So just a heads up, im a little new to bluelight and as such this is my first trip report. So bear with me and don't be afraid to provide an criticism, i got thick skin and can take it.
Just a little backstory, feel free to skip if you wish: I was not entirely experienced when it came to drugs at this time and would definetly be considered a noob by most standards around here, still am I suppose. I've used pot quite a bit and as a university student drinking happens a lot.
So anyways here it goes: It was the beginning of August and 20th birthday was edging closer, I definetly wasn't entirely focused on it as i was so busy with work and playign rugby 5 days a week. Then one night sitting around a bonfire with some friends, smoking a little pot and my close friend; (we'll call her K) lets everybody know she's throwing a rave themed party on the 14th of August.. Lo and behold this just happens to be my birthday. Now K is experienced with MDMA having used it 14 times prior, I had even been to party's with her when she was on it. She happens to mention that most people there will be doing MDMA, and that it would make "the best birthday ever" if i was to try it with them.
So in the two weeks leading up to the party (rave? i dont know) I start doing extensive research into the subject. Now I myself am a massive nerd, I make no effort to hide that and take great joy in reading quantum mechanics (science can be a HUGE mindfuck if you know what to study
). Being the nerdy self that I am i look at literally every angle that I can, (this research is when I across bluelight and started my lurking phase haha).
So the big day rolls around and I think I have an idea what to expect. I come prepared with a nice big pack of mentols and my favourite pack of gum ready for a wicked night...
*sidenote.. a friend name R was supplying us all with 1 gram of good MDMA
10 pm: Ok R is a little late.. no big deal I'm sure he'll be here eventually
11pm: Fuck he isn't here yet.. Ok maybe a couple drinks and some weed just to pass the time
12pm: getting anxious.. going to go smoke cigerettes and drink some rum
1am: FUUUUCK where is he?? ** door opens, loud cheers erupt ** He's here, the crowd thats rolling heads upstairs to weight up the doses and parachute. I take 100mg of molly and go for a walk around the block with the girl im seeing, call her L for these purposes. About 15 minutes into the walk, still nothing, maybe a little tingling but nothing major.
1 20 am: Hearts pounding.. "Im starting to feel something, my body feels light. Ok something big is comming, I dont know what but its big. Oh man i thought i knew what i was getting myself into, this is powerful, but i feel a unique benevolence in the back of my mind, this is right, i feel almost at home"
1 40 am: "Alright this is good, i think im good take another 50 mgs now, I read thats what most people do when they start peaking. "
Shortly after: "waves.. I can feel waves, i can see them when i move my eyes.. touch my skin.. I think im going to put that pink floyd song on that talks about comming through in waves.. ya thats what i would really like right now"
1 45 am: "K your face.. its so beautiful, i feel beautiful, lets go meditate in the park, L you should come with us." My shirt comes off, so does my pants but most people are far to gone at this point and there all nearly naked anyways. I start doing the usual mdma things, everybody is totally cool with giving me hand rubs, lett me hug them and all that stuff
2 15am : Me K and L are all at park right by the house, sitting under K's favourite tree, meditating and giving eachother massages, everything is so blissful, but i feel like dancing, and they both agree so we go back to the rave
after an undisclosed amount of dancing the three of us go back to the park and start swinging on the swings.. I feel like a kid again
4 30 am: K is starting to come down, but me and L are still flying high, I've regained some composure but i can't stop touching my lips, there smooth and so sensual. Alas K leaves us though, takes a lorazapam (sp?) and goes to bed
500am: L and I go to the park, keep in mind im only walking around in my boxers still lol. We grab K's special massage stuff and give eachother really nice massages in the park.. some hanky panky of course but we were both loving life so much it didnt matter, we pass a couple police officers on the way back to the house but they just look at the two weirdo's in thier underwear walking around at 6am and let us be.. strange no?
600am : I can start to feel the waves of euphoria becoming more and more separated, so my friend T says she has just the right trick.. SHe says she's goign to push the spinal fluid back into my brain, after doing this funky thing by pushing increasingly upward on my spine i get a huge euphoric rush. At this point in also hallucinating pretty good to, Im seeing glasses on people, people are riding imaginary bikes and so much more
700 am: alright definetly almost back to baseline.. i just feel so tired.. fall alseep and procede to wake up every few hours
done sorry for the length but i did my best
Just a little backstory, feel free to skip if you wish: I was not entirely experienced when it came to drugs at this time and would definetly be considered a noob by most standards around here, still am I suppose. I've used pot quite a bit and as a university student drinking happens a lot.
