a few bad rolls I almost gave up molly but decided on sticking with one good dealer and not buying outside of them.
I never had a bad roll again. Although about a month and a half ago my stomach felt weird, (to the touch) Ive always been really lean and skinny, I still am but in regards to my belly it was always super firm and flat. It somehow in one weeks time frame had felt mushy. still flat but mushy. very weird. I decided just to start running and do more aerobic activity even though I was already incredibly active (maybe it was my metabolism?). It just felt weird to me. At the same time I got Ulcers all down my throat which happened right after I had snorted molly and caused an infection in my throat. It all felt weird to me.
Anyways time goes by and my throat infection has gone away but my stomach remains and symptoms are getting worse. I almost feel like a have a balloon inside my stomach and every time I eat it inflates and my stomach distends so far out I literally looked pregnant, I became constipated and always always hungry. I could feel and hear my stomach gurgling and my intestines moving. It became all I thought about. It started making me depressed. I didn't want to go out or do anything. I was self conscious about it even though nobody could tell but I could. My body was no longer the same.
I did extensive research on it, afraid to go to the doctor, (had no health insurance either) and thought either h pylori bacteria, gastritis, IBS, celiac disease etc... the list goes on.
BUT IN FACT I HAD NONE OF THESE.
I had not linked that what was happening to me could all be happening because of my habitual use of MDMA in the past.
Of course I hadn't thought of it because I had done so much research on it in the past, digestive/stomach issues never came up under long term use systems.
We all know that molly makes us poop on the come up but I never linked the two until I read that although serotonins purpose is to make you feel "good" it also controls your digestive system.
Our intestines are our "second brain". Serotonin is what keeps them going. Just as it helps us sleep and regulates our hunger.
So I put two and two together and realized that what was wrong with me was that my serotonin levels were not equipped enough to have me in a healthy state, which is why I was always down and out (completely out of character for me) and why I was having such horrible stomach issues.
I decided to take 5 htp to somehow re-up my serotonin. I had NO IDEA if it would work but I was willing to give it a chance after reading many mixed reviews.
It was worth a shot.
After only taking it once, ( I am not exaggerating) I felt a world of a difference. Overnight my stomach flattened out. I was having regular bowel movements again, its like my body bounced back overnight. My stomach was still a little bloated but nothing compared to the way it looked and felt before. I felt like I had my health back which was the ONE THING i wanted back. I could easily get back into shape by exercising.
Anyways I really hope that this could help some people out there who are going through the same thing because there really is NOTHING online. I do feel as if there needs to a lot more research on MDMA seeing as it is so widely used especially by the youth today. There is a lot we don't know about this drug and what it could affect, I have decided never to use it again as I would never want to risk this happening to me again. It was a good phase of my life. I enjoyed it extensively, Enjoyed several music festivals but its just not worth risking my well being for. It is by far the best feeling I ever had. But ever since this happened to me I will no longer condone its use to any of my friends or anyone in general.
Im not saying what happened to me will happen to everyone else but eventually something will unless you are doing it once or twice a year. But that is REALLY hard and I think a lot of people don't fully understand that. Molly isn't physically addictive and you don't need it everyday or anything like that, but its addictive in the sense that when you go out you want to do it. Drinking doesn't cut it anymore. At least that is what I have experienced and seen others experience around me.
Do not quote me as I am not a medical professional. I am just sharing my experience.
Feel free to ask me any questions as there is ALOT I left out just because Im not trying to write a novel on here. 8(