stjarna
Bluelighter
June 07, 2003
This is a massive. 10,000+ people, five stages of thumping bumping music, motocross jumping (eyebrow raise), craziness, $2.75 water. And a group of three other friends and I are ready to rock the house and go mad wild. We wander from the jungle stage to the trance stage, and as much as I really don't like trance, if it is loud, it doesn't matter, plus there were crazy cool green laser action here. WHich bounced off mess cylinders and tubes suspended above you.
We got pills there. Within 5 minutes some one had come up to us and we got our stuff. I went into the bathroom to see what i got. Cream/white in color, a capital D with a circle connecting on it. I payed forty dollars... for one pill... DAMNIT! oh well. Nothing I could really do now. That is what i get. It won't matter in a few minutes anyway.
Note to self: Test your freakin pills!
My boy J. tells me that he got a different pill. Brown Mickeys. I tell him that I didn't get the same thing. I debate whether or not to take it. After a few minutes of contemplation I take it. Never the smartest thing to do, but hell... what ever.
10:50 PM: Drop.
Pre roll excitement. We stand around and people watch. Dance a little, purchase bottle of water before the roll begins and then we are set. I wonder whether or not my anemia is going to bother me tonight. I have been taking my iron pretty readily, I heard it can give you mad stomach cramps though.nothing yet, so I am still good.
A good 40 minutes pas... One of my friends has dropped and he is rolling now. He tells us to hurry up. Ny stomach starts to get queasy and I start to get pissy. That means I should start coming up soon.
And then I do about after an hour. A very very mild roll. It is smooth, music starts to sound good I can't help but smile at people and want to dance. Then it hits me....
Time is irrelevant at this time. My eyes start wiggling and all I hear is the music and feel the bass. Oh and there are the jaw clenchies. Damn those jaw clenchies, but they really don't bather me. I drink my water and start to dance.
I meet a girl, she isn't rolling, she is from the east coast and she is a gem. She is cool that I am acting extra e-tarded at that moment because she knows how it is. I give her one of my bracelets. (Sometimes I feel like such a nerd after rolling). When J. rolls he has to sit down because it just hits him really hard. I visit him make out a little and then "scamper" away and dance some more. I dance with some people that I don't know but soon find out there names and learn that they are from the same city. We dance and posture some. Good times interacting with people you really don't know.
This continues for about 4 hours after dropping. I start to get a little tired and don't really have the energy to keep dancing. I sit down and listen to the music. Then pretty much all of a sudden...
I zombied out.
All i can do is be led around by my friends and merely nod at their comments. My eyes are wide and my brain is thinking, but it is blank. Without euphoria, compassion, hate, feeling. I am just merely there. I start to get some strange visual distortions. I see skulls in the used to be awesome lasers. When I close my eyes, windmill rainbow colors patterns move to the music. AT one point people just seem to slide across the floor towards me. Peoples back become their fronts and I forget where I am at times and then remember where I am that same moment. At one point a cobra slid past me out of the corner of my eye until I saw it was only a girl with puffy hair. The funny thing is, I wasn't scared. I was just... there. At one point someone was giving me a light show and I didn't even realize it.
"Are you ok?"
"yeah."
"Are you going to pass out?"
"No."
"Are you ok?"
"Uh huh."
"You look like a zombie."
stare.
At this point it didn't feel like I really needed to respond. this was how I was supposed to be.
Everyone has come down except J. who took two. So we clamber to the car. We drive home and I begin to feel a little more normal. I am tired but I can't sleep. We get back to the house about 5 am. I can't sleep for a long time. I fall asleep before everyone else though. I sleep off and on until about 1 PM. We wake up. My friends haven't slept much if at all. We are very much cracked out. I still feel high that morning. Not normal at all. The next day I feel like shit. My head hurts, no depression, just terrible mind and body fatigue. Later on in that day I am pretty much back to normal. Tired, but able to focus and study for a final.
Today I feel pretty good.
In general the roll was really good and very fun until it got to the weird zombie part. It has made me think of being more cautious then before, how new I am to this and how much I really don't know.
I know now why it is important to test your pills. You don't know what the hell are in those little bitty things of chemicals. I figure there might have been meth, mda, mdma, etc. in it. Who knows now. I sure don't. I have found that the experience has been less enlightening then the first time that i took ecstacy. That makes me a little sad to think that I lost that openness that I experienced the first time. I am thinking that is what they mean by losing the magic. For me anyway. Maybe just not the potency of the pill is the magic, but the experience from that.