So anyways here it goes: It was the beginning of August and 20th birthday was edging closer, I definetly wasn't entirely focused on it as i was so busy with work and playign rugby 5 days a week. Then one night sitting around a bonfire with some friends, smoking a little pot and my close friend; (we'll call her K) lets everybody know she's throwing a rave themed party on the 14th of August.. Lo and behold this just happens to be my birthday. Now K is experienced with MDMA having used it 14 times prior, I had even been to party's with her when she was on it. She happens to mention that most people there will be doing MDMA, and that it would make "the best birthday ever" if i was to try it with them.
So in the two weeks leading up to the party (rave? i dont know) I start doing extensive research into the subject. Now I myself am a massive nerd, I make no effort to hide that and take great joy in reading quantum mechanics (science can be a HUGE mindfuck if you know what to study
). Being the nerdy self that I am i look at literally every angle that I can, (this research is when I across bluelight and started my lurking phase haha). So the big day rolls around and I think I have an idea what to expect. I come prepared with a nice big pack of mentols and my favourite pack of gum ready for a wicked night...
*sidenote.. a friend name R was supplying us all with 1 gram of good MDMA
10 pm: Ok R is a little late.. no big deal I'm sure he'll be here eventually
11pm: Fuck he isn't here yet.. Ok maybe a couple drinks and some weed just to pass the time
12pm: getting anxious.. going to go smoke cigerettes and drink some rum
1am: FUUUUCK where is he?? ** door opens, loud cheers erupt ** He's here, the crowd thats rolling heads upstairs to weight up the doses and parachute. I take 100mg of molly and go for a walk around the block with the girl im seeing, call her L for these purposes. About 15 minutes into the walk, still nothing, maybe a little tingling but nothing major.
1 20 am: Hearts pounding.. "Im starting to feel something, my body feels light. Ok something big is comming, I dont know what but its big. Oh man i thought i knew what i was getting myself into, this is powerful, but i feel a unique benevolence in the back of my mind, this is right, i feel almost at home"
1 40 am: "Alright this is good, i think im good take another 50 mgs now, I read thats what most people do when they start peaking. "
Shortly after: "waves.. I can feel waves, i can see them when i move my eyes.. touch my skin.. I think im going to put that pink floyd song on that talks about comming through in waves.. ya thats what i would really like right now"
1 45 am: "K your face.. its so beautiful, i feel beautiful, lets go meditate in the park, L you should come with us." My shirt comes off, so does my pants but most people are far to gone at this point and there all nearly naked anyways. I start doing the usual mdma things, everybody is totally cool with giving me hand rubs, lett me hug them and all that stuff
2 15am : Me K and L are all at park right by the house, sitting under K's favourite tree, meditating and giving eachother massages, everything is so blissful, but i feel like dancing, and they both agree so we go back to the rave
after an undisclosed amount of dancing the three of us go back to the park and start swinging on the swings.. I feel like a kid again
4 30 am: K is starting to come down, but me and L are still flying high, I've regained some composure but i can't stop touching my lips, there smooth and so sensual. Alas K leaves us though, takes a lorazapam (sp?) and goes to bed
500am: L and I go to the park, keep in mind im only walking around in my boxers still lol. We grab K's special massage stuff and give eachother really nice massages in the park.. some hanky panky of course but we were both loving life so much it didnt matter, we pass a couple police officers on the way back to the house but they just look at the two weirdo's in thier underwear walking around at 6am and let us be.. strange no?
600am : I can start to feel the waves of euphoria becoming more and more separated, so my friend T says she has just the right trick.. SHe says she's goign to push the spinal fluid back into my brain, after doing this funky thing by pushing increasingly upward on my spine i get a huge euphoric rush. At this point in also hallucinating pretty good to, Im seeing glasses on people, people are riding imaginary bikes and so much more
700 am: alright definetly almost back to baseline.. i just feel so tired.. fall alseep and procede to wake up every few hours
done
sorry for the length but i did my best