This is a massive. 10,000+ people, five stages of thumping bumping music, motocross jumping (eyebrow raise), craziness, $2.75 water. And a group of three other friends and I are ready to rock the house and go mad wild. We wander from the jungle stage to the trance stage, and as much as I really don't like trance, if it is loud, it doesn't matter, plus there were crazy cool green laser action here. WHich bounced off mess cylinders and tubes suspended above you.
We got pills there. Within 5 minutes some one had come up to us and we got our stuff. I went into the bathroom to see what i got. Cream/white in color, a capital D with a circle connecting on it. I payed forty dollars... for one pill... DAMNIT! oh well. Nothing I could really do now. That is what i get. It won't matter in a few minutes anyway.
Note to self: Test your freakin pills!
My boy J. tells me that he got a different pill. Brown Mickeys. I tell him that I didn't get the same thing. I debate whether or not to take it. After a few minutes of contemplation I take it. Never the smartest thing to do, but hell... what ever.
10:50 PM: Drop.
Pre roll excitement. We stand around and people watch. Dance a little, purchase bottle of water before the roll begins and then we are set. I wonder whether or not my anemia is going to bother me tonight. I have been taking my iron pretty readily, I heard it can give you mad stomach cramps though.nothing yet, so I am still good.
A good 40 minutes pas... One of my friends has dropped and he is rolling now. He tells us to hurry up. Ny stomach starts to get queasy and I start to get pissy. That means I should start coming up soon.
And then I do about after an hour. A very very mild roll. It is smooth, music starts to sound good I can't help but smile at people and want to dance. Then it hits me....
Time is irrelevant at this time. My eyes start wiggling and all I hear is the music and feel the bass. Oh and there are the jaw clenchies. Damn those jaw clenchies, but they really don't bather me. I drink my water and start to dance.
I meet a girl, she isn't rolling, she is from the east coast and she is a gem. She is cool that I am acting extra e-tarded at that moment because she knows how it is. I give her one of my bracelets. (Sometimes I feel like such a nerd after rolling). When J. rolls he has to sit down because it just hits him really hard. I visit him make out a little and then "scamper" away and dance some more. I dance with some people that I don't know but soon find out there names and learn that they are from the same city. We dance and posture some. Good times interacting with people you really don't know.
This continues for about 4 hours after dropping. I start to get a little tired and don't really have the energy to keep dancing. I sit down and listen to the music. Then pretty much all of a sudden...
I zombied out.
All i can do is be led around by my friends and merely nod at their comments. My eyes are wide and my brain is thinking, but it is blank. Without euphoria, compassion, hate, feeling. I am just merely there. I start to get some strange visual distortions. I see skulls in the used to be awesome lasers. When I close my eyes, windmill rainbow colors patterns move to the music. AT one point people just seem to slide across the floor towards me. Peoples back become their fronts and I forget where I am at times and then remember where I am that same moment. At one point a cobra slid past me out of the corner of my eye until I saw it was only a girl with puffy hair. The funny thing is, I wasn't scared. I was just... there. At one point someone was giving me a light show and I didn't even realize it.
"Are you ok?"
"yeah."
"Are you going to pass out?"
"No."
"Are you ok?"
"Uh huh."
"You look like a zombie."
stare.
At this point it didn't feel like I really needed to respond. this was how I was supposed to be.
Everyone has come down except J. who took two. So we clamber to the car. We drive home and I begin to feel a little more normal. I am tired but I can't sleep. We get back to the house about 5 am. I can't sleep for a long time. I fall asleep before everyone else though. I sleep off and on until about 1 PM. We wake up. My friends haven't slept much if at all. We are very much cracked out. I still feel high that morning. Not normal at all. The next day I feel like shit. My head hurts, no depression, just terrible mind and body fatigue. Later on in that day I am pretty much back to normal. Tired, but able to focus and study for a final.
Today I feel pretty good.
In general the roll was really good and very fun until it got to the weird zombie part. It has made me think of being more cautious then before, how new I am to this and how much I really don't know.
I know now why it is important to test your pills. You don't know what the hell are in those little bitty things of chemicals. I figure there might have been meth, mda, mdma, etc. in it. Who knows now. I sure don't. I have found that the experience has been less enlightening then the first time that i took ecstacy. That makes me a little sad to think that I lost that openness that I experienced the first time. I am thinking that is what they mean by losing the magic. For me anyway. Maybe just not the potency of the pill is the magic, but the experience from that.
